//------------------------------// // The good old times. // Story: Redemption, what a beautiful word. // by Ryoup //------------------------------// Damian sighed heavily, he glanced quickly at Miranda, she looked out the window, her expression thoughtful, Miranda is always thinking, Damian thought smiling as he approached the doctor.    His heart raced, he scratched the back of his neck and tried to force a smile as he continued to approach the doctor, he walked past Fluttershy and looked at her quickly, she was smiling genuinely, nodding at Damian. After passing Fluttershy, Damian looked back at the ground, his heart racing faster and faster as he approached the doctor, his old friend, ex-friend, thought the human as his smile faded.                                                                                                                                                                                                                   It's now or never, Damian thought as he knelt down to be on the doctor's level, Damian's heart beating so fast he was sure everyone in the room was listening to him.  tum-tum-tum-tum-tum… Damian ran his hand over his head to wipe the sweat off his forehead, this fucked-up heart thought the human indignantly, his belly was bubbling with anxiety and his breath was already showing nervousness. He closed his eyes and slowly, as slowly as he thought possible began to lift his face up to face the doctor. After exhaling as hard as he could, he hesitantly opened his eyes and there it was, jotting down everything Damian did furiously in his clipboard, a brown unicorn with the blue mane. An unconscious smile formed as Damian faced the doctor, Fluttershy approached slowly, looking at him with blazing anticipation. Miranda meanwhile shook her head and massaged her eyes slowly. “Doc…” said the human, his voice almost sounded desperate as he looked the doctor up and down, “Damn, I thought I…” he tried to form a sentence but it always failed and once again his heart started to pound at a fast pace. "Mis-mister Damian I assume?" the doctor questioned him, he stopped his notes, putting his clipboard against his chest and smiling at the human. "Fuck, even your voice is the same." Daiman whispered, his hand slowly raised and shakily approached the doctor, “You're real right? like, are you Dr. Silk Touch?” The stallion thought about answering the question, but the human's hand was almost touching him and the words escaped him.  "W-well, mister-" "It's him." Miranda yelled as she swung her claws and cursed in a tone too low for anyone in the room but Damian to hear. When Damian was about to touch the doctor he shuddered and Damian's hand recoiled, he didn't know why, they were friends, Damian had saved his life a couple of times in the past, why was he scared? Scared of me? This thought continued to invade the human mind. "Mister Damiannnnn, you know the answer. Murderer." a child voice echoed in his head. No…fuck no, not now, he thought as he felt as if a thousand eyes were watching him from all corners, glowing purple eyes devouring him with their gaze, she's not real, he whispered softly as he placed both hands on his face. “Damian, are you okay? you seem pale--” "Mister Damian? what---” The words sounded hollow, as if at every second they lost life, as if every second the voices faded away from him. “Damian?” The air felt cold, as if the sun had gone out and hope had vanished from the world. "Damian?!" Soon Damian took his hands away from his face, there was nothing around him, all he saw was darkness and an infinity of eyes staring at him, unwittingly he began to embrace himself in an attempt to keep himself warm. "Is not real ... not real ..." he kept telling himself, but each time he repeated less sense this phrase seemed to have. "You lost." a distorted voice whispered, "You are alone, betrayed and abandoned." the voice continued, its pitch rising with each word, then it seemed like the voice was right behind him. "T-that was an accident, I did-didn't... I-" His mouth moved, the words were uttered but none sound came out. "DAMIAN!" like thunder ripping through the black loneliness that surrounded the human, a voice was heard. Did it seem to come from all sides, left? or right? He wondered where the voice was coming from, and then suddenly he felt his body move shivering as an unimaginably warm embrace enveloped him, the darkness began to dissipate and the cold to fade away. "M-Miranda?" His voice was weak, slow and slurred, as if he was waiting for an answer, and then he had it when the embrace intensified. "It's me... Dad, calm down ok? it just... calms down.” Miranda spoke as she tried to calm her dad, she glared at Fluttershy, using some of her anger to hug her father even more. "I am here." The smoke cleared and everything was back to normal, in a second, just like every time, everything was unusually calm as Miranda whispered a song in a tone inaudible to almost everyone in the room. Compelling for a mixture of anger and shame Damian wiped the tears he knew would be on his face, sniffled as he tried to get up, Miranda doing little to stop him, his legs were shaking, his heart was racing and he broke out in a cold sweat, but the worst was the others in the living room looking at him. "Mister Damian." said the doctor, his voice filled with a concern that only a health worker could express. He tried to approach Damian but was stopped by his hand which stopped him from taking another step. "Thank you for taking care of my daughter" Damian's voice had barely recovered. Miranda thought about stopping him, saying something or holding him