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// Chapter Forty Seven: Of Love and Remorse 
// Story: Trixie is Pregnant and It's Twilight's Problem 
// by TheCrimsonDM 
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Chapter Forty Seven: Of Love and Remorse



Written by TheCrimsonDM


Rainbow Dash stared at Pinkie Pie in dead silence for a long moment. Only the sound of the rain outside was there to comfort her. Twilight was there too, but the words Pinkie had said were enough to make them both freeze. Rainbow Dash eventually had to speak up. "Take a break, from both of you? But why?"

Pinkie offered a weak smile. "Because we just sort of jumped into this. I knew you weren't comfortable with it, and I just wanted you so bad I ignored that... and I'm sorry. I'll understand if you don't want to be my friend anymore."

Rainbow Dash shook her head. "No, it's fine. I... I love you. I also love Fluttershy. I just don't understand why I would take a break from both of you."

Pinkie Pie blinked. "Because your stressed out, you look really sad, and I don't want to make you feel any worse. I feel lucky just having been able to be with you until now, but I understand if you need to take a break from me too."

If Rainbow Dash wasn't already sitting down she'd have to sit. Instead she just opted to lay down. "But you’re not the one who hurt me. All you ever did was try to help me. You've listened to me complain about my stupid feelings for Fluttershy for years... even though I knew you'd had feelings for me."

Pinkie Pie offered a small smile. "I know, and I know Fluttershy is really the one you’re in love with. So if you take a break from her, there's no reason you'd want to still be with me. It might just make you more sad."

Rainbow Dash shook her head. "No, you know what, screw Fluttershy. I came here because I love you. Not because I love her. I agreed to this mess because I love you. If I'm taking a break from anyone it's going to be her, and not you."

Pinkie Pie just stared at her in silence for a few minutes letting the sound of drizzling rain fill the silence between them. "You mean you'd... choose me?"

"Well when I pull my head out of my own butt for five minutes, yeah. I realized that even if you wanted to be with me for a long time, you never really pushed for it. You also didn't seem too keen on that make out session we did either. Unlike Fluttershy who had no problems with it, you seemed almost as uncomfortable as I did."

Pinkie Pie offered a weak smile. "That's because you weren't happy with it. I thought, maybe it was because you just wanted to have Fluttershy, and didn't want to share."

Rainbow Dash looked down. "That's true too, but... I just don't like the whole, confusing mess that Fluttershy's love life seems to be. Maybe I'm just not cool enough for it, but I'm not cool with it."

"That's why I'm offering to let you take a break from both of us. If you’re not cool with this, than I want you to do stuff you are cool with, because your well, really cool."

Rainbow Dash nodded. "I'm glad you see it that way. Because I'm cool with you."

Pinkie Pie blinked. "I... thank you. I love you, Dashy."

Rainbow Dash grinned. "I love you too, Pinkie."

Twilight took a step back. "Okay, this is more information than I ever wanted. Um, are you going to be okay here?"

Rainbow Dash looked at her. "Yeah, I’m good now. Thank you."

Twilight nodded. "Okay, Pinkie, I have to tell you a few things before I go. First-"

Pinkie interrupted her. "First; her wing is broken but you used a regeneration spell on it. It'll take until morning until it's all better so I need to be careful with it. Second: she still needs rest so we should go to bed soon. Third: she's had a really bad night so I should be extra loving and fluffy with Rainbow Dash. Did I miss anything?"

Twilight shook her head. "Good night you two."

With a flash of pink light she was gone. This left Rainbow dash and Pinkie all alone in the dark room. Pinkie Pie yawned. "Let's get to bed, you need rest, and I have cuddles to give."

Rainbow Dash stood up and followed her. "Anything else you want to offer me?"

As they made their way downstairs Rainbow couldn't miss how well rounded and thick that rear end was. Like a pillow in its own right. Pinkie Pie giggled. "Lots, but I'm not going to push you to do anything you’re not comfortable with."

"What if I want something?"

Pinkie Pie glanced back at her. "Then you'll have to make the first move, champ. Otherwise you'll only get cuddles."

Make the first move... Rainbow Dash could do that. They reached the bed. Pinkie put her forelegs onto it and was busy pushing blankets around. "Hmm, I might need more pillows."

Make the first move. Rainbow Dash reached out with a hoof and stroked Pinkie's rear. Pinkie jerked forward and looked back surprised. "You, you made a move!"

Rainbow Dash nodded. "You told me I had to make the first move right? Now it’s your turn."


***


It was early the next morning. Fluttershy had hardly slept. After she ended up pushing Rainbow Dash away she could only lay there and think about what she'd done. She should have told Rainbow Dash about the kiss ages ago, but when she first started dating Rainbow Dash she was scared that perhaps Rainbow would have left her if she found out. As time went on it was clear though that Fluttershy could do pretty much anything and Rainbow would just accept it. It wasn't a pleasant feeling, and now that she'd pushed that boundary past its limits she realized how much of a mistake she'd made.

Even worse was the fact that when she did get out of the bed and stumble into the first floor of the library. She noticed that Rainbow Dash wasn't in here. She went to the kitchen, maybe Rainbow Dash had woken up already. There was still a light rain going on outside but it seemed for the most part the storm had passed, but the skies were still cloudy and murky as could be.

