Everfree Forest, Ponyville
Is it okay to admit that I'm nervous? Discord says it is, and I trust him, but sometimes I still wonder.
I trust you too, Twilight, which is why I drank the potion. But I don't need a truth potion to tell you that it didn't taste very good.
Thanks for giving me the choice, though. It means a lot.
I don't like feeling like I'm not in control of my life. Which doesn't make sense, does it? Little old Fluttershy, scared of her own shadow. I spend so much of my time being dragged into things I didn't want to do, and sometimes it feels like no pony seems to care how I feel. They think that I must not have anything better to do, or that I don't care what ponies do to me.
But that's just my frustration talking. I know they usually mean well.
Honestly, Twilight? I think you and I have more in common than someponies realize. Oh, for different reasons, of course, but in a lot of ways we're the same. And while it hasn't been at the same rate, I think our friends have changed both of us for the better.
You used to want to stay home reading and studying, because those were the most important things in life for you. I wanted to stay home because I was too afraid to talk to other ponies. Other ponies...aren't always nice to me.
We both still have those elements in our personalities, but we choose not to let them control our lives. But we didn't start to change until other ponies grabbed us and made us realize that we didn't have to keep living our lives the way we were.
Discord once asked me if I would change how things had turned out, if given the choice. I told him no. Things have been hard, sure. I've had a lot of sad moments, and had to do a lot of things I didn't want to. But looking back? I don't think I would be the pony I am today without those things.
And, as wild as it feels to admit it? I like the pony I am today.
I also really like Discord. I know I probably don't do a good job of telling him this, but he's just...kind. Yes, I know you're thinking "but he's been so mean!", but, to be honest Twilight, all of you have been mean at one point or another too.
(That includes me, by the way. I still feel bad about how I shouted at Pinkie and Rarity when I was taking lessons from Iron Will.)
Discord reminds me of some of the animals that I try to help. Some of them don't seem to have ever been shown any kindness in their lives, and they don't know how to react when somepony is kind to them.
Is it wrong that I like the way he reacts when I do something nice for him? He's always so flustered, and it's so cute.
but i always think he's cute
Eep. I can't believe I wrote that.
I'm not sure I like this potion, Twilight.
But maybe it's like I wrote earlier. Sometimes, you and I need to be pulled out of our comfort zones for us to grow. And if it takes this potion for me to finally admit how I feel, then maybe it's a good thing.
Maybe it is time I told Discord what I think about him. How I really feel.
Oh, it doesn't need to be anything like that. (I'm turning bright red right now thinking about you raising your eyebrow when you read this.) But I like the idea of us spending more time together. Even if "special somedraconequus" sounds ridiculous.
Truth is, even with all my friends, sometimes I get lonely. And, as odd as it sounds, Discord really is a great listener, because he doesn't immediately try to fix things if they go wrong.
All right. I'll do it. I'll tell him at our next tea time.
But I might write you for a bravery potion first. After I hide this letter.
Sorry, Twilight.
And thank you.
Fluttershy.
This letter was not sent to Princess Twilight until after Fluttershy's passing. Discord discovered it among her effects, and brought it to her personally.
Princess Twilight says that she and the Lord of Chaos conversed for several hours that night, and that they have remained far closer as friends since then.
I believe Fluttershy would have liked that. Perhaps that was why she never sent it. When I asked the princess about that, she paused to consider it before smiling and sending me on my way.