A Poetry Anthology

by Shaslan


8. The changeling who dared to love

I'm watching from the corner and I'm waiting
I listen for the whispers of Her hating
The ones She wants to live, to die
I obey, and still, I try —
All I want is to save you
All I want is to protect you
So listen to me, listen, listen,
Listen, and run.

We colour the sky black and we are swarming
We're descending from above without warning
We do as She commands, and though
I want to try, and fight, I know —
I can only do as I am bid
And to kill your kin I am bid
Listen to the screams, listen, listen,
Listen, and run.

The song of the Hive it is within me
And not a drop of water but a flood are we
The rush of the chase, the thrill
The hunt, the shrieks, and then the kill —
It's almost enough to consume me
But their panicked cries still move me
And I listen, Hive help me, I listen, listen,
Listen, and I watch them run.

My wings are buzzing now without my say-so
The Queen wills it and I can't say no
Drops of blood arc through the air
And my fangs flash, and rend, and tear —
Is it your flesh on my tongue
Every sense screams this is wrong
But I listen, I have to listen, listen,
Listen, and pray you can run.

Your eyes were sky-blue and your smile was kind
You saw so much but love made you blind
I was a monster and you bought my lies
You trusted me, and now, the skies —
Black on blue — black like a bruise
Like the ones I leave on your neck — like abuse —
Listen to me, listen, listen,
Listen, and run.

The battle is raging and the fire is rising
Emotion flares from the dying and heaven help me, it's appetising
Their lives are in my hooves but I don't
The chitin is stained, and please, I won't —
Resistance is futile, submission divine
But what I would give to save the one I call mine
Listen to me, I told you, listen, listen,
Listen, and run.

But there like a nightmare through the smoke
The colours of your mane; for a second I hope
Can you outrun my brothers and sisters
Can you fight back, can you resist us —
But my wings are swift, and no, oh no
I'm landing hard, and no, oh no
I see it in your eyes that you know me
Beneath the exoskeleton and the fins still you know me
My Queen, please, relent, forgive
I've given all that I can give
Don't make me, please don't make me
—Resistance? My little drone, what is this?
A pony, just a pony, oh please, let her live
—Equestria has wronged me and I do not forgive.
And you are Queen and I am not
You will endure while I will rot
I love her, oh I love her
Though I only fully understand it now
But Your will is implacable and I must bow
And
And my hooves come
Down

Crack!

Crack!

Crack!

Blood spatters on my face and I am crying
I wish that it was me who lay dying
I'd have given my life for you
I did all a drone could do —
I wanted to protect you
And I tried so hard to save you
And you listened, you listened,
You listened, and you ran.

I'm cradling you close and I am weeping
Through the holes in my legs the blood is seeping
The Queen demands — Arise! Fight!
But, suddenly, it all seems...trite.
Now I lie in my bed of gore
I don’t have to listen to Her anymore
I won't listen, can't listen —
Won't listen, won't run.

Something changes inside me and now I'm glowing
Over my ruined hide colours they are flowing
My hivemates stop and stare, aghast
As I become the one thing, at last
You would have wanted for me;
I look at your broken face, and finally, my love, I'm free.