//------------------------------// // Chapter 2 what do I see? // Story: My Little Consciousness // by Creative Delight //------------------------------// Darkness was the first thing I saw. But with the help from the one, I now call mother. She helped me see. She helped me learn. But the more I learn, the more I want to know these things—these memories. Why do I have them when I don’t even know what to do with them. I don’t understand them. They give no answers, only questions. Who was I? Who were the creatures I see? what were all the other things I see? They are like echos with no sound. Words with no meaning. It is like I know what it is but every time I think about it, I just have no memory. With the help of my mother, I have gotten meaning to words. Giving meaning to some of what I see. But it is not enough. I feel lost. I feel like nothing. Mother says I am broken and I needed to be fixed and that she will help me all the way. But what is fixed and what is broken? What is good and what is bad? What should I see when I can only be lost in these memories that I feel like don’t even belong to me. They feel disconnected. Why do I have them? Mother has thought me a lot, and so has discord. But I still feel so disconnected from them. What am I missing? all these weird sensations I can’t explain. Only what I feel is right. “My Little Consciousness, how are you today?” asked Mother “I am fine, but I feel weird.” “it will take time to heal when you are injured.” “injured? I thought I was broken,” Mother smiled at me, making me “feel” warm inside. “you are. Injured is the same as broken, but living being become injured, and even in this form that you are in, you are still living.” “What am I, Mother? I see so many things, and I can’t make out what they are or their meaning. I feel like I am, missing something.” “I know that you are feeling scared and confused. It is normal for one who is lost. I will try my best to guide you.” We both were interrupted by two unknown creatures, or at least unknown to me. “we asked thee, tree of harmony, if we could use thy elements to fight against Discord who is cursing Chaos,” Asked the white creature. Mother looked at them with a serious look, then changed the window to see what discord was doing. He was change everything around him, tormenting creatures looking just like the white one but smaller. “Discord, what are you doing?” she whispered, “you are meant to be a moving force, not tormenting them. There must be more wrong to it.” We then heard a second voice. It was from a little smaller one than the white one. “we would like for this chaos bringer to be dealt with we thee to lend us these gems to help us stop him. for he is ruining our lands.” said the dark blue creature. Mother still looked at them with an intense stare. “what are these creatures?” I asked, mother. “They are ponies. These two in front of us are Alicorns, a sub-species of the ponies.” “I will lend you, my children, so keep them safe. Use them with care. They are not for destroying.” Mother then focused on the white one. I could feel the energy rise. “I will lend them to you and only for this, but they are not for you, so I want you to find me the real bears of the elements,” “I, I, I will, I promise,” said the white alicorn feeling a little scared from the tone of Mother. “so My Little Consciousness, what is bothering you.” “I don’t know, mother, I see these things. These many creatures and objects I can’t explain. What they are what these creatures are. They seem to be talking, but I don’t what they are saying.” “What you see is your past, I do not know who these creatures are, but I do know that they may be linked to you in some way. Now, what do you see?” “see these a lot of these bipedal creatures. I see them sitting in these strange things that slide on circular objects. I see massive stones that have these windows in them. I see massive and small of these stones and woods.” “these stones much be buildings, structures that some of the Sapient creatures built to live in. It seems these creatures are intelligent. What else do you see?” “I see this creature. It’s small smaller than others. one is bulkier and looks heavier while the other looks to have more on the front side of their legs.” A long time happened for me to try and describe these creatures. “it seems to me that you a describing Male and female the little one must be their child, a female child. do you see the same one more than once, or do you see more?” “I see them the most, but there are sometimes I see more.” “Maybe they were your family?” Family, it felt both right and wrong calling them that. But it did give me a feeling of warmth. I looked back to Mother. I see her looking at the window. I look at it and see these two alicorns with the elements. I see Uncle Discord sitting on a weird-looking “chair” calling it a chair seems both right and wrong. I continue to stare at the window. I see both of the alicorns lighting up as the Elements starts to swirl around them, and then a rainbow beam fires at Discord. I look away for some reason, not wanting to see him getting hit. After the light settles, I look back at the window and see that discord has turned gray and still. I can’t seem to look away from this. What is this feeling that I am getting? Why do I feel this? I can’t describe what it was. I start to feel “hurt” as I see these “images” flashing in front of me. Why do I see this? These things, what are they? They are so confusing as it feels like I see two different things. The “pain” seems to increase as I lose myself.