Sunset Shimmer stormed into the dormitory, making a grunting sound flopping on the collage bed she sat on for many months now. The light was still on when she arrived and thinking she was alone, cried into the pillow and groaned making the blue and white pillow damp with her tears. She was still in shock at what had happened to her this past year;
"ugggghhhhhh why is collage so hard?" she groaned she turned over and laid belly up. And slammed her head on her pillow, "here it is almost the new year and here I am trying to survive classes and learning... Who thought of this educational system anyway? You pay for a room and books both of which you would probably never retain anyway..."
she sighed as she turned again looking out into the empty room and saw you in the bed in the distance
"oh hi... You must be new here... Sorry if this is the first time your seeing me like this....normally I'm not so emotional. Ive just had a bad year" Sunset said. She then sighed and turned again in her bed still talking.
"Every year, I had a family tradition to make a new years resolution, something you want to do or learn during the year. And let me tell you, I had a lot of dreams this year. Good and bad now that I think about it. Its just been a really stressful couple of months, almost all twelve really." she confessed before turning back around snuggling closer against the pillows.
"I am just looking at my list at the start of last year and I'm realizing that almost all of them are not checked off yet! What have I done wrong?! Maybe its because I'm spending too much time away from home doing nothing but school work instead of hanging out with friends and going places where people actually know how to live life without being stuck inside studying every day!"
Sunset groaned yet again. "Dang... Look at the time...11:47 only a few minutes left till midnight already?!" Sunset exclaimed getting more annoyed by the second.
"Your still up I see, so you must really be counting down the minutes till new years huh, no? your studying?!? Well I just got back after helping a fellow out with moving in, I have no where to go, no money to spend on a hotel, so I spent 8 hours helping instead of actually just relaxing today. And before you ask, They had a small house one bedroom, so I couldn't stay there either. And the road rage tonight was unbelievable! So score one for the friend who was going out of town but i was caught in the middle of it look! My shoulders are so tense! This was the icing of the cake of my year that sucked. I'm fed up with my time being gone somewhere else. And you want to know what sucks? I can't change it."
There was a pause finally as Sunset put a pillow over her face once more. "When will things get better??? Why did they even happen in the first place...? This world seems cruel sometimes....." she said sighing loudly. "I'm supposed to be a fine student, for my parents but I'm getting worn out from all this work, and I know I want to succeed so they will be proud of me. That, The intense pressure that comes from family to excel and succeed; to make huge choices under duress. No wonder most kids end up having severe mental health issues later in their lives. Right? This is where they get it from right? Because I feel like I'm going crazy. How can we expect our brains to function properly while dealing constantly with stress related trauma such as bullying, peer pressure, abuse, We shouldn't force these children to deal with crap like this not even in adult hood. If I survive collage I'm going to intentionally get pregnant so I can tell my children not to go there."
You were about to say something but Sunset still continues her rant. "That's not even the tip of the iceberg! When I first got here, I had to deal with Social ineptitude. You want to know what that is? It's basically feeling awkward socially unable to talk normally due to anxiety disorder caused by social situations involving strangers or those whom you don't personally trust very easily. But if you were me you would totally understand why I do that. You see.... I shouldn't be telling you this... I was once a bad person once. I was after power. I wanted to rule over everyone! But then another helped me see the error of my ways, and made me see the importance of teamwork and friendship. Someone showed me kindness and compassion despite my own selfishness. And guess what happens next? People look at me now watching my every move because of what i did, they watch me, like a hawk. You're different though aren't ya? Nobody watches YOU closely, except maybe gays or straights if you know what I mean."
Sunset Shimmer took another pause to grab a thermace of her morning tea that was on her bag that she carried in with her. Of course the beverage was made in the morning and it was very late now. And she spit out the stale cold liquid onto herself. "Bleh" she said quickly. "Forgot I made that this morning" she again took out the piece of paper that came from her hoodie that were filled with what she wanted to do and sighed once more "'Take your crush on a date' well I guess that won't happen this year unless he happens to come from where he lives which is a half an hour away.
'Learn to cook healthy meals' yep didn't accomplish anything besides eating junky noodles everyday
'keep your wallet happy' well I mean I couldn't afford anything except noodles so I guess I can check that off and just erase the word 'happy.' oh wait..."
She stopped suddenly when she saw recently written words across the page, "... BECOME A VAMPIRE!!!" she began laughing hysterically "Oh my goooosh, I must have been really hungry when I wrote that!" she erased the line and continued down the list.
"Who has the time for visiting a landmark? I cant even choose my elective classes that have absolutely nothing to do with what I want to be. Seriously me?" she asked herself shaking her head slightly. Now that she looked through everything, she felt quite sad remembering some memories although many others seemed good enough reason to smile. But alas none could bring sunshine into her dismal mood.
"What am I even doing here?" she wondered again. "The amount I'm paying for is not worth a piece of paper that may or may not get me a better job in the future. Dang.... Is this what real life is? Do people really take you somewhere and say 'do this for me and stuff it!'?! If its anything like that please can I take the next train out of here so I can go back to Ponyville please? Back there I had a place in society, but I have to move here since I had good grades there. I would rather have stayed there but... I had a feeling I would have insulted principal Luna if I had said no. Well screw her anyway let alone any other authority figure around here cause honestly speaking school isn't exactly fun anymore."
Sunset stated glaring angrily towards the wall. "So yeah, screwed up year wasn't it? One thing I am thankful for though, its you. Yes you and don't get any funny ideas when I say that. I'm saying that before you, I was the only one in my entire dorm building that’s studying on a Friday or Saturday night. You could have been out partying with anyone else on a night like tonight, but instead you decided to study like me on new years."
Sunset looked at the clock again which read 12:01 "well for crying out loud, its past midnight." she paused waiting to hear something but she only heard the ruckus from nearby neighbors.
"Well, if you won't say it I will. Happy stinking New Year I guess and good riddance. And to celebrate, I believe I will have two bowls of noodles."