BonBon had no clue what she was going to say. She didn’t know how long she would last until she basically imploded with emotions, and she didn’t know how Lyra would react. BonBon didn’t know a lot of things about the near future, but she knew what she was planning to do would influence them all.
She saw that the light was on in the unicorn’s bedroom, which always signified to her that she was the only one home. Time seemingly slowed down once she knocked on the door. The universe seemed to disregard everything else but BonBon’s own life altering decision she was about to make.
Lyra opened the door and smiled happily when she saw BonBon, immediately wrapping her in a big hug.
That smile…
Keeping her hooves on BonBon’s shoulders, Lyra spoke with an elated smile, “OHHHHH! BonBon! I’m so glad to see you! Tomorrow is the big day! How have you been...”
She’s so beautiful…
“I-I’ve been…I’ve been better, sugar,” She walked inside her friend home for perhaps the last time. She hopped up onto Lyra’s blue couch and tried to hide her sadness for the time being. Just being in Lyra’s presence caused her to become choked up.
“What’s the matter Bonnie? You help me with so much it’s about time I return the favor!” She said as she trotted to the kitchen
She used the nickname she gave me when we were fillies…
“I-I-I need you to promise me something, sugar…”
From the kitchen, Lyra was preparing them both some juice. She cocked her head to side in confusion.
“Of course, of course! What is it?”
“Promise me t-that you won’t hate me for what I’m about t-to s-say…” She felt her lip quiver as she shrunk into herself. Emotions stirring inside of her, it was a challenge for her to stay calm.
“I promise, BonBon. You know I couldn’t hate you of all ponies!” Lyra mused as she trotted back into her living area, two cups of juice floating above her head.
Just do it, just say it…
“We’ve been friends for so long a-and…you’ve basically been my only friend I have ever really had since I was a f-filly.”
Sitting next to her friend on the couch, Lyra nodded and waited expectantly for the earth pony to continue.
BonBon took a deep breath. “I’ve been thinking so much the past six months…so much about our friendship a-and about you…I don’t know if I can make it to your wedding tomorrow, Lyra…”
Lyra’s eyes widened as the gears started to click into place in her mind.
Just say it BonBon and it’ll all be over with…Just say you love her!
”I-I love you, Lyra! I really love you… m-more than anypony in the world, more than I could love anypony else! And I mean t-that...” BonBon’s demeanor quickly deteriorated as her emotions took over.
“I-I know you have somepony else, I-I know that I’m a mare and it’s really disgusting and gross that I feel this way about you and I’m disgusted with myself, but I still feel this w-way! I-I know you don’t feel the same way…b-but I can’t handle these feelings anymore…I just can’t…”
The confession hit Lyra like a ton of bricks. The blank expression on her face only encouraged BonBon’s crying.
The cream colored mare continued while avoiding eye contact with the unicorn beside her, “I-I am not here to ruin anything between you and him, I-I don’t want to ruin our friendship…I just can’t go on hiding these feelings anymore, I’m sorry!”
Lyra took a sip of her juice then put the cup on the coffee table next to the couch. BonBon couldn’t even look at Lyra the seconds that followed as she tried to suppress her weeps.
Lyra spoke quietly, “I-I don’t know…I just…” The teal unicorn sighed for confidence, choosing her words carefully, “I don’t how I feel about this Bonnie…I-I” Her voice faded into nothingness as she tried to conjure up the right words. Her mind was racing and her heart was sinking to see how sad her best friend was, “I never could have expected this…I-I don’t even know what to think, I never, I…”
The cream colored mare spoke with her head lowered in shame, “Please don’t let this ruin our friendship…please…I didn’t come here to ruin anything I-I never would do that…”
“N-nothing could ruin our friendship BonBon…I think I’m just going to need time to think, right now…”
A tense silence came over the two mares, each hesitant to further the conversation. It took a few moments for Lyra’s brain to truly comprehend what her best friend had just admitted to her. It made her feel terrible.
BonBon got up from the couch, still hanging her head, trying to keep herself from bursting into tears again.
“I-I’m going to leave now…I’m sorry, Lyra…I really am…I understand if you hate me for a while…”
As BonBon’s hoof started pushing to door open, Lyra stood up, stopped her with her own hoof.
“I could never hate you...a-and I would really love it if you still came to my wedding…you’re the best friend I have ever had, I couldn’t imagine my wedding without you…”
The cream colored mare looked at her friend with a half-hearted smile.
“I wouldn’t miss it for the world, Sugar…tell Buckley that he’s the luckiest stallion in Equestria…”
BonBon cherished the hug she received from Lyra, because it signified that their friendship wasn’t over. Not only that, it signified that they still had a place in each other’s lives, even if it wasn’t exactly what she wanted. BonBon walked out of her friend’s home, trying to hold back her tears, unsure of what she would do just the next day.
She looked back at her friend’s home as she started the short walk back to her own. BonBon was relatively relieved because of what just happened. Things went how she expected them to, she never expected her friend to have the same feelings as she did. They were both mares, how could she even think Lyra to feel the same?
