Gabi has always struggled with depression even since she was a philly. She was put on some medication to help with her depression but it didn’t seem to help especially this was back before she not until she came out to her parents and they kicked her out for change into a pony even though it was best for Gabi. The trans pony tried her best to hide her depression from the ones that loved her including Little Spell due to her parents shaming Gabs for venting.
One night Gabi decided to go on a walk in the Everfree Forest at 2:43am. So the pegasus rolled out of bed, put on her glasses and trotted down stairs and quietly left the house. Gabs let out a long sigh after she closed the door and began her journey as the moonlight brightly shined down on Ponyville
“What's the point of living?” She whispered
“I don’t have anything to look forward to anymore and my favourite series that kept me away from death has ended, so why is it worth it to continue living?”
Gabi had just finished watching her favourite series that kept her going since it reminded the poor pony of why to keep going but without it she felt like lost, with no hope. Not only that but growing up it was the only feminie franchise she got to experience due to her parents being non-affirming when it came to expressing herself back then. Though for some reason they were okay with being into that series out of everything else but it didn’t matter. As the young phillie cherished it as it was the only feminie franchise they had access to. Though it was thanks to that franchise she started questioning herself about her gender. Her thoughts carried her until they reached the destination.
“Oh would you look at that we’re here…”
Gabi stood outside the entrance looking at all the thick trees and vines covering the entrance. The pale pegasus looked behind the gazing upon the town then back at the forest
“welp looks like there's no turning back now, I guess I’ll either make it out alive or not''
Without any hesitation the young pony began her journey into the forest. It had been a while since Gabi last entered the forest; last time she visited it was after having an encounter with her brother in town at market.
Her and Fluttershy went out that day since she had some food to buy for the animals when that same pony that caused her so much stress also happened to be there with a couple of old friends at the same time the two pegasus ponies were there. Guilt and shame weighed her for running away like that and worrying everypony
“See girl you made your friends worried which is why you should be ashamed. it feels like nothing is worth living for, I feel like the only reason to exist is to be an example of a failure or maybe to be an unused punching bag that no pony goes near due to it not being noticed. Which is why Suicide is the best awnser because what’s the point of living if you have no use or purpose.”
“nore do I feel I deserve anything, love, friendship, happiness… something else”
Gabi stopped by a small lake in the forest and simply looked at her reflection
“no one loves you girl, just look at you. You're such an ugly failure no wonder why your parents hate you. If only I had been born in the gender I wished to be none of this would’ve happened” She started to tear up
“I’ll never get to experience my childhood that I’ve dreamed of. Going to slumber parties, getting the chance to experience Pony Guides, and never having to deal with all this abuse.”
She said uncontrollably crying. “My parents shut me off from expressing my feminine side of me”
She said, pouring in tears. Gabi was so upset that her body completely shut down with the only thing that was left was tears of sadness and grief for her lost childhood.
Suddenly a Cockatrice popped it’s head out of the bushes across from the pond and thought it’d be fun to have a staring contest with the dysphoric pony. Gabi didn’t even notice or hear the creature fly over to her due to her current state and despite the pony not noticing the creature made damn sure to let the pony know of its presents. The Cockatrice gave a stare to her. She stopped crying and looked up almost like an invisible force pulled her head up. The Cockatrice hissed with bright red staring deep into the pony’s soul as Gabi’s whole body turned cold without any emotion or thought until she was fully turned into stone.