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// Sunset and Twilight have a heart-to-heart 
// Story: Warhorse 
// by Hypnotwist 
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I don't dare even think to hesitate, I grab the pen I normally write my entries with and I know what I need to write. I need to tell her the truth, no matter how painful it might be. 

'Twilight, I'm alive. I was in the hospital for a while and I couldn't bring the journal, I wouldn't be able to explain it to them without sounding fucking nuts.' I stare at the page, Twilight usually replied quickly and I was hoping she would write me back soon.
"Shit.." I mumble, though it does not carry over and I end up yelling the second word, "Shit!"

I slam my fist on my bed over and over, I keep hurting those I care about. I don't intend to but fuck me, I keep doing it. I grab my pillow and drag it over to my face, I then shove my face into it and scream. My poor pillow was subjected to what felt like an hour of loud screaming, I was not planning on stopping anytime soon when I heard and felt the journal buzzing rather violently.

My head immediately goes up from being face down on the pillow and I drag the journal to where I am, I read the writing as it appears. 

'Oh thank Celestia you're okay, I was so worried Sunny! I thought you were dead! Princess Luna came over to my castle and told me that you were in the hospital, but she wouldn't tell me why. What happened? Are you okay?'

I see wet splotches appear on the paper, and that's when I realize she was crying. 

'I'm sorry Twi, I fell from a pretty high place and I was out for nearly two weeks. I'm okay now, but I need to talk to you when you have the time for a probably long and emotional conversation.' 

There's a slight pause but she still pens her reply almost instantaneously. 'Oh Celestia, how did that happen?! I have the time now Sunset, I will always have time for you.' 

I blow some of the hair out of my face and inhale sharply, I'm doing this shit and I'm going to finally ask her for help. I can't do this alone.

'I jumped from the roof of CHS. This sounds super stupid, but I had a really bad nightmare where Celestia said what I'd done was unforgiveable and sentenced me to spend the rest of my life in Tartarus. That's when I woke up and went yeah mmm I need to go kill myself!'

'You did what?!'

I sighed and wrote back the only thing I thought of. 'Yeah.'

'Sunset..' The disappointment and sadness in that one single word was painfully obvious. 

'I know, I know. I need your help, I'm struggling with forgiving the girls. I want to be their friend again, and I'm talking to Rarity and Fluttershy more often but whenever Fluttershy walks into the room there's this few moments where I'm furious. It goes away incredibly quickly, but I don't know. Am I really forgiving them or am I lying to them and myself?'

'Well.. I know you're hurting pretty badly, that forgiveness issue is new to me though. Have you tried talking to princess Luna about it?' 

Her response wasn't what I hoped it'd be, it actually made me feel a little strange considering how the princess of friendship herself wasn't able to help me. 'No, she knows I'm having a hard time coping but I don't think she fully knows about me not being sure if I'm truly forgiving someone or not.' 

'You should talk to her about it the next time you see her, in the meantime I'll look for anything on what you're going through to see if there's some magical cause and cure. But please don't do anything like that again, I was so worried about you. I love you, you know that right?' 

'I will, I don't know when I'll see her again. Could you do me a favor and send her a letter and tell her I need to talk to her? Also Twilight I doubt it's a magical ailment, I'm probably just a bitch and I'm only making things harder.' I pause and then continue writing. 'I don't plan on killing myself right now, and I know. I love you too Twilight. I'll talk to you later, alright?'

'I can do that, but I do suspect there might be something magical that's affecting you. I'll be trying to read up on what you're going through on top of figuring out a way to try and artificially open the portal. ..Don't say that Sunset, you're rightfully angry and hurt. I'll write to you later today, stay safe!' 

I don't reply and I close the journal, I get up to go put it back on my desk where I keep it usually. I slowly make my way downstairs, my body still is incredibly sore and I need to take it slow for a while. I sigh and sit on the couch, that was pretty useless because maybe two seconds later I get up and go grab my laptop that's on a small table next to my TV.

I bring it back to the couch and sit down with it, the laptop is pretty old and but it's still reasonably useable so I power it on and open my email. I grumble and reposition the laptop so it's on my lap, it's easier to type that way and much more comfortable, I type a quick, polite email to principal Celestia asking for a meeting tomorrow morning and apologizing for causing so much trouble the last few days before I ended up in the hospital. 

Once I get that done I check YooToob, I had been out for a long time so I'm hoping my favorite content creators have uploaded. To my delight all of my favorite creators had uploaded and I begin to watch their videos.
An hour or two passed when I heard a knock at my door, I figured it was Rarity so I get up and walk over to the door, I keep the chain in place for the time being just in case it was not the person I was hoping it was. I open the door just enough to see who's out there and I'm not surprised that it's my friend. "Hey! Give me a second to unlatch the chain."

She smiles and nods while I release the chain and open the door to further let her in, once I open the door she steps into my apartment. "How are you feeling Sunset? It must be nice to finally be out of the dreary hospital."

A chuckle escapes my lips, "Oh you have no idea, being home is like paradise. So what brings you here?"

"Oh! Right, I was wondering since you've been away for so long and some of your food may have expired if you'd need help cleaning it out and going grocery shopping."

I blink and look at her, I still felt that at times she was using me for something. I dismiss the thought and realize she was most likely correct, some of my food that was already near expiration had probably gone bad. "Sure, that's really generous of you Rarity. I really appreciate it, but I have to warn you.. Uh.. My fridge.. I can barely open it without gagging."

"It's that bad?" 

"Yes."