//------------------------------// // Part One // Story: Discord's Secret // by Silver Hoof //------------------------------// I sit here today, encased in this stone prison, and I take a moment to... reflect... on my life. Who am I? Who was I? Where did it all go wrong? Why did it all go wrong? Will I be able to make amends? That last one, I am not quite sure of, but I know the answers to all of the other questions rattling around inside of my skull. Do you miss me Celestia? I miss you... I was not always evil. There was a time, long ago, when I was known across Equestria as the Guardian of Harmony. So what changed? Oh, nothing has changed, really. The... conditions... had always been there. What are these conditions, you ask? Well, for one, I'm unstable. I have Multiple Personality Disorder. I am also schizophrenic. It all just... took a long time to reveal itself. And when it did? When I finally snapped? Nothing had ever felt more liberating- or more painful- in my entire life. I began to hurt my loved ones. I began... to kill. I am here to try to explain my actions, not to excuse them. There is... no excuse for what I have done. I am also telling you this as an attempt to apologize. I really am sorry... for all I have done. I am Discord, and this is my story. ________________________________________________ Back in a time just over three thousand years ago, I was just starting out in life. I was about ten years old, physically. I knew that I was different from everypony else. I was not actually a pony at all, but a draconequuis. I belonged to an ancient Equestrian race of god-like creatures. I was actually the last of my kind. Just like they were the last of theirs. Well, the last ones in Equestria, at least. The Alicorns. Only ten are left in the entire world, and I shared a class with three of them. Cadence, Luna, and... Celestia. Even back then, I think I loved her. I still do... My life was not the best one, what with living on the streets, no parents to speak of, and nopony who loves you. All I wanted was a friend... That's all... Instead, the ponies shunned me or made fun of me. Even my teachers treated me like shit! The only two ponies... who ever gave a FUCK about me.... were Luna and Cadence. They were my only friends... Celestia didn't even notice that I was there, or that everypony hated me. She was completely oblivious, only concerned with her studies. After school, Celestia would go home, but Luna and Cadence would stay behind to hang out with me. They would double over with laughter whenever I did my 'Spider to a Butterfly' trick. Life got a little better with them as my friends. But I still did not have the one friend that I truly wanted. Around the time that we graduated into the fifth grade, Cadence got her cutie mark. I remember one day, she had walked up to me in the hallway and asked me a peculiar question. "Do you want me to use my power on my sister?" She had asked. I had chuckled and shaken my head. "I don't want to be with her unless she decides that it is what she wants to do on her own." That was probably the second worst mistake of my entire life. Looking back, I probably should have let her use that spell... What ever it was. Things would probably have ended differently... ________________________________________________ Chaos... still reigns... in my mind... It's always there... An ever-present, persistent parasite inside my brain... I can't control it... Can't control it... can't control it... Get out of my head! I don't need you... Don't need you... Please... Let me go! I still... love her... _________________________________________________ Around some time in the seventh grade, I was flying to school when I had overheard an intriguing conversation. I hid behind a cloud and watched the ponies below as they argued about something. "But it is destiny! It was set in stone!" "Nothing is ever set in stone, 'Tia! It doesn't have to end this way! He's not a bad guy!" "I have to agree with Luna on this one. Discord is a wonderful character to be around, and-" "I don't care how he acts! The prophecy says that he is going to-" "We're being watched, sister. You may want to keep your voice down." So the three Alicorns are talking about me? I thought. I didn't really think that much about it at the time, however. I should have paid more attention, though. Instead, I just flew off to school, where I would wait for the end of the day so that I could play with Luna and Cadence. They were my best friends.... They were my only friends. _________________________________________________ They were your friends....... They were your friends, and you betrayed them! You.... you should be DEAD! You don't deserve to live, even if it is a life of stone! You were weak! You should have killed them when you had the chance! But what do you do? You let that BITCH live because of a STUPID! FUCKING! CRUSH!....... You're worthless. The next time we get out of here, I am gonna do what you should have done a long time ago!.............. No........ Please..... Don't hurt her...... She's all that I have left...... Oh, you don't have SHIT, and you know it! She doesn't care about you! Nopony cares about you!...... THAT'S NOT TRUE! You just shut up..... Oh, but it is true.... You could have had Celestia, but you were too much of a little fucking bitch to do anything about it! Face it. You're nothing without me....... NO! SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP! Get away from me! I don't need you!....... Yes you do.... You love having me around.... The liberation, the rage, the power! That's all because of ME, you little prick! You love it!...... SAY IT!........................ I......... I love it.... I love it. _________________________________________________