The Fantasy
The yellow pegasus once again finds herself in that field of which she could only dream of. It's such a nice place, but the loneliness of it has only grown more apparent over the years she's spent here. The butterflies that frolic around the flowers aren't ones for conversation, and the bird songs cry out from non-existent avians. She is completely alone, lost in the meadow of her own headspace.
The pegasus believes that nopony else will ever come here and stay with her, because she's not worth their time. As much as she wishes that this beautiful place could be shared, she knows that it's not meant to be. Even if she found somepony, they would just abandon her again. She lies down on the field in defeat, getting ready for it to consume her with sorrow once again. But this time, a lavender alicorn appears right next to her in a flash of bright purple magic.
She lies down next to the pegasus, draping her wing over her and providing comfort. The pegasus expects this figure to fly away at any moment, but that moment never arrives. This time is different from the rest, this time the field does not envelop her into darkness. The ground beneath stays bright and green, but to her the brightest thing there is the mare who's sitting right next to her. The two ponies stay together, side by side, until the field slowly vanishes into nothing but a dream that once was.
Fluttershy
As I regain consciousness, I can feel bittersweet tears welling up in my closed eyelids. I don't want it to just be a dream, I want it to be real. I keep my eyes shut and try to go back into that blissful fantasy, to no avail. But as I slowly become aware of all my senses, something feels off. My blanket feels a lot softer than it normally does, and my bed feels as hard as stone. I can also hear something above my head. Is that...... breathing? I lazily open my eyes, and am greeted with a sight that nearly makes me pass back out.
My face is nestled right into somepony else, a lavender alicorn to be exact. I let out a soft gasp in surprise, before looking around to make sure that this is real. Sure enough, it really is Twilight cuddling me. Memories come flooding back of the previous night, and how we huddled together for warmth. I also vaguely remember admitting my love right before I fell asleep, but I don't know what Twilight said in response, if she said anything at all. I guess I'll just have to wait until she wakes up, not that I mind being in her sleeping embrace for longer.
I lie there next to her for a good half an hour, no, the best half an hour. Every so often she'll make a soft little grunt or snort in her sleep, shifting ever so slightly. Even while she's asleep, Twilight is just so adorable. Eventually, I feel her shift even more than usual, followed by her perfect eyes slowly opening. Oh Celestia, her eyes are just so pretty..... She smiles warmly as soon as she sees me awake by her side, overcome with pure joy.
"Good morning, Flutters..... yawn...... How did you sleep?" My cheeks light up with a crimson glow as soon as she says that nickname, and I bury my face into her chest out of embarrassment while trying to respond at the same time.
"hhjhkjgskjfgskkghuerhigtihgrhgiehrgklehgighehgh" She giggles at my failed attempt to communicate.
"You're going to have to speak a little bit more clearly for me, Flutters." I squeak into her chest, provoking another playful giggle from her. I know she's just toying with me at this point, but I'm not mad at her. In fact, I'm actually kind of enjoying it.
"I can't believe that you're really here..............." I lift my muzzle from her chest so she can hear me better. "I...... I just need to ask you s-something...... something very important. If that's okay with you....."
"Of course it is, Fluttershy. You can ask me anything."
"O-okay....." I take a deep breath, which inadvertently gives me a good taste of her wonderful scent. Strangely enough, this seems to help calm me down. "D-do..... do you l-love me?" She giggles again, as if the answer to this is obvious.
"Yes, I love you. Did you even need to ask that?" I look up directly at her, not convinced.
"I mean like.... REALLY love me. Like.... more than just as a friend......."
"Fluttershy, we affectionately cuddled each other to sleep on the floor of your cottage. Any sense that this could just be a simple friendship with nothing more to it has been completely defenestrated." I can feel my heart skip multiple beats, and hope bubbles to the surface of my stomach.
"So does that mean....... we're marefriends now?" She kisses me on the forehead, sending me to the realm of absolute happiness, love, and joy for what feels like an eternity. Rainbows are going through my brain, intertwined with shining hearts.
"Yes Flutters, we're marefriends." She laughs at herself in embarrassment, her cheeks matching the same fiery colors as mine. "Honestly, I have no idea how I never noticed my love for you sooner. I had been getting this odd feeling around you for the past month or so, not knowing what it was. But last night when you confessed your love to me, everything just kind of clicked together." I shift myself up her body a little bit and nuzzle her cheek affectionately.
"What matters is that we're together now, and nothing is going to change that."
