Dear Journal,
It was my friend's birthday yesterday. She invited me over to her place for a small party and a sleepover. I got her a nice book, a candle, and a pin. I've been looking forward to it for a while because my friend invited her over, too.
Not that that was the only reason why I was looking forward to it. I love my friend and I would spend time with her, no matter who else she invited over.
We had a lot of fun. We all played some games together, ordered food, then watched a movie.
I think I was a little bit too obvious about wanting to get some alone time with her. I wanted to apologize for embarrassing myself the last time we saw each other.
I... never really got that alone time. It was only ten seconds, but I made sure I apologized in ten seconds flat! And it wasn't just 'I'm sorry'. I made it clear what I was apologizing for.
She didn't really have time to respond before our other friends interrupted. They mean well, but they're just clueless sometimes.
I stayed overnight while she and the others left. Something about work to do.
Is it bad that I wanted her to stay?
I couldn't just say that I wanted only her to stay while everyone else left! First off, it's not my house. And it would just look REALLY suspicious. And I don't want to reveal anything to anyone else.
But, just because I won't say it, doesn't mean I don't feel it. And I do feel it! Constantly!
It's exhausting.