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// Chapter 1 - Defeated 
// Story: After All, We're The Same? 
// by DudyMooner 
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Chapter 1 - Defeated



This week is one of the worst of my life. Seriously, I really mean it, one of the worst! I wish everything that happened at that moment was just a miserable, pathetic nightmare so I could laugh in my face later and leave to lead my entire Hive. But the reality is... very different.

I wanted to believe that it wasn't real, I begged that it was just another nightmare, but no, they really destroyed me that day, they gave me a blow that I couldn't even do in the "Canterlot Incident", and that blow changed my life even more, my life always changed when something like this happened, and this was no different, all my subjects turned against me, against the one who raised them, the one who took care of them, the one who gave them everything, especially that traitor, Thorax.

I should have known that he had always been fearful, but no, I just preferred to let it go.

The only thing I did with my life was to take care of my subjects, I tried hard to find at least a small portion of love to give them, and well, sometimes some creatures crossed the border into my kingdom and, of course, I took the opportunity to get all their love, if it was a bigger creature, all the better for me, I'd even have some more to eat the next day. As for Canterlot's wedding, it was one of the best plans I'd ever planned, the disguise was difficult but it worked, I wasn't very lucky that day, the love was stronger than me, and in this last plan, I captured Twilight and her friends and all the other royalty, but I'd only forgotten about four others - Discord, the traitor Thorax, one I'd never seen and especially the one that ruined my life: Starlight Glimmer.

I hate her! Really, deep down in my chest, she ruined my life together with Thorax, with the stroke it had, she made my subjects revolt, with such grotesque, sentimental and disgusting words, I can't take it. She said she was also a leader like me (from what I understand), tsk, nothing to do with it! No one will ever be like me. Now what I want for her is for her to die, in some way, to be burned, frozen, tortured, imprisoned somewhere, starved to death, in any way.

When I saw that all the changelings were transforming, the glow that was coming was intense, I was just paralyzed, staring straight ahead with my eyes fixed on a part of my throne room, at the end, boom, I was thrown up from my seat, I'll admit it, I thought it would be the end of me right there, the end of my life, so I had closed my eyes, wondering what would come next, what my fate would be.

After waiting a few minutes, I didn't hear anything, until I opened my eyes again and I was standing on, what was it, the walls of my throne room, I started to hear what was around me, they were breaking out of their cocoons, everyone I captured was leaving, my plan was once again... ruined. And again I could say that I was defeated. I didn't want to believe it.

Another thing I hate is defeat. Being defeated is a really bad feeling, and when you have it, the only desire that comes to mind is the beautiful word that all heroes and villains hear: Revenge.

I got up from the rags that were now useless and I did what most changelings would do, hiss. I didn't want to accept this defeat, not ever, but life is cruel to me, everyone looked at me and I looked at them, their faces were all the same, it was anger, another feeling I'm used to, since every time a subject of mine made a mistake, they were punished in some way, and I didn't feel bad, I learned never to have compassion. That was life after all. After looking at the others, I sat down again, looking at the ground that belonged to my kingdom, another feeling was coming over me at that moment: anguish and sadness, and in order not to be weak, I controlled myself, I didn't like being seen sad by others.

And in the next scene, I began to look up quietly, and I also began to see the pony that had ruined my life, Starlight Glimmer, who, unlike the other ponies, didn't have a single hint of anger on her face, and I couldn't understand why she wasn't angry with me. The answer came when she lifted her hoof and put it on the ground. I remember to this day the only conversation she and I ever had...

"When Twilight and her friends defeated me, I chose to run away and seek revenge"

At the time I hadn't thought about it, but then I asked myself recently, was she evil? Like me? No! As I said, no one is like me, I'm different from the others and I'm proud of that, I'm not like the Equestria ponies where they say that friendship is magic, Starlight Glimmer is the same, isn't she? Also, she's the pupil of the Princess of Friendship herself, something must have happened to her in the past, but who am I to care, right?

"You don't have to!"

I was still looking at her at that moment, her face was either worried or sad, I couldn't tell at that moment, and she has the capacity to tell me what to do! How annoying! I wanted at that moment to throw a strike in her face, who does she think she is! It's a good thing she doesn't know anything about my life, if she did, she'd be in trouble. The desire for revenge is the greatest desire of every villain who is defeated, I saw it once in a story I read, and it was coming true in me.

"You can be the leader your subjects deserve"

She finished her words by looking at me, at this moment I was just looking at her with a certain anguish, I was weak and defeated, otherwise I would have attacked her anyway, she was actually insulting me with such sentimental words, how disgusting, as I said earlier, she doesn't know anything about my life and I bet she doesn't know anything about the changelings, and if she does, it's because of that fearful Thorax. I think Starlight was taking too many risks at the time, honestly, she hadn't thought about the consequences.

At the time, I had thought about what I could have done, I looked down at the ground again, still with a touch of angst in my eyes, I hated it, I didn't like being sad at all. I hadn't mentioned it, the wind was ruffling my hair at the time, if I hadn't been angry, I would have liked it. A few seconds later, I felt something close to me, a kind of vital force, but no, it was just Starlight's hoof moving towards me, and by then I was surprised and still distressed, surprised because... she was giving me a chance to "change". As if I could change into a better changeling, ha!

I went back to looking at Starlight Glimmer, who was now in a different mood, with a confident smile from what I saw, she really thought she could change me right then, it was her chance after all. I was starting to think in different ways, like if I had become a changeling like them or what my life would be like if I accepted that offer. Now I wasn't looking at the ground anymore, but at my hoof, half-soaked in dirt, I was nearly surrendering because of a pony. To this day I don't understand why I was thinking that way, wasn't I evil?

I was about to make the most stupid decision of my life. Just at that hour. In the same place. I was going to embrace the magic of friendship.

Decisions are hard to take, as I looked at her again I began to slowly lift my hoof closer to my face, and then, I would let my soul be given over to that idiot Starlight. My hoof would slowly move closer to her, time passed slowly for me, then I had some more time to think, think and think, deep down in my chest, deep down, there would be one thing that would stop me from doing this, and I knew it. The time had come to seek revenge, after all, I was defeated.

It was very close, very, very close, I wouldn't give in, my eyes were no longer as anguished as before, now they were filled with anger, the strongest feeling inside me was coming out, I controlled my whole body again and, in the end, I raised my hoof again and slapped Starlight's hoof. I admit it was glorious, but it wasn't time to think about it. I saw that she was surprised at that moment, so I didn't care too much.

This was the time to say a few words to the pony who beat me, the pony who ruined my life, Twilight is an exception, but for Starlight, it's even worse. My whole life has been for the only family I've ever had, basically.

"There is no revenge you could ever conceive of that will come close to what I will exact upon you one day, Starlight Glimmer!"

And for the last time I saw the surprised look on Starlight's face, thinking she could change me, I stepped back, and back, instead of the wedding, I would run away, leave what was my kingdom, the blow would be complete. My life would change again. In the end, I jumped, still on my back, the most tense jump of my life. It was the end of my reign, which had been for many, many years. Now came a new era for my former subjects. What a shame.

I hadn't looked back since I jumped, I just kept going, looking for some shelter for myself, and then food and water.

Soon it would be my time again, the time that all these ponies would suffer in my paws, bowing down to me, I never give up, I take risks and I always go for what I want, all my rage will be destined for them from then on, I always come back, I always attack, I always do, it's not for nothing that my name is Chrysalis, the changeling who made history, the changeling who doesn't have love inside her body.

And I will always be a QUEEN.