//------------------------------// // Day 50-56, Days Of "Bliss." // Story: Quiet Days // by AlphaDidAlotOfThings //------------------------------// July 11th, 2015 Dear Journal, Alright, I'm not as tired as yesterday so I should be able to write better. It's not like there's much for me to write about though. Everything's pretty much gone back to normal, for the most part at least. We're all trying to focus on things other than the HPI, believe me. It's just hard…. I still don't know if that "Doctor" Parker is my father or not, but… He looks the same, and he sounds the same, of course he is. I wonder if he knows I'm his son. (Or would it be daughter now…?) That damned bastard, how is he alive…? WHY, is he even alive…? Why did the world pick him out of all the good people on this planet? I need to focus on the brighter side of things, if that bastards still alive then there's a chance my mom could be too. Her work place was pretty far from our home town, that's why she always got home so late. It shouldn't be that far from here. It's still pretty deep into the city though… Dammit… Why didn't I check before we left that day…? Idiot… I wonder if I have any siblings I don't know about. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised with that bastard of a man. If I do, I just hope they're alive. Are we in the right here…? Maybe we're the bad guys here. I asked Alyssa that today and she just looked down for a bit then back at me and said. "Of course, we are!" Alex said him and his group are mapping out the route for their new colony, I told him he's always free to stay here if he likes. I guess I was right about the city not being the best place to stay at… I honestly wish they could stay here with us, but we don't exactly have enough space already. This place is perfect for a colony, that's why we set out in the first place: to find somewhere to stay long term. We've got a nice house, a nice farm, we're pretty much all set. We're such a ragtag group, we've got a musician, a potential lawyer, a pilot, then I'm just a kid… I think I'm the youngest here actually. Again, not much else happened today and everything's pretty much going back to normal, so don't be surprised if I skip a couple days. We'll probably put that shed up tomorrow. Still no word back from the HPI… I'm guessing we won't be hearing from them for a while then… So, as always this is Emile, peace. Which name do I use? Or should I just use "E….?" No, that's stupid. There's no point in trying to be anonymous when you already know my name. - Bliss(?) July 12th, 2015 Dear Journal, Helped John set up the shed today. I don't think we'll need to do any supply runs soon, especially since the HPI gave us that "care package." Our little "garden" seems to be doing fine. Here's the strange thing about it though, all the plants that Alyssa planted seem to be growing stupidly fast. Just the ones Alyssa planted, not the other ones. I don't think it's the type of soil or even the seeds either, we used pretty much the same thing for everything. I asked Alyssa what she did and she just shrugged and said "I don't know." I think she used some kind of earth voodoo magic or something. (Is that something normal ponies can do?) Like I said yesterday, everything's pretty much gone back to normal. Everyone's focusing on things other than the HPI, heck even Blake seems happier. I'm envious honestly. I cleaned the blood off that bat, but I just threw it in the closet for now. I never want to see that damned thing ever again. I killed someone, I'm a murderer… Am I really in the right here? Maybe that doctor was right, maybe I am just an animal… No…. I'm human. I know it. I even have pictures of what I looked like before. It doesn't even feel weird to be in this body anymore. The "old me" feels like a different person at this point. Maybe we are… Emile… Who am I anymore….? - Emile July 14th, 2015. Dear Journal, I finally fucking did it! Ha, take that world! That's what endless practice day after day gets you! Okay, okay, I'll calm down. Focus… Gotta focus… So, today was a pretty normal day as usual. Again, everything's gone back to normal pretty much. We're all focusing on our own little things besides the HPI. Alex contacted us again, him and his group decided where to stay. They're gonna move in with us! Okay, not really. They won't be that far though. I honestly can't wait, it'll be a blast when they move near here. We'll all finally be together, like the one big happy family we are. I asked him when they'll move and Alex just said "he doesn't know" but it might be soon. Great, the sooner the better. Okay, okay, time for the good part. So today, I practiced flying again as per usual. Went on the same hill, but this time I decided to start slightly further back so I could build up some more momentum and speed. You wouldn't be able to guess what happened. I ran and… Instead of gliding for a bit this time or just fluttering, I FLEW! I didn't go very high but that doesn't matter. It still felt fucking awesome! Alyssa just looked at me with the most awestruck face she'd ever made. I felt the same too. Unfortunately, I ended up crash landing next to the house… I should learn how to land properly… That was the most awesome thing I've ever experienced in my life ever. Alyssa didn't laugh at me, she just helped me back up and looked at me with a smile. "I knew you could do it." is what she said. I honestly didn't think I would make it this far, but here we are… I guess that's just how life works sometimes. Days, and months of practicing in secret all lead up to this very moment and the payoff was worth every second. I'll practice some more tomorrow, I gotta get the hang of landing and y'know actually flying properly. But I'll get there eventually, I know it! - Emile July 15th, 2015. Dear Journal, Today was normal. Flying went pretty much how I expected it to. Ended up landing this time, not properly but close enough. I might try flying higher instead of just slightly above ground next time. I can't do it anymore. Heh… I'm pathetic… I don't know what to feel anymore. I'm trying my best but I just can't keep this up anymore. I miss my mom. I miss going to school, heck I even miss my uncle. I wish everything would just go back to normal. I'm still the same as ever… This has been going on for far too long. We still don't even know what caused this. It could be worse though… I could be dead. Whoever or whatever did this to us spared us for a reason. I'm not too religious but I wonder if there's a god out there. I wonder if they have anything to do with this… God? God's…? I don't know. What the hell am I even rambling about anymore…? I'm such a mess… Never change, me, never change. - Emile July 17th, 2015 My birthdays in a couple days, yay. We never had a lot of money but my mother probably would've taken me out somewhere. Maybe, we'll do something… We could get cake, throw a little party… Yeah, that would be nice… Flying went pretty different today, not in a good way though. I don't know, It feels like I have no motivation for it… Alex called me again today, apparently him and Moriah are going on a trip to Oregon to look for their families. Mom… I miss her a lot. Please, god if you kept my bastard of a father alive, please let her be alive. I wonder what she would think if she saw me now…? Would she be proud…? My uncle was pretty much the closest thing I had to a "father" after my "real' dad left. He got on my nerves sometimes but he was nice… I'm tired. I should probably take a break for a while. But for now, this is Emile, bye. - Emile