She’d stayed in her room for several days only leaving her room for food and hygiene. Most of the time was spent listening to stories about fictional story of pony depression and suicide
“Feels like someone threw a heady weighted blanket on me without being strong enough to lift me up. Just trapped in a pitch-black tunnel with no light show at the end and the more and more I think about ending my life it seems to be a relief of closure because what’s the point of fighting if the battle is such a struggle to keep on fighting since I’ll never get to experience my lost childhood as a girl, never get to know what franchise other girls got into, nor experience what other only cis girls got to experience while growing up.”
She said as she felt her eyes get heavier and heavier before dozing off into sleep she was suddenly woken up by the doorbell being run a bunch of times and a loud bang. She stumbled out of her fution anxiously startinging to get pins and needles all over her body. She debated on going down but too scared of who it could be or what if it was some pony in desperate need with none to help. Despite her anxiety Gabi went downstairs to investigate except some pony was in the front entrance and to her surprise she found her mother standing in the middle of the front entrance.
“I’ve been expecting you, son” her mother said.
Immediately she felt a sharp shock in her body and froze on the spot.
“You know awful it is for you to change your gender right? Especially since you’re my son, not my daughter”
She said as she trotted up the stairs slowly to her. As her mother got closer Gabi slowly backed upstairs but only to find her brother towering over the small pegasus.
“Why don’t we try making him who he was again”
The two of them disappeared and immediately the stairs turned into a slip and slide. Gab tried to hold on the railings but her wings went right through it like it was a hologram, she fell through the floor with a loud crash into an endless pit with her past memories and her mom and brothers faces surrounding her as they shamed her for transitioning. She tried to fly but no matter how hard she tried she couldn’t. Almost like both wings were clipped. Suddenly the both of them started chanting
“something something, I will make a better chant for later. Shall he return to the way he was FOREVER!”
a large beam of light crashed on the anxious.
Thankfully she woke up in a state of distress but in her normal pony self. Though her room was a bit different, almost like it was a princess room. She decided to go outside and see what exactly this place was called.
“Little Spell?” (My friend other OC) Gabi called as she walked down the halls.
Suddenly she realized this was Castle Ruins of the Two Sisters. Memories started to flood her mind on how obsessed she was with them as a child and one thing led to another memory opened up this time of summer camp in Canterlot.
“I remember the Sisters allowing me to stay in the pony cabin and them being so kind and treating me as if I was a Pony”
Suddenly it hit her
“I’ll never get to experience them as my childhood, as a pony” the pegasus said as they attempted to hold back the tears but couldn’t hold it in.
Tears burst out as she collapsed onto the ground
“Why, why was I cursed in the wrong body?!? Knowing I’ll never get to live through my loss Ponyhood”
Just then Princess Luna slowly descended from the moon into the castle.
“P Princess Luna?” Said Gabi as she looked up and immediately trotting over to her hugging her.
She had a strong relationship with Luna as a child due to Gabs loving her night sky even as a child and her protecting her from nightmares through out her whole life.
“Why must’ve I’ve been born in the wrong body Princess. Just to suffer? To never get to experience my life the way I wished years ago. Or to only get abused by the ones who raised me” She said
”Now now girl, it’s easy to look back on the darkest of times and even if you may never experience your lost childhood. What matters most is what you’ve accomplished during your transition. Here lemme show you” She placed her horn gently on Gabs forehead.
The two mares transported to the emptiness of space so the Princess could project all the memories to her.
“See look Gabi ''
She wiped away her tears from underneath her glasses.
“This was the first day you met Little Spell” Luna cheered in excitement.
“Oh and how about that time you went to a Daring Do Convention and met tons of great people. Even if you’d haven’t heard from them at least you found people you connected with”
Though Gabi couldn’t help but feel a bit dysphoric due to her past of not being a mare. The Princess caught wind
“Unfortunately I cannot change the memories but think about it, you probably would’ve never met Little Spell if it wasn’t for your transition” Luna mentioned.
“Feel better?” Luna asked Gabs.
“Yes, a bit better thank you Luna. You always feel like a mother to me Princess” She replied.
Luna smiled “no worries girl”.
Everything around them started to warp a distortion.
“You seem to waken soon, now girl but before I go remember you are loved and cared for by many ponies like Little Spell and of course, m ” the Princess of the night said before fading off into darkness.
She opened her eyes to be greeted by her best friend Little Spell who was standing next to her Fution.
“Good morning sleepy sleepy head” he said.
Gabi let out a little chuckle as she scrambled to find her glasses
“Looking for these?”
He said he put her glasses on. She Smiled and replied “Yeah hehe, Thank you Spell!”.
He smiled in retuned before saying
“Hey, Flutters stopped by this morning, she asked if we would like to go to the market at around 12:30 pm. She asked if I’d like to go but-”
The brown haired pegasus pony cut him with an excited “Yes!”.
“Oh sweet! But unfortunately I can’t make it since the house needs to be cleaned.”
When Little broke the news She slowly started to feel the energy suck out of her knowing that her best friend wouldn’t make it
“Oh okay”.
Though Little did reassure her that the two of them could go out maybe next weekend and maybe go out with Twilight as well.
“I’m sorry to disappoint you girl but hopefully you understand”
She looked up and gave a nod to him which was her way of saying I understand.
“You might wanna get ready since she will be here in less than 2 hours” Little replied,
as he walked out of the guest room. Her eyes widened in fear except felt no motivation to get out of bed instead just lay there and process the dream that just happened.
Except the more and more she thought about it she started imagining what her mother would say to her if she saw the pony in her current state. Shaming her for sleeping in and how she was lazy with no bright future ahead. Strangely that gave her the motivation to get out and make sure to get ready before Fluttershy and her went out. Hopping into the show to wash herself and fix her greasy mane she could help but noticed that the shampoo was the exact same one used back at home. It sent the pony into a spiral of what if’s
“What if I become like my mother or brother”
“What happens if I do become like them?”
“Will I lose Little Spell”
Eventually she was able to hop out of the spiral but it was only thanks to the alarm on her phone reminding her how long to shower for.