Inside the kitchen she saw Trixie and Twilight at the kitchen table. Still no Rainbow Dash. Maybe Rainbow was in the restroom. It was early enough after all. She walked over to the table and took a seat. Both Trixie and Twilight were giving her some odd looks. Looks that made her feel even guiltier for her behavior. She was going to have to do a lot to make up for last night.

A cup of coffee was set down alongside a bagel in front of Fluttershy. She took a small nibble of the bagel. "Thanks... um, about last night, I'm sorry."

Trixie nodded. "Thank you for apologizing."

Twilight added. "But, were not the ones you need to worry about."

That sent a shiver down Fluttershy's spine. "I'm... not? Um, speaking of Rainbow Dash, where is she?"

Twilight frowned. "I… don't think I should tell you."

Fluttershy’s eyes widened. "You mean she's not here?"

The smile Trixie gave her was positively evil. "No, she's not. She left last night. Had Twilight take her someplace safe… away from you."

If words could leave stab wounds on the heart, those words certainly did that. Twilight shot Trixie a glare. "Trixie, that wasn't very nice. You could have phrased that better."

Trixie nodded. "I could have. I didn't. But I could have."

Fluttershy didn't feel too much like eating at the moment. She did drink some coffee. "Do, do you think she left me?"

Twilight's face screwed up. "I, I'm sorry."

Fluttershy offered a small smile. It wasn't genuine; she just didn't know how else to react knowing full well that it was her own darn fault that Rainbow Dash would leave her. She could have chosen to be a different marefirend. Or perhaps to just lay the groundwork out flat at first. Or to take things slower, not let Rainbow Dash practically move in with her. Or agree to marriage, a concept that in retrospect just didn't fit with her own life. She wasn't even sure what it was that she wanted at this point. 

Trixie spoke a little more gently. "I think she might break up with you."

Fluttershy nodded. "I deserve it. Maybe some part of me even wants it. I just... I feel bad for Pinkie because she was really looking forward to being with Dashy. I guess that's over now."

Twilight cleared her throat. "Actually... Pinkie, might, just maybe, be okay?"

Fluttershy looked up at her. "I guess so. She can handle heartbreak well. I'll be sure to spend some extra time with her so she's not sad about Dashy leaving us."

Trixie looked at Twilight who seemed to be struggling with something, then looked back at Fluttershy. "No, what she means is, that we think Rainbow Dash will still date Pinkie, just... not you."

Fluttershy blinked. "I... n-no, that's impossible. Pinkie wouldn't do that."

Twilight looked down at her cup of coffee with distant eyes. "I'm going to lose half my friends due to a break up aren't I?"

Trixie rubbed her shoulder. "No, of course not. It'll just be awkward for awhile is all."

Fluttershy stood up. "Why do you two keep acting like Pinkie would leave me for Dash? Or that Dash would leave me for Pinkie? Or, or however it is you think this would work?"

The guilty look in Twilight's eyes said it all. She didn't have to tell Fluttershy where Rainbow Dash was, she knew. Fluttershy ran out of the kitchen, to the front door and threw it open. It was muddy, and wet, and raining but she didn't care. She spread her wings and flew up into the air faster than she'd ever flown before. She had to get to Pinkie’s and now. She flew as fast as she could, ignoring the shouts from behind her. She was going to talk to them. If she apologized they wouldn't do this right? They wouldn't both kick her out of their lives right? She wouldn’t have to be all alone again… right?

She saw it nearby. The three story tall building of Sugarcube Corner. She flew to the balcony and landed. She was soaking wet by now but she didn’t care. She went to door but before she could open it she saw the door open in front of her. Both Rainbow Dash and Pinkie Pie were standing there.

Rainbow Dash swallowed. "Your right, she was here."

Pinkie Pie nodded. "I knew she would be... good morning, Fluttershy."

Fluttershy was panting. Flying that fast was a lot harder on her than she thought. "Please, don't, leave, me.” Fluttershy coughed a few times, those coughs broke into sobs. “I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please don't leave me."

Rainbow Dash lowered her head and looked away. 

Pinkie frowned. "No build up? Just apologizing and begging right out of the gate? You must have really screwed up."

Fluttershy already knew that much. "Rainbow, please."

Rainbow Dash looked at her, for a moment there was sympathy there, but that sympathy quickly eroded into a glare. "Fluttershy, just go home."

"But, but we're getting married soon."

Rainbow Dash shook her head. "After last night, I need to take a break from you. So no, we're not getting married soon. I already got all my stuff out of your house, I’ll be staying at home for awhile."

Fluttershy felt her heart dying inside, but she couldn't argue with her. Just last night she was contemplating leaving Rainbow Dash, and now she wanted Rainbow back because Rainbow Dash was leaving her, what kind of mess was she? She looked at Pinkie Pie. "What... what about you?"

Pinkie shook her head. "Me and Rainbow are going to work on our relationship for now... so... I'm sorry."

Fluttershy wasn't going to sit there humiliated, thrown away, and realizing just how badly this was all her fault. She flapped her wings a few times and took off in a slow steady flight toward her home. It was going to be lonely there again, but she'd done this to herself. Was this what she really wanted? To upset Rainbow Dash so much that she got dumped? To make Pinkie break up with her? 

No, she just wanted Rainbow Dash to be herself. 

Well she got her wish. 

It was too late to fix anything now.