She wiped a tear out of her eye as she looked towards the colorful sky. It will be getting dark soon. This was BonBon’s favorite time to be out. Night time was peaceful and quiet, which is what she needed. She needed time to think.
The past week had been the worst of her life but she now saw a bright spot. Though things may not have gone as planned, all she wanted for Lyra was for her to be happy and the next day, she would be. BonBon can put aside her feelings, just to support her friend and then work towards getting over.
The sun slowly dipped below the mountains in the distance, slowly revealing Luna’s night. BonBon loved the cold too, it calmed her. The cream colored pony felt oddly neutral about what happened. Maybe it was because it hasn’t hit her that the pony she loves with all of her heart doesn’t feel the same, or maybe it’s because she was expecting this outcome.
The earth pony felt lucky that it was her best friend that she was in love with. Lyra wouldn’t go around telling everypony about her feelings. If it were anypony else that she confessed too, they’d call her a filly-fooler, breaking her heart even more. Lyra cared enough for her feelings to still want her as a friend and even more, still want her at the wedding. Lyra was the best friend she’d ever have and she decided she would work as hard as she could not to let her feelings get in the way, now that they were out in the open.
For the first time in quite a while, BonBon was able to sleep the whole night.
However for Lyra, her world was just turned upside down. BonBon just left and she barely comprehend what just had happened. She sat on her couch, bewildered for the past ten minutes. BonBon, her best friend, just confessed that she was in love with her. At first she felt mad at BonBon for confessing these feelings a day before her wedding, but she knew BonBon’s intentions weren’t to ruin her relationship with Buckley. BonBon wasn’t the type of pony to undermine a relationship because of her own desires.
She sympathized with BonBon, because her situation with Buckley was quite similar before they eventually got together. Granted, she had known BonBon for many years before she met Buckley, but she knew that it wasn’t pleasant to love somepony without receiving the same love in return.
How does one react when their lifelong best friend confesses deep feelings for you?
Lyra contemplated how they could stay friends knowing how strong BonBon’s feelings were for her. She knew BonBon was a very emotional mare, killing a bug could get her to tear up. However, tonight she could see BonBon’s pain and sadness in her face, hear it in her shaky voice and know that it was legitimate and heartbreaking. Lyra couldn’t imagine how terrible she must have felt to confess such a secret.
“Why’d she have to tell me the night before my wedding…!” Lyra exclaimed in frustration, nearly dropping her cup of juice. She rubbed her own forehead with her hoof in frustration.
The door opened suddenly, revealing her bridegroom with a scowl on his face. This didn’t surprise Lyra, he never had anything other than a scowl on his face. Lyra had half expected it to be BonBon.
“Hey babe, ready for tomorrow?” He said in his deep voice, setting his grey hat on a hat rack next to the front door. Pushing her other troubles aside for a moment, Lyra smiled, “Of course I am.” She greeted him with a kiss, then trotted over to their kitchen to cook something up for him. Lyra felt amazingly lucky that he hadn't come home and overheard her and BonBon's conversation.
“Darn cattle ate some of the maize at the farm today. Had to chase them away before they ate too much! My coworker Cornfed falling straight into a freshly stacked pile didn’t help much either,” The stallion said with a grin.
“That Cornfed seems to always cause some sort of accident every week, wasn’t it just last week that he almost set the whole cornfield on fire?“ Lyra remarked, with a small chuckle.
The unicorn returned to the living room with two sandwiches, she jumped up next to her soon to be husband, using the time with him to get her thoughts off BonBon. Lyra was getting married the next day and she couldn’t let herself get distracted. She knew that’s not what BonBon would want. In the process of trying to not be distracted, she ended up distracting herself anyway and completely missed what Buckley had said to her.
“Were you even listening to me?” The stallion chided, snapping Lyra out of her thoughts, “Why aren’t you listening to me?”
“Oh, it’s nothing, just a little distracted is all,” Lyra answered truthfully.
“What’s distracting you?” Buckley pursued, taking a large bite out the sandwich Lyra had prepared for him.
“Oh, nothing…I’m just excited for our special day tomorrow,” Lyra put on a forced smile, which didn’t fool Buckley for a second. That response was a little less truthful.
“You don’t sound very excited, Ly-Ly,” Buckley insisted, using the nickname Lyra absolutely HATED.
“Well, I guess it still needs to hit me that we’re getting married tomorrow,” Her heart fluttered when she mentioned that they were getting married. Though the the nervousness felt with getting married had nothing to do with BonBon, It still led her thoughts right back to her best friend.
“I guess you’re right. I’m excited too, I ‘spose”
Lyra yawned quietly, hinting that she was tired. She wasn’t tired at all, but she needed to think. She had tried to not think of her best friend, but with the bombshell dropped on her, Lyra knew she wouldn’t be able to ignore it. She needed time to further ponder what BonBon just confessed to her and most of all, she needed to think about how things will be with her friend once she and Buckley were married.