Life Anew: Part 9: A feverish and hectic day
It hurt a lot. I can't say why it hurts but it does it's hot and cold I can't think straight really.
Opening my eyes is a chore and I just keep crying as well is scary I don't remember ever being this scared. "Mother, please, please hold me".
What is happening to me? I was fine not that long ago, but now I'm not ok, I want Mommy. I want her to hold me, to sing for me, to make all this pain go away. it's all dark and scary and it hurts so much. why does it hurt so much?
After what feels like such a long time of darkness and pain starts to fade a little still hurts but I'm not scared anymore. I can feel it, I can feel her she is holding me. I can feel mothers warmth, it's so pleasant and calming. The same feeling I felt time and time again. mother is now here with me.
I try to muster up some strength to open my eyes to look at Mother. It's hard but I get to see her, her blurry outline at least.
As I have my eyes open they start to focus back in again as my tears also get vibed away. I can see my mother with a worried look I look around and see a lot of other silhouettes out of focus just franticly running around.
It kind of looks funny so I laugh but my laughing turns into coughing just as fast. I see a glass of water flowing in front of me and I drink from it as it helps. look up at my mother who is still holding me. She does look less worried now and smiles a nervous smile.
I now just realised what is happening. I have a fever or something of the like. This is so much worse than I have ever felt before. Did children really have it like this when they became sick? It was even worse than any other time I remember being sick.
If this is what I feel like being sick as a child I will start eating healthier and I won't be bad ever gain. I don't want to feel this way ever again.
"yeah, aha, ok... hm"
"So how is she?" I was waiting with anticipation for an answer from the doctor.
"Well, it's just a normal fever, your highness."
"Really? You're sure that it's nothing to series?" I was in desperation my cute little delight is burning up, and here I am not able to help. I see the doctor start to smile at me.
"your highness you are not the first mother who is overreacting to their own foal's first fever, but I ensure you that this is very normal. Now I have some medicine you should give her as she eats if she can eat and if she throws it back up you will have to wait an hour or so before trying again. if you are all out of luck well you know where to find me."
I know he trying to reassure me but how can I be calm in this situation? Can I even run this kingdom am I even fit to be a mother if so how can I be a mother to all my little ponies? no, no he is right I need to calm down it's just a fever.
"Alright Doctor, thank you I will call you if there is any need for your assistance," I say trying to hide my worry.
"As you should, now I do have some other rounds to check up on either an associate or I will be there for your calls if need be, now I must go so goodbye, your majesty," he says with a little stern look that later turns into a small smile.
"yes goodbye, Doctor." I try to change my poster and facial expression as his stern eyes look at me as smiled a nervous smile.
This is nerve-wracking I have never in my long life been this scared and fearful and this is a normal occurrence for everypony.
it's been at least 2 days since the doctor was here I wanted to call him here. Both the nanny, the maids and even some guards have reassured me that this is normal it's a prosses that will happen. I have been trying too hard not to just call every doctor.
so I send the doctor a letter asking for advice on what I could do if the fever don't go down and that she just throw up as well. What I got back was that if the fever doesn't go down tomrrow I should send him another notice and he will be on his way. That's great and all but here I am a single mother with no help what am I sposed to do? oh, Lulu I really need you here right now.
I have seen many things in my life but nothing has ever prepared me for this. I feel so out of it but she is finally calm her temperature has gone down. I had to call the Doctor over he was a little mad at me but what can I say? I was so worried. No matter what I did her fever would not stay down and she kept screaming and crying making me tear up as I don't know what to do.
I am so tired now but she is finally sleeping soundly these 5 days have been so hectic. it's finally over. Sleep tight my little Delight, Mother loves dearly sorry I have been so useless in your time of need.
I smile at a new thought, At least this has been a new learning curve I have at least learned of my mistake for the next time. I lean in and kiss her again.
"Sweet dreams" I whisper. Fatigue soon takes over me and everything turns to black as I get lulled to sleep by her cute little calm snoring. after all the problems we had this sound was so reassuring than any other.