Silence…that’s all there was for what felt forever, the two friends staring into each other’s disheveled eyes. Sunset couldn’t fathom what had just happened, she just went up to the rooftop to see on of her best friends attempting…suicide…Rainbow Dash just almost killed herself. Why? This, this doesn't make any sense at all. Why would Rainbow do this? Sh-she is always so happy and full of joy and excitement… She pondered to herself as she continued to stare at the athlete who was now curled up into a little ball, looking at Sunset’s shoes. Sunset continued to wrack her brain around what she just witnessed, she knew that all her friends struggled with things and this would be more believable with any one them. Applejack: Her parents died when she was very young and had to take over an entire business at age twelve and basically raise her little sister. Rarity’s family was so rich but they put so much pressure onto her to stay rich, marry rich and make the family look good, they would much rather have her starve then be what could be classified as “fat.” Fluttershy? Well…she had always been tormented by people her whole life, it isn’t at all surprising to think that she would want to end it all. And even Pinkie, she masks a lot. Sunset knew that because that’s something she and her hyper friend had in common, hiding their emotions behind their smile. Though Pinkie definitely struggled more. Even Twilight, the burden of getting possessed by dark magic took a large toll on both mental and physical health. Sunset sighed out as she winced a bit thinking of her back scars that still hurt today from that night…but still…Rainbow Dash? She was the very last person Sunset would think to do this. She was perfect, her life was perfect. She was the captain of all the sports teams at CHS, she was the top athlete and was more ripped than over half of the senior male jocks. Rainbow was dating Sorin, and he was a good guy for her, they both loved sports so much and he was still very sweet and kinda geeky like her (though Rainbow would never admit that aload). Sure, she didn’t have the greatest grades in the world but it was only junior year and she had plenty of time to improve them; she had everything going good for her. Yet, here she is, or there she was…about to jump…before Sunset saved her just in time.
“R-rainbow…” Sunset finally stuttered out, sheepishly as she clutched her jacket around her tightly. “D-do you wanna tal-”
“No!” The blue skinned teen whimpered out, interrupting Sunset mid sentence.
“O-okay…”
Silence again. This drove the former unicorn crazy, her mind racing a million miles a minute, so many questions popping up. Is this why Dash asked me to now be in charge of the band? It must be her last dying wish or something…well that failed. I saved her, I saved her from killing herself…God, oh god. I would have never thought…oh Dashie… She thought to herself before she couldn’t help up but let out a couple of whimpers as her eyes grew puffy, misting a bit.
Rainbow Dash let out a small gasp at the sound and looked up to meet Sunset’s crying eyes as she let out a few hiccups and aggressively wiped her tears away but more kept flowing down her cheek.
“N-no, p-please Sunset. Don’t cry, don’t cry,” Rainbow pleaded softly, putting her hands on her friend’s shoulders. Shit…I didn’t want any of them to find me… I wanted them to just find me when I was gone. The tomboy thought to herself as her guilt was eating away at her, she didn’t want her friends to see her like this: depressed, vulnerable, and suicidal.
“I-I…” Sunset tried but she couldn’t get it out, here she was: sobbing. She didn’t necessarily know what type of tears and emotions she was feeling. She wasn’t alone in this, she wasn’t the only one struggling and that made her feel better. But she also hated the idea of Rainbow suffering, she didn’t know why she was suffering either and that made it hurt more. She wanted to be let in, but she also knew she couldn’t force the athlete to tell her though. But on the other hand she felt closer to Rainbow Dash, she already had a lot in common with the soccer player. They were both gamers, competitive people, guitarists, and had anger issues and now well…they both want to die sometimes…
“Sunny. Hey, hey, hey,” Rainbow consulted softly, lifting Sunset by the chin. “Look at me, shh. I’m here, I’m here,” she repeated softly. “Shh,” she whispered again.
Sunset’s breath hitched a bit as she gulped deeply and closed her eyes, trying to focus on Rainbow’s whispers. She let out a small whimper when she felt her friend’s forehead gently make contact with her’s.
“Shhh…” the athlete repeated again in a soft voice. Moving her hand from Sunset’s chin to her cheek, gently rubbing her thumb back and forth a bit. “I’m here…I got you…”
The flame haired woman’s breathing slowed down as her sobs began to turn into small cries and hiccups. Rainbow’s soothing touch and gentle voice helped calm her anxiety, some people might’ve found the sporty girl’s voice to be too loud or raspy that it came off ‘too annoying’ or ‘too boyish.’ Most people would have preferred a calm soft voice like Fluttershy’s, but to Sunset? Somehow the raspy undertone to Dash’s voice made the flame haired girl feel so safe…and by hearing her voice Sunset also knew that Dash was safe. She…she’s so gentle, and being so kind to me. Why? Okay, well she is my friend, of course she is being caring. But it feels different, Dash’s way of comfort is to beat up whoever hurt her friend. I mean I like both ways…especially this way right now…
“I-I know…I-” Sunset started before Rainbow cut her off.
“Shh…just breathe…just breathe,” she repeated again, even rubbing her forehead back and forth a bit against Sunset’s gently. This only helped to relax the flame haired teen more, she let out a small breath as the silence returned once more. This silence was better though, it was soothing and the two girls could hear their breaths on each other’s faces, the only sounds being the silent bird chirps as the sun finally began to set in the distance. The light of the bright orange shining in between the space of the two friends as both of them couldn’t help but smile. It lasted like this for several minutes before the stars finally started to show in the night sky. Sunset's tears had stopped but her head was still leaned against Dash’s as she would continue shushing and whispering gently to her.
“…h-hey?” Sunset asked softly, finally opening her eyes again to see Rainbow’s closed eyelids before they slowly opened and her scarlet pupils met Sunset’s cyan ones.
The tomboy gave a soft smile before gently pulling back a bit and taking her hand off Sunset’s cheek gently. “Hm?”
Sunset had to admit she felt a little hurt by the lack of contact but it was quickly resolved; she felt Dash’s hand lay atop of her’s as she continued to give a smile.
“I…” the former unicorn started but stopped for a minute, gulping deeply as she felt a shiver go down her spine. Was she really about to tell Dash about her own suicidal tendencies? I mean it only felt fair. But was she doing this just to be fair? No, she wanted to tell her so she did. “I-I just want you to know…you don’t have to talk about what’s going on your mind. But I want you to know that you’re not alone…” She whispered out, stuttering and fumbling her way through her words as she breathed heavily, waiting for a response from her friend. It didn’t come though. Rainbow just tilted her head to the side she still had on a dorky and gentle smile, she raised an eyebrow, asking for Sunset to go on if she wanted. “I-I came up here t-to possibly…” Sunset started before she was cut off by the athlete.
“It’s okay, I think…I think I understand.”
“I understand as well…” Sunset responded, she couldn’t help but smile back at her friend’s goofy face. “And I won’t tell the rest of our friends… okay?”
Rainow let out a small gasp at that before her eyes misted a bit but she quickly whipped them away. “I-I won’t either…” she chuckled out in between a couple of sniffles. “I uhm…we don’t have to-”
“Talk about it?”
The tomboy nodded softly, her smile disappearing into just her regular expression though it was clear she felt much better now.
“No, we don’t. Until we are ready let’s just…stay silent and be there for each other?” She suggested softly.
“That works for me,” Dash nodded, her smile returning as she lifted her hand up to fist bump Sunset. The former bully happily obliged, fist bumping her friend back as she giggled a bit, the rainbow haired jock couldn’t help but return the laugh before both girls looked out to the horizon. Silence again.