back, but chose not to, when her father slightly bowed to the doctor and turned to Fluttershy, Miranda expired defeated. "I'll wait in your hut.” Damian spoke barely looking at her, Fluttershy lifted a hoof, she was about to hold him by the sleeve of his clothing, but Miranda stopped her, holding Fluttershy with her claws with a force that tore a squeak out of Fluttershy. As Damian walked through the door, everyone watched and heard what sounded like a sob as he put both hands to his face. As soon as the door closed, Miranda tightened her grip on Fluttershy's hoof, her claws piercing the mare's skin. When she was about screaming or crying under the pressure Miranda covered her muzzle with her other claw. "You... you shut. the. fuck up." Miranda spoke, her breath heavy and small blue flames coming out of her mouth, then her grip faded away and she stood up to follow Damian. Fluttershy looked at her hoof, she could see the places where Miranda's claw had pierced, small droplets of blood were forming, but even so, using her good hoof she tried to stop Miranda. "W-wait! Mi-" before he could continue or hold her, Miranda whipped the ground with her tail, silencing Fluttershy and Silk Touch who were about to make an observation. "He is about to make some big shit, see ya at the hut.” Miranda opened the door but felt both eyes on her, she started to squeeze the side of the door and the doctor's eyes widened when he saw splinters appear where she held the door, then to their surprise Miranda turned her face to them. Fluttershy opened her snout to ask a question, so many invaded her head, but when she saw Miranda's tear-streaked face she stopped in shock. "Fuck, you fucking bitch." tears streamed from her eyes, “what's your problem? I just… one thing...” when Miranda was about to leave, Fluttershy, gathering all the courage she possessed, she yelled. “Wait! I didn't understand what... they weren't friends?” Miranda clenched her fist, it trembled from the force she put into it." “What?" Miranda whispered as she turned to them, consumed by a murderous rage she walked towards Fluttershy. The mare's eyes widened and her ears immediately folded as she realized what was about to happen. "M-Miss Miranda!" yelled Silk Touch, stepping between them, for his breath and the occasional rattle of his hooves. Miranda could almost feel his fear, but it was enough for Miranda to stop her onslaught and snort.  She raised her claw and pointed at Fluttershy, she breathed heavily and licked her lips. "He killed Silk Touch's son." Miranda said dryly, both ponies' eyes widened. “they… they never spoke again and fuck you, when I tell you to…” a scream was heard from the street, grunting in anger and berating herself for taking too long Miranda runs towards the exit. "this is not over!" With the violent slamming of the door, Miranda was gone, Silk Touch stared stunned for a few seconds where Miranda was before turning to Fluttershy. "I… do I have a son?" "I-I didn't know, I'm so sorry." Fluttershy cried, ignoring the doctor as she hugged her bruised hoof, sobbing in pain and shame, "I really had no idea about that..." Anger, a murderous fury, a monumental distaste for the pony-kind. These were some of the many things that were going through my head at the time, but most of all, it was embarrassment. I knew this would happen, it was the only logical outcome, and yet, consumed by morbid curiosity or a desire to teach the mare a lesson, I allowed Fluttershy to introduce Silk touch to Damian. God, how I regret it. When he started having that anxiety attack I froze, I tried to call him, but he wouldn't respond to my calls. Only when I hugged him did he seem to improve, waking up as he liked to call it. But it didn't matter, the damage was already done. I clenched my fist once more in anger. Only me and Bloody Novel have seen Damian in that deplorable state, and even when only I see him, he feels very ashamed to be seen in that state. Please don't look at me! or I deserve it were some of the phrases Damian whispered as I tried to calm him down, but now he didn't say anything and that was the worst part of it. Ignoring the fact that if it weren't for Fluttershy and an old friend there, I don't know if I could stop him from…well, kill the witnesses, I guess. So, the only other way besides the anger that was left to him was the shame, he… he didn't even look into my eyes or say anything to me, he just… walked away. I start to walk faster, and clench my fist even harder. I can't take long to find him, every second I waste is another second when something can go wrong, and knowing Damian and how he doesn't waste time to get in trouble I may already be late! After walking through these hellish corridors for what seemed like hours I finally found the exit, the screams, whispers and gossips coming from the street intensifying. As I leave the hospital I feel the sunlight blinding me for a couple of seconds before my eyes adjust to the abrupt increase of brightness. I soon noticed the reason for all the commotion, a wagon was overturned, hay, wood and other pony stuff spilled all over the street. A pony was sitting on the curb, he massaged his cheek while a small group of other ponies talked to him. But that wasn't what caught my attention the most. The cake went to an unconscious guard lying on the ground and another broken wagon not far from here, another guard, decorating the broken remains of the car. Fuck. I find myself whispering as I look at the whole scene again, a group of mono-colored ponies pointing in a direction talking about a giant monster, with equally giant arms capable of infinitely stretching