//------------------------------// // Insight // Story: Altered Perspectives: Adapting to Change // by CapNTilfy //------------------------------// Indigo Zap's mind was racing. She just spent the last... well, she didn't know for how long, but she just spent the last who knows how long masturbating furiously to incredibly sexy pictures of the girl she had a date with. Great... as if tomorrow wasn't going to be awkward enough for her. Indigo made a sputtering noise, then whispered her name to nobody. A sudden pinging noise from her computer snapped her out of her thoughts. Fleur Dis Lis has accepted your friend request. Well, that didn't come as a surprise to Indigo. She sighed as she stared at the smile Fleur Dis Lis was sporting on one of her lewd pictures... how was she going to tell a pretty face like that that someone jilled off to her? Ugh, this was like some post-nut clarity shit. Indigo blinked. Was there even a female equivalent to that? Hell, who even came up with the term 'jacking off', and who decided it should be a part of the vernacular? For that matter, where'd the word 'vernacular' even come from? Indigo grunted in frustration. Again with the ADD-laced thoughts! She made a sputtering noise, then took her phone out. She needed to figure out a time and place for her date with Fleur Dis Lis! Indigo paused suddenly, then stared at her phone. What was she doing again? She sighed. This wasn’t the first time this had happened to her. She was in the middle of something, then completely forgot what she was going to do. A few moments later, Indigo’s eyes widened as a fog cleared in her mind. Now she remembered! She was going to call Fleur Dis Lis for a place for their date! Indigo took a deep breath, then exhaled. “Okay, Indigo,” she said to herself. “Stay cool. You can do this. If you can walk away after seeing the very fabric of reality get fucked up, you can definitely talk to the hottest girl at Crystal Prep… who likes you and thinks you’re hot…” She faltered, swallowing nervously. “Dammit.” This was ridiculous! Indigo had to get her shit together! “Okay,” she said as she clapped her hands together. “Time for a slightly different method!” This time she closed her eyes, then took a deep breath. She exhaled, and felt her nerves begin to calm. Another deep breath, and another exhale. Perfect. Indigo was completely calm now. That method always worked before she’d get a shot at the doctor’s office, so she knew that it wouldn’t fail her here! With her mind clear, she grabbed her phone and called Fleur Dis Lee. As she heard the dial tone, Indigo felt her nerves begin to act up again. With a soft grunt, she willed them back to calmness. This was no time to freak out! “Hey there,” Fleur Dis Lee purred. “Did you enjoy my pictures?” Indigo hesitated to answer. She didn’t want her to know what she did upon seeing said pictures. It was way too early to talk about something like that! “Yeah,” she finally said. “They were something else.” Fleur Dis Lee giggled. “That’s good to hear.” “I, uh… hope I don’t sound judgmental, but why did you take pictures of yourself with barely any clothes on?” “You didn’t sound judgmental, Indigo. That was, like, a totally valid question. You see, it’s like the pictures said; ‘I’m sexy and I know it’. I’m very proud of the body I have, and I like to feel attractive.” “But doesn’t that kind of work against you sometimes?” Fleur Dis Lee paused for a moment, then heaved a sigh. “Yeah… it totally does.” Her voice was small now, much to Indigo’s surprise. “Students at Crystal Prep seem to be under the impression that I’m… well… ‘easy’.” “Oh.” “Yeah.” Fleur Dis Lee sighed again. “Just because I have big breasts and a toned body that I like to show off. Guys give me these lecherous facial expressions as I pass them by. Girls glare at me, warning me to stay away from their significant others… and I don’t even want to think about how many times I’ve been asked for sexual acts. It just… it just drives me crazy that they only look at my body and nothing beyond it!” Her voice began to crack, and she sniffled. “I-I’m sorry, I just needed to vent…” Indigo had been stunned into silence. Several thoughts flew around in her head all at once, and not just because of her autism! “I… I-I don’t know how to respond to that. I wish there was something I could do for you.” Fleur Dis Lee took a shuddering breath. “You already did. You listened to me. Took me seriously. You have no idea how much that means to me, Indigo.” Indigo’s heart skipped a beat. “Glad I could help.” Fleur Dis Lee laughed softly. “I knew there was something special about you.” “Yeah,” Indigo said softly, then shook her head rapidly. “But the pictures aren’t why I called.” “Oh?” “We never figured out what movie we’d watch or where we’d end up eating.” There was a pause on the other end, followed by a muttered curse. “Sorry about that. I was so caught up in the moment that those details just slipped my mind!” Indigo snorted. “Believe me, I know what that feels like.” They shared a laugh, then mapped out the details of their date. Once everything was sorted out, Indigo and Fleur Dis Lee said their goodbyes and hung up. Indigo put her phone down on her bed, then went back to her computer. She logged back into MyStable, then returned to Fleur Dis Lis' page. She looked at the racy photos again, but didn't feel aroused. Instead, she felt lucky. Lucky that out of all the girls in Crystal Prep, Fleur Dis Lis wanted to date her. Indigo's heart felt happy as she sighed dreamily, resting her head in the palms of her hands. The day for her had just barely started, but tomorrow couldn't come soon enough.