My Feelings Have Shifted

by rarityxspike


Chapter 30 - The Pain Lingers

Spike walked slowly into the castle.

"Spike, is that you?" Twilight called.

"Yeah, Twilight, it's me," Spike responded. Twilight emerged from the main hall.

"How was your outing with Rarity?" Twilight asked, knowing that he had missed her. Spike sighed and shook his head.

"Not good..." Twilight was confused.

"What happened?" Spike was hesitant to tell her but didn't want to lie.

"She... kissed me," Twilight was shocked. She stood there with her mouth agape, unable to speak. "Uhh... Twilight, are you ok---?"

"She kissed you!?" Twilight cut Spike off.

"Yeah," Spike responded.

"And you let her!?"

"What!? No! It wasn't like that! We were just talking, then she looked at me, then kissed me, and I pushed her away immediately," Spike spoke quickly, fearing he would be thought of as a cheater. Twilight composed herself by taking a deep breath and exhaling.

"Sorry, Spike, I should've known you wouldn't do something like that. I was just shocked." Spike gave Twilight a little smile.

"It's alright, Twilight. I just wish Rarity didn't invite me out with romantic intentions when she knows I'm with Luna," Twilight was confused again.

"I don't think Rarity intended it to be romantic. I think her feelings got the better of her. Not saying what she did was acceptable, and maybe she should've given herself more time, but you know what she's like," Twilight didn't want Spike to think badly of Rarity.

"Twilight, I let her explain herself, and that's what she said. She was caught up in the moment, and because of her feelings, she kissed me. So I calmed myself down, and we decided to still have our picnic. But then she showed me these 'special' sandwiches she had made..." Spike rolled his eyes and shook his head. Twilight tilted her head slightly.

"What do you mean, 'special'?" Spike took a deep breath and exhaled before he spoke.

"Twilight... all the sandwiches were heart-shaped. She made those before she met up with me, meaning her intentions were most likely romantic."

"Right, I see. So what's happening between you and Rarity now?" Twilight said, curious about the young dragon's and unicorn's relationship.

"Well, I told her that even though she thought she was ready, it looks like she wasn't, and that I think we should stop seeing each other, even as friends, because after today, I need some time,"

"How did she take it?" Twilight asked, worried knowing how Rarity can be.

"She went to say something, but I cut her off. I said to her we may be able to rekindle this friendship, but we both need time," Spike shrugged as if to say that's it.

"Then you both said your goodbyes?" Twilight asked.

"Basically," Spike started walking towards his room. "I think I just need to rest. I promise I'll help you tomorrow, Twilight," Spike said, mentally drained.

"Spike!" Twilight called out. Spike turned to face her. "You don't have to work for the next four days, remember?" Spike looked to the side in thought, then he remembered Twilight saying she won't need any help and has everything she needs to finish.

"Oh yeah, sorry, Twilight. My brain isn't working properly at the moment," Spike gave the alicorn a weak smile, and Twilight returned the smile.

"I understand, Spike. I just thought I'd remind you, as you have enough on your plate, and I didn't want you stressing about helping me when you don't need to." Twilight continued to smile, Spike's smile slightly grew.

"Thank you, Twilight," Spike then went into his room, shut the door, and laid on his bed. "Something I once dreamed about became something I never wanted to happen." Spike tried to forget about what happened and rest. Due to feeling mentally drained, it wasn't long before he fell asleep.