it. Damian. I start running in that direction and everyone soon opens the way, either out of fear or curiosity. "It's her!" I hear a mare whisper, "It'll eat us like the giant!" another stallion whispered in a slightly louder tone. "Where's Fluttershy to stop these monsters?!" This time it was another mare, but it was no longer a whisper but a cry for help. I clench my claws and teeth, then I spread my wings. I've had my weekly dose of racist-and-technocolor horses. Pushing hard enough to make the ponies closest to me fly away, I take flight. As soon as I feel the chill of the air currents I feel my pulse slow as my anger slowly drains away, flying has always been therapeutic for me. According to Damian, it was a pleasure that few species have and therefore should enjoy. It doesn't matter, I'm not flying to relax but to find that project of philosopher. From up here I can clearly see the trail of chaos and destruction that Damian left, wagons, ponies and even a small, poorly positioned building had suffered from his stampede. I look closely to see if any serious damage has been done to the ponies, I mean, the wagons are in bits and one of the pillars in the building has been destroyed. Luckily there were only scratches, concussions and a couple of foals crying and pointing at the trail of destruction. It was then that I realized, like lightning, it hit me. "He was running and everyone was watching him!" Taking a deep breath I decided to accelerate more, paying little or no attention to the damage that might have occurred. My eyes chased the signs of Damian's escape, I repeated this phrase for what felt like a full minute before stopping abruptly at the edge of the village. . My breathing had already accelerated due to the effort I imposed on my body but it doesn't matter, I follow what seems to be a straight line from the last mess Damian made in town and notice some trees and a lake in the distance. "How the fuck did he runned this fast?" I shake my head quickly, this is no time for this, without wasting another second I advance towards the trees quickly. Landing softly near a particular tree, from a distance it looked normal, but as I approached I could clearly see that there was a hole just above my head in the tree. I touched the hole almost hesitantly and could feel it was warm. and a little sap leaked from the ends. “It was Damian,” I tell myself. I walk cautiously looking around, but before my eyes find him, my ears do. “I-I-I fucked u-up everything!” It was him. The closer I got, the more damaged trees I saw. There was one that looked as if it had been twisted, the wood looked like it was about to snap, another had been knocked down and there were two holes in this one. I gulped and sighed at the sight in front of me, on his knees and facing himself in the lake, was Damian, his left hand supporting him as he rubbed his face with his right hand, he was sweating, his hair more disheveled than usual and tears falling from his face to mingle with the immensity of the lake. After looking at him one more time to see if he looked hurt, I could conclude he was fine. I couldn't contain a sigh of relief at noticing this, however, to my carelessness it felt like a very loud sigh as he immediately noticed me. "G-go away." I didn't know what to do, Damian was there, kneeling and trying in vain to hide himself from me. I, I usually don't like to admit it, but I rarely know what to do in situations like this. I like to make it look like I know what to say, that I always have an answer ready for everything, but that would be a lie. I mentally cursed Fluttershy as I sighed heavily. Damian seemed to notice, he stared at me for a few seconds before turning back to avoid me. What is he thinking? I wonder as I slowly approach. He seemed to notice as his body stiffened and he started asking me to leave. Ignoring him, I sat beside him. By this time my proud father had stopped crying and sobbing, resorting only to looking away trying to hide from me, but by the reflection of the lake I can clearly see his watery and swollen eyes due to… well, everything. I started plotting what I should say, how I should speak and with which tone I should speak, the many books I read in New Canterlot started to invade my mind, however, to my surprise it wasn't me who broke the awkward silence, it was him. "He… he looked so real, he was… he was identical," Damian said, his voice consumed with a mortal remorse. I place my claw on his shoulder and smile lovingly at him, he looks at me subtly but repeats my act. "Y-yes Damian, he looked like him, but it wasn't him." I try to speak in a steady voice and express confidence, but at the last second memories of me, him and Damian talking and playing in the castle invade me, making me stutter. “He was a nice guy, you know, he… my god, he… he was a good person." I could see, and I knew what Damian meant. I squeeze his shoulder a little tighter as I lean a little closer, now hugging him quietly. "I know, he was the best of us, just, good." laughed a little. "With the best sense of right and wrong." I joke laughing some more and I smile in relief as I see him laughing back too. "Y-yes, remember that time, where he said that, and we laughed." I nodded, although there were more than once times it would fit under such… circumstances. Then his smile started to wither, his eyelids almost closed and he started scratching his neck lightly. "I-I didn't know, I thought it was… I hadn't seen his face, I… he was there and… it was all so fast…" I hugged him tighter, I didn't dare whisper that everything was fine or would be fine, because I know it wouldn't be. I just kept