We spend the next 15 minutes just cuddling each other, feeling our bodies mix together in a beautiful harmony sung only by the most romantic of lovebirds. During our soft happiness session, I feel my tail subconsciously intertwine with hers, creating a spiral of pink and purple like none that the world has ever seen. The feeling of being so close and intimate with Twilight is absolutely indescribable, I don't have any words that would do it justice. I've never felt this much joy before in my life, and for once the nagging thought that I don't deserve it fades away into the background, drowned out by the pure warm affection I'm receiving from my new marefriend. All good things must come to an end though, and I have duties to uphold in the morning.
"I'm so sorry that we have to stop this early, but I really do have to give all of the animals their breakfasts." Twilight lovingly strokes my mane, gazing right into my eyes.
"I love you, Fluttershy." I giggle in response.
"I love you too, Twily."
Twilight
I can feel the blood rushing to my cheeks after Fluttershy calls me that. This must some sort of sick revenge for me calling her "Flutters". I'll just have to think of a more embarrassing pet name to use on her later. I watch as she slowly gets up off of the ground and stretches her limbs, letting out an endearing little grunt. Celestia above, I love her. To think that I didn't even realize my true feelings for her less than 12 hours ago, and now I'm absolutely head over hooves for her.
I lie paralyzed on the ground for the next little while, simply watching her feed all of the animals. She's humming this happy little tune as she does it, her angelic vocations penetrating every corner of my auditory cortex. Is this what's been missing from my life this whole time? Somepony that I really, truly love? Of course I love Celestia, my brother, Cadence, my parents, and all of my other friends and family, but this feels..... different. I don't know how to describe it.
There's not really a logical, or even magical, explanation for what this love feels like. It's almost as if my heart has grown wings and is trying to fly out of my chest and into hers, but that doesn't make any sense. Hearts can't grow wings, at least not without major genetical modifications that I really would not be comfortable doing. And why would it want to leave my chest? It would definitely kill me, and would most likely kill her as well considering the size of the hole it would have to make in order join with her heart. Actually come to think of it, winged hearts would be a pretty cool name for a band, I should write that one down just in case I ever need to-
"Twilight, are you okay?"
"Gah!" I yell out in surprise, causing Fluttershy to squeak and stumble backwards. "S-sorry. I was just a bit lost in the maze of my brain there."
"N-no it....... it's fine........." She recovers from her shock, standing back up on all fours. "I had just finished with the meals for my little friends, and I was wondering if you're hungry as well. I..... I could make something........ if you want......." At the mention of food, I hear my stomach growl hungrily.
"That sounds lovely, Fluttershy."
"Oh no, it really wouldn't be. My cooking really isn't that good and-" I cut her off by placing my hoof on her mouth.
"I'm sure it will be wonderful, no matter how good you think you are." I pull my foreleg back, trusting that she won't further diminish herself for the time being. "If you'd like, I could help! I've learned a little bit about using my magic to make food, and I'd love an opportunity to practice!" This seems to brighten her expression.
"Oh that would be fantastic, Twilight!" She flies in for a hug, her forelegs wrapping around my neck in a soft grasp. After she pulls away, I follow her into the kitchen to start preparing. "So, um..... what would you like to make?"
"Hmmmmmm.... You know, I could really go for some nice pancakes right now." She nods in agreement.
"Oh, I love pancakes! I'll mix up all of the dry ingredients, and you can crack the eggs and melt the butter.... if that's alright........."
"Sounds good to me." I bring over a couple of eggs with my magic while Fluttershy starts to mix together the flour, baking powder, salt, and sugar in a bowl. I crack open the first egg into a small container, and look over to see how Fluttershy's doing. She's happily sifting the ingredients together, making sure that she's using the proper amount of each one. I find myself just staring at her, completely ensnared by her beauty.
The way her mane flows to one side, those soft little noises she makes while she's happy, everything about her is so perfect. I can't help but feel like I'm just not good enough for her, she deserves somepony better. Why did she fall in love with me of all ponies? What makes me so special, other than my royal status which she clearly doesn't care about..... I just can't for the life of me see what makes me worthy of her love.
"Twilight?" I jolt back to reality. "Are.... are you going to crack that egg? If you don't want to that's okay..........."
"No, I got it!" I hastily crack the egg, getting a bit of yolk on the countertop. I then cast a quick heating spell on the butter to melt it slightly, just enough so that it's no longer as hard as a brick. We mix together the wet ingredients with the dry ones, forming the batter. I use my magic to light a small fire under the frying pan, heating it up for the incoming pancakes. Fluttershy pours the batter onto the pan while I flip the pancakes with my telekinesis, baking in perfect harmony with her. After we're done, we stack up all of the pancakes onto 2 plates and slather them with syrup.
