I got though my apology this time. Fluttershy's hat earlier was a little odd, but totally her. This was a giant white ten gallon hat I got Fluttershy as a joke from Appleoosa once we fixed that mess with the buffalo. I wasn't surprised she kept it, she was sentimental like that, but I never thought she'd actually wear it. She had the phoenix feather in the headband. I guess she really liked that feather, but why is she wearing it everywhere now. I mean she's hiding something under the hat obviously enough, but what the heck is up with the feather. We were both sitting on a cloud just enjoying the night air.
"So, why did you want somewhere to talk anyway?"
"Well, Rarity told me about, well…"
I looked away. "It's really no big deal Flutter. I mean it's way far off and like I told Rarity, it's not like it isn't open ended. I mean I can always…"
"But if you wait you might never…"
I sighed, and looked up at the sky. "I don't think it's my destiny, ya know? I mean I am the best and will only get better, and the Wonderbolts are my idols but…"
Then I was crying. It was so stupid. It was my dream but I had other dreams now. Other things more important than joining a team that would take me away from my friends and Ponyville for most of the year. Even though if the way Luna was talking we all might end up having to go fight some evil far away anyway. I turned away and looked over the side of the cloud. Like always Fluttershy stayed as far away from the edges as she could manage. Every so often I felt guilty about that particular fear of hers. It was about the only one I thought I knew the origin of.
"I'm sorry. I don't know what to say. I want to say something but, but I'm happy too. I'm happy you're not leaving. That you'll still be here. I'm sorry, but it's how I feel."
I laughed. "Oh come on. How can I blame you for wanting to keep the Dash around? I mean I'm really awesome, who wouldn't want me around?"
"Thank you." Then she didn't say anything for a while, which was soon broken by a long drawn out quiet sigh. "But I can't let you do it."
"Huh?"
I turned to see Fluttershy with an intense look in her eyes. It wasn't quite the stare, but determined Fluttershy is almost as rare. I blinked.
"Rainbow Dash. I can't let you do it, and I'm sure the rest of our friends feel the same way. I'm sure Rarity feels the same way even if she didn't say anything to you."
"She just sorta dropped the subject entirely. I guess she decided it would be better coming from you."
"She didn’t tell me to do this. I am telling you because…"
"I didn't say that, but I bet you're still doing what she wants. Rarity can be like that sometimes. It's annoying."
Fluttershy looked down "Oh, I'm sorry I didn’t mean…" Then she shook her head and looked me in the eyes again. "No, that doesn’t matter. You have to follow your dream. You can't let us hold you back. You can't let this opportunity pass."
"I can and probably will. It was just a silly filly dream anyway."
I was crying again, and Fluttershy was hugging me. She had come to edge of the cloud to do so. This is why I hate over thinking things. You should make a decision and do it. Don't keep thinking about whether or not what you did was right or wrong, only what comes next. I guess I could at least go through the full training. Become a full fledged Wonderbolt, even if I never perform with them.
"Yea, that sounds good. That way I would have still won. I didn't quit until I made it, but once I do on to other things. Yea, that could work."
"Do, do you mean you will…"
"Become a full Wonderbolt then quit? Yea. Maybe you guys can even visit while I'm training? I mean Pinkie can fly now, and Twilight can always cast the cloud walking spell on everypony so even though it's far you could get there with the balloon."
"Wait, but after you made it…"
"Maybe I could do one show, or even a show every time they're nearby." I then laughed. "Of course for me Manehatten is nearby now."
"Uh, I don't mean to…" Fluttershy then took a breath. "I mean if that's true, and you keep getting faster, and there isn't too much time they need you there before performance and if…"
I stood up and went wide eyed. Fluttershy kept talking but her voice was going lower and I couldn't focus enough to make her out. I then laughed out loud.
"Hah. I should have thought of that. Of course that's the solution. I'm the fastest flier in Equestria. The solution is obvious. I just have to figure out how to go even faster. So fast I can stay here and still tour with them."
"That sounds, exhausting."
I waved a hoof with a quick flick. "Eh, so what. That so doesn't matter. I'm Rainbow Dash, master of the sonic rainboom fastest pony alive. I can totally do this."
I then let out a whoop and jumped into the air. I just flew around randomly. Loop de loops, spins, anything that came to mind. I could have it all, and to get it all I had to do was keep pushing myself. Get faster, try to figure out the time stop trick, build up my endurance even more.
I then yelled as loud as I could. "Hah, take that universe, not even you can beat me."
Fluttershy cringed on the cloud a little, but I don't get why. I could do this. Nothing was going to stop me from being there for my friends and achieving my dream, at the same time. This is going to be so awesome.