hugging him. “And then he…my god, he…fuck, Jesus…” he straightened up to allow both of his hands to his face, his sobs started to come back. "Dad, do you know that-" "No Miranda." he interrupted me, he knows I abhor it, but I decided not to say anything for the moment. "I-I don't know, do you know why?" He stared at me for a moment surprising me, he expressed morbid confidence in whatever he might say and it sent a chill down my spine. "Because I was too drunk to remember." he said, it took me half a second to process this information and then my eyes unconsciously widened and he pointed at me, his hand trembling. "I, I was so drunk I didn't recognize him, so numb from the fucking alcohol I didn't hear his screams…Miranda." he turns to me and puts his arms around my shoulders. "I...I don't remember killing him! I-I know I did it, but ‘cause that fuckin’ drink...and-and...god..." It felt like life itself was leaving his body as he sneezed, his arms slipped down my shoulders before falling into my lap. I didn't know what to say, I'd heard him tell me this story so many times, hundreds and hundreds of times and it was always the same story, and now this? How should I answer this? I was stunned for another couple of seconds, but hearing him sobbing once more I quickly took his hands, gently stroking his fingers.  "Dad, you would never do that, you know that right?" "No Miranda, I did that, and I did that before and after, remember what I was going to do before we were dragged into this fucking universe?" "What?" “Separing a parent from their children… we-I, I did it many times. They're just animals, I kept repeating to myself, just animals, so then I remembered him and…” “Dad… I” “And you know what I said to myself? You remember right? That I would no longer get drunk, never return to that deplorable state, guess what I did the next day?” I feel my ears bending slightly and now it's my turn to avoid eye contact as I remember what he did. “I drank, I drank and drank again and again until I ran out of alcohol, and then I drank some more. I drank so much that I don't even know what kind of twisted shit I did that day, I just know that I had drunk so much that when I woke up in the next day I had forgotten everything I had done, when I went down to the kitchen, to the throne room I looked for him, my faithful friend and companion, I sent Bloody and Deep Drill to look for him… I… it took me almost two hours to remember, remember my best friend breaking into the castle in the middle of the night during a storm, I was in the throne room and he… he was there, his whole family, anger, tears of pure hatred running down his face…” Damian stopped for a minute, he breathed heavily as if he was gathering the strength to continue. I tried to stop him, but he gently covered my lips and nodded. "He screamed to the four winds as he hit me, I asked Bloody not to interfere, ‘cause I know she was going to kill him, 'cause of that he almost killed me, he kept hitting me over and over, he broke me two ribs and an arm, but you know, that wasn't even close to the worst part of it, I'm used to the physical pain, what really hurt me were what he said, my God, I can almost hear him talking.” my father raised his hands as if trying to reach for something invisible. "You monster," he began, forcing his voice to sound huskier, though it was clear he didn't need to strain due to his deplorable state. "I felt sorry for you,” Damian started again. “Suffering and being hurt and all of that, when you escaped and killed … by Faust, when you killed the princesses, killed them all, turned Canterlot into this hellish pit… I felt pity, pity and guilt for you, what you went through was something terrifying… When I arrived and you greeted me like an old friend, by the five heavens and four winds Damian, I believed in you. I believed that you were more than a monster without a soul or a heart, but in the end, I was wrong… that's what you are… a dirty and hideous monster!" When my dad finished that sentence he had tears streaming down his face, his expression that mimicked Silk Touch's anger at the time soon became a neutral, listless face. I tried to comfort him by stroking his hands or a slight scratch on his neck, but it was all in vain. “My best friend left in that storm, I can still hear the thunder, and I still can't decipher if it was thunder at the end, or the palace door being slammed at the end, but I never saw my friend again…” Trembling, Damian hugged himself in an attempt to stop what felt like a deadly cold. “His eyes… so full of rage…” Fuck, I think to myself as I hug my dad, “it's going to be okay, dad.” he quickly stops hugging himself and hugs me back. "I'm here, everything will be fine." "" I said with a country accent according to him, as I slowly stroked his head and whispered for him to calm down. I can't say how long we've been standing here, I just know that my arms are already aching and my back is also aching due to his ever-increasing hug, but in some way, this is good, I know he likes to hug me like that, to make sure I never leave. He joked when I was little.  I'll hug you very tight my little princess! Then you will know that I love you! I feel a tear escaping from my eyes but quickly I wipe it away. I can’t cry. Not now. Crying means I look weak and now I have to be strong. Again time passed, and I never failed to caress him or comfort him, the moon had already risen to the sky until he finally broke our embrace. He stared at me with that face of his, a crooked smile and even worse hair. "" I nod at him as I get up and hand one hand to my dad, he quickly takes it and gets up too. "