"Wow, this looks delicious!" Fluttershy nods in agreement.
"Imagine Pinkie's face if she saw all of these......"
"She would devour them all in under a second." We both giggle to ourselves and sit down to eat. After going through a few pancakes, I bring up an important question. "Hey Fluttershy...... how are we going to tell our friends about our relationship?" This seems to make her a bit nervous, but she ponders it for a second.
"Well..... Rarity and Pinkie Pie already know.......... so that just leaves Rainbow and Applejack." I recall my recent encounter with Rainbow Dash, thinking about what she said to me with an embarrassed blush on my face.
"Yeah, I think Rainbow probably knows as well. So just Applejack, then. We can probably make time to head over to Sweet Apple Acres today and give her the news." Fluttershy starts to shift in her seat uncomfortably.
"But..... but what if she doesn't approve? What if she....... hates us?" I can see panic swelling in her eyes as she talks, and she starts to hyperventilate uncontrollably. I clumsily fly over to her, and place a hoof on her shoulder consolingly.
"Relax Fluttershy, it'll be okay. I'll be right there with you the whole time, and I'm sure Applejack will accept us."
"You....... you can't know that." I heave out a heavy sigh.
"You're right. I can't. But I trust Applejack, and she would never do anything to hurt us, no matter what she thinks." Through my forehoof, I can feel Fluttershy's breathing get steadier as she calms down. She turns to me slowly, shifting her mane out of its defensive stance. After fully facing me, she places her hoof over top of mine, creating a sandwich of yellow and purple fur.
"Th-thank...... thank you, Twilight. I..... I think I can go...... so long as you're there with me."
"Of course I'll be there, Fluttershy. You won't have to do any of this alone, not anymore." I shift my hoof off of her shoulder, and her hoof slips off of mine in the process. We unanimously decide to finish our pancakes before heading over to Sweet Apple Acres. I don't want to admit it to her, but I'm also really scared about this. What if Applejack doesn't accept us? She'll never want to see us again, and the elements of harmony will be all out of balance, and it'll be all my fault! But no matter how terrifying it is, I have to be strong. For her.
We arrive at Sweet Apple Acres after a short stroll together through the crisp late morning air. Actually, what's the proper term for this time of day? Late morning? Pre-noon? Early afternoon? Wait that last one makes no sense, it isn't even noon yet! Gah! There should be term like "Brunch" but for time of day, it's infuriating that I can't think of one! Wait actually I think I've heard of one before, it's-
"Twilight!" Fluttershy grabs me right before I walk straight into an apple tree.
"Woah! Thanks for the save, Flutters." I look around and see that we've reached the farmhouse without me even noticing. It's eerily quiet, and I don't see any of the apple family around outside.
"W-Where is everypony?" I shrug in response as we approach the door. I knock 3 times, but receive no response.
"Is anypony there?!" I shout into the door, but still get nothing in return.
"I think nopony's home, Twily........ Maybe we should come back later?" I shake my head.
"There has to be somepony here, they wouldn't leave the farm unattended. I'll just go in and take a look."
"I don't know if-" Before I hear her objection, I've already opened the door. Everything seems normal, but I can sense that something is off. I walk inside, with Fluttershy meekly following me, quivering in fear. There's an eerie silence all around the house, with the only sounds being the floorboards creaking against our own hooves. It almost feels like it's a horror movie, and something is going to jump out at any-
Fluttershy
"SURPRISE!!!!!!" I scream out in terror and fall to the floor behind Twilight as a pink pony jumps out from the inside of a potted plant with the bang of a party cannon. My eyes dart around the room, overwhelmed with the sudden onslaught of bright colors in every possible direction. I quickly hide my face behind my wings while cowering on the ground, waiting for everything to just go away. Over the sound of my heart beating at the speed of a Wonderbolt hyped up on locoweed, I can hear some voices around me.
"Ah told y'all that we shouldn't have made it uh suhpraise party! Jus' look at the poor thing!
"Hey, it wasn't MY idea! This is totally Pinkie's fault!"
"Really, Rainbow? And you weren't the one who said that we should, and I quote, 'scare the feathers out of their wings'?"
"I was JOKING!"
"Yippee! We really surprised them good! Twilight is so excited, she's not even moving!"
Shaking like mad, I slowly peek out from my wings to see what's going on in the world outside of my social safety zone. Immediately I see a few ponies gathered around, which I quickly recognize as my friends. Twilight is petrified in place, eyes wide and mouth agape. Confetti is raining down as if a party hurricane had hit the place in a flash storm, and there's a large banner with multicolor text that I can't fully read with my feathers in the way. Yellow and purple balloons are infecting every corner of the room, appearing in places you would least expect.
