She sometimes wishes things like this could last forever.
They went on dates of course. They had fun together. Sunset got to show her Equestria. Took her dancing. They gradually progress into what couples start to do and eventually, they became one. Wallflower ignored the approaching deadline. The coming reminder that this couldn't last forever. And as the seasons began to change, Wallflower kept herself content. For the first time in a while, she was happy and content.
That was
The sound of snoring awoken her. Wallflower stared groggery at the TV set still playing a fake fire in front of her. The windows outside were a dull mixture of blue and grey. An overcast dawn was approaching. Wallflower tried to adjust her body on the couch but found that she couldn’t move. She glanced to her right and saw that Sunset never left the couch. She fell asleep on top of Wallflower, her head resting on her hips. Wallflower didn’t think that this was comfortable but wouldn’t disturb the sleeping figure who was laying on top of her. Instead, Wallflower let out a breathy sigh and dug herself in comfort. Autumn was beginning and the mornings were quickly becoming cold.
Wallflower continued to watch Sunset sleeping. These past few months have been the best moments in her life. She felt the familiar sinking feeling. Her chest started getting tighter. It felt like she was drowning. Sinking in the water of fear. Of the unknown. If only she learned not to drown.
Tears were stinging her eyes. Wallflower kept her misery silent. She didn’t dare to wake Sunset. Instead, for her comfort, Wallflower reached down and began to stroke Sunset’s hair. Different hues of yellow to red brushed against her fingertips. It was so peaceful and she was so beautiful. It was all she could hope for. For this moment to last forever.
As Wallflower continued to stroke her lover’s hair, a thought occurred to her. All the dates they went on in the past six months, all the time they had spent together, and yet this moment was the best moment she will probably ever have. Yes, the places they have been to together were nice and the moments they had shared were romantic. But this was a tranquility that Wallflower had sought after. A moment of joy that will forever be unique. Nothing before and nothing after could obtain this level of euphoric bliss.
It may lean itself to the fact that soon they might part ways as all her roommates eventually do but Wallflower won’t let that taint this feeling. Thus far she has ignored the hints of Sunset’s near future, the out-of-town offers, and messages from her various friends. Wallflower knows that whatever happens next she will have to eventually face. Whether it is a curse or bad luck, the gnawing sensation of apprehension that in just a few more days the lease will be renewed and Sunset has to leave her sits in the back of Wallflower’s mind. She has ignored that too. She could also see the signs of weakness in their relationship. The cracks in the structure held them together. Wallflower knows she has flaws. She acknowledges that Sunset and she have issues they need to sort out. And perhaps it would be best if they were separated for a while. Like two flowers that needed their own soil and water so that they can both grow at a healthy rate. Wallflower, however, rather focuses on what is right in front of her. Because despite the problems that may creep up on her, for the first time in her life Wallflower felt like she was an important component of someone else's life. Not an invisible shadow that is unnoticeable but rather a virtual spectacle that brightens Sunset’s day.
Wallflower wanted to keep this moment forever. She wants to remember it forever. A memory she will never tarnish or abandon. Who cares if they have a limited time together? Who cares if they don’t see each other again? Who cares if they were separated by fate? For as long as she lived, Wallflower would cherish these moments, these memories. She may never feel this way again but she knows now that she can be together with someone. To be complete.
What was it that Sunset said when they met in the bar months ago? Seize the day? Perhaps it is time for Wallflower to not worry about the past or fear the future. Start living in the now. Appreciate the present for what it is. For today, these past few months, they were a gift to her. As long as she remembers it, she would cherish Sunset and the happiness she has given to her.
And even if it ends all badly, who’s to say that this can’t happen again? She had escaped crushing loneliness once. She can do it again.
Wallflower grabbed the sleeping Sunset’s hand and squeezed it tight. A smile came upon her face.
There are things about people that one has to understand: It is that they come and they go. They never can stay for too long.
But, maybe just this once, this one can stay for a little longer.