"Wh-wh-what is all this?" My voice is muffled through my wings, barely audible enough to make out. That doesn't stop Pinkie from hearing me and bouncing right up to my face with vigor.
"Well obviously it's the celebration party for your new relationship, silly! What else could it be?" I take a more careful look at the banner, reading what it says. "Congratulations! You're Marefriends!" Twilight recovers from her paralysis just enough so that she can stammer out half of a response.
"H-how did you-"
"Well my tail was twitching and my eyes were jumbling and my left foreleg was rotating counter-clockwise and my nose was releasing some sort of strange blue liquid that tasted like strawberries, so that meant that two of my friends had fallen in love and were going to head over to Sweet Apple Acres and I couldn't miss out on the opportunity to throw a party for you so I told everypony and now we're here and maybe we can even finally have that book party I was talking about and oh it'll be so much fun I can be the pages and you can-"
"Ahm, ah book what now?" Applejack interrupts the Pinkie ramble, unsure of what's even happening anymore. Twilight sighs, her body no longer refusing to move.
"You don't want to know." I giggle at this, and then move up next to Twilight. The initial terror of this surprise party has worn off, and I can feel my rapid heartrate begin to slowly simmer down. I feel so much calmer when I'm around her now, which is a nice change of pace from the intense anxiety I used to get from just being in the same room as her. Twilight still makes me a bit nervous, but most of that fear has been alleviated now that I know she shares my feelings.
"So?" Rainbow Dash is looking at both me and Twilight inquisitively, hovering in the air. "Is it true? I'm not saying I don't trust the Pinkie sense, but she HAS been wrong before." Rarity nods in agreement.
"Yes it has been..... inaccurate at times, to put it lightly." I look over to Twilight, who catches on and nods her head to show that she's ready.
"Y-yes. T-Twi... Twilight and I.... we are officially in a relationship. I hope that's okay with you.........." I don't know why I even said that last part, I know for a fact that they're all going to be accepting of it if they attended this party. But before I can think of anything else, Twilight and I are immediately assaulted by an unrelenting barrage of hugs and congratulations. Tears start welling up in my eyes, I've never felt so accepted and supported before in my whole life. Especially not back at home........
Shaking that invasive thought out of my head, the others break off of us and shift their focus to the party at hoof. I've never really been very good at parties, so I kind of just stand awkwardly in the corner, rubbing my forehooves together and playing with my mane. It seems like everypony is really getting into the swing of it after that rough start. Rarity is putting on a light show with her magic, Rainbow Dash is having hard cider with Applejack in some sort of drinking competition, Pinkie Pie is throwing books at a piñata, and Twilight is....... where is Twilight? My internal question gets answered almost instantly with a peck on the cheek, followed by a loud cheer from our friends. I'm blushing so hard that I nearly pass out, only kept conscious by the thought that I get to spend the rest of the day with my lover if I stay awake.
Just when the party seems like it's starting to die down, Pinkie brings in this massive buttercup and lavender layered cake with a huge grin on her face. I'm not sure how she managed to bake that entire thing on such short notice, but I decide not to question it. It is Pinkie Pie, after all. The cake tastes absolutely fantastic, the swirl of the two flowery flavors dancing in unison on my tongue.
I look over to my side and see Twilight gorging herself on the cake, icing spraying out in the wake of her hunger. To some ponies this might be seen as immature or disrespectful, but to me it's just oh so charming. One thing I love so much about her is how she's not afraid to be herself in front of others, even if she does sometimes get embarrassed about it later. It makes me feel more confident about myself around her, like I can do anything and nopony will judge me for it.
Within about 20 minutes, the entire cake has vanished and everypony can feel the party coming to a close. Rainbow Dash had um..... one too many swigs of cider, and is getting carried out of the house on Applejack's back while mumbling something about being a "Vuntergolt". I really do hope she'll be okay, nopony comes out of a drinking competition against Applejack victorious. Other than maybe Pinkie, but I don't think she's ever challenged AJ. Come to think of it, I can never really tell if Pinkie is drunk or not at a party.
Speaking of Pinkie, she's now pleading us to stay for the "book burning". Applejack, returned from depositing Rainbow somewhere safe, evicts Pinkie from the premises without hesitation. Rarity takes her leave as well, but not before congratulating me and Twilight one last time on our new relationship. She was definitely the pony most excited about it in the party, she wouldn't stop talking about how cute we are together and how good our "aesthetic" is. Twilight eventually told her to stop, seeing how uncomfortable it was making me. Oh, I just love her so much. I want to give her something important, something to show just how much I care. It should be simple, but sentimental. As she trots up to my side to leave AJ's house with me, my gay little brain sparks with an idea. I know just what to get for her.
Twilight
That party was.... AMAZING! I don't even know how long we were there, but I can see that the sky is already starting to darken. But I don't care what hour of the day it is, I just want to be with Fluttershy for as much time as possible. I press up my side against her as we walk through Sweet Apple Acres, wrapping my wing over her. She responds by nuzzling her face against my cheek, leaving behind a red mark of blush. The romantic silence is only broken by her perfect voice, a voice that makes me feel heat all over my body every time I hear it.
"Twilight...... um..... if it's not too much to ask............ could we go back to my cottage? There's something I'd love to show you." I look over to my side, seeing her face smoldering with red-hot blush. "And maybe we could even..... stay the night there together again..... if you'd want that......"
"I'd love to, Fluttershy! It'll be nice to sleep together without using the floor as a mattress." She lets out a squee of delight, and then rubs up against my flank. I nibble a bit at her ear, which makes her giggle a little bit in response. Her laughs are so contagious, and I can't help but release a few chuckles of my own, my muzzle still right at her auditory receptors. This prompts her to crack up even more, causing an infinite loop of joy until we're running to her cottage together, laughing like little fillies the entire way. We ignore all of the strange looks we're getting from the ponies that we pass by, not having a care in the world about anything other than each other.
Once we get to the humble cottage we stop to catch our breaths, still lightly giggling at each other. The sun is setting, lighting up the sky in beauty only rivaled by the mare standing next to me. After composing ourselves, Fluttershy beckons me over to her garden, which is filled with a wide assortment of variously colored plants. I quickly realize that these are the plants she uses for her tea, and crack a smile as I take a good sniff of the amazing scent coming from them. This must be why she smells so good..... my cheeks quickly flare up at my own thought, and I silently scold myself for thinking like that. Luckily, Fluttershy distracts me by directing my attention to a bright blue flower that seems to be in it's own special place among the foliage.
"This flower...... I've had it ever since I started living here." The flowers petals curve out like a lotus, and I can quickly count that it has twelve of them. The pistil is a much deeper blue than the rest of the flower, sticking out like the eye of a storm.
"It.... it's gorgeous, I've never seen a flower like this before."
"Yeah...... It just starting growing out of this flower pot right after I moved in, I guess the previous owners must have left the seed in here before leaving. It's never once wilted, not even during extreme storms. I've done a bit of research, but I've never found out what species it is." I look closely at it, and it almost seems to give off a faint glow. "It..... it's very special to me." Emotional tears are starting to well up in her eyes, and suddenly I realize what's happening.
"Fluttershy, no..... you don't have to-"
"No. Twilight, I want you to have it. This flower has lasted through so many years, and it still keeps on living. There's nothing that could possibly kill it, just like our love for each other. No matter what happens, I'll never stop loving you." Tears are beginning to form in my own eyes now, unable to handle new emotions like this. She picks the flower from the pot it's resting in, now holding it softly in her mouth. Her beautiful mouth.......... I feel a pull, but not a physical one. It's as if the forces of nature are pulling us together, and my own body is acting on it's own volition. In the last moments before I instinctually close my eyes, I can see her leaning into me. And then....... Oh Sweet Celestia~
This is...... something else. Feeling her muzzle against mine, her soft lips pressing into me....... it's like nothing I've ever felt before. None of the books I've read on this subject in my entire life could've prepared me for the real thing, this is not a sensation you can use words to describe. My body is acting purely on instinct, and for once I don't mind being unprepared. Kissing her is like fluently speaking a language I didn't even know existed, with our conversation consisting of nothing but pure love and affection.
Our maws slowly open for each other, and she rolls her tongue ever so slightly into my mouth and transfers the flower from her muzzle to mine. Even if it was just for a brief moment, the feeling of her tongue crossing over through the border of my lips is amazing. Eventually, our mouths part from one another and my eyes reopen. I'm gazing at her lovingly, with the blue flower now grasped in my mouth.
"Twilight I....... I want to be like this with you. Forever."
Forever...... for some reason this word makes me feel a bit nervous, like I'm forgetting something important. But seeing her here in front of me washes away all of my worries into the deep sea of my subconscious, where I hope they'll never resurface. I slowly nod my head, and give her my full reciprocation.
"Forever."
~End Of Chapter 5~