The bell rang for the last time today, and Ms. Cheerilee said, ‘’Alright everypony, that was it for today, what you didn’t finish of your work, that’s your homework for tomorrow.‘’
I packed my saddlebag as Sweetie Belle asked, ‘’So Star, are you ready to go out and earn our Cutie Marks?‘’
‘’Sorry Sweetie Belle, I want to go home and practice magic,‘’ I said and hoped that she wouldn't be mad.
‘’Oh, okay, what about tomorrow?‘’
‘’Um… Maybe, I’ll have to ask Twilight.‘’ I answered and threw my saddlebag onto my back, smiled, and said, ‘’But I’m ready to go now.‘’
‘’Great.‘’ Sweetie Belle said, and together with the other ponies, we walked towards the door.
About halfway to the door, Ms. Cheerilee said, ‘’Star, will you wait a bit? I’ll like to have a word with you.‘’
‘’Yes, Ms. Cheerilee.‘’ I said and suspected that she only wanted to hear how my first day went, so I turned towards the girls and said, ‘’See you tomorrow girls.‘’
While the girls went out, they waved goodbye and said, ‘’Bye Star.‘’ Or, ‘’See you tomorrow.‘’
Soon after, Ms. Cheerilee and I were the only ones left in the classroom.
‘’Thank you, Star, and I won't hold you for long, but I wanted to ask you how your first day went.‘’
‘Nailed it,’ I thought before I said, ‘’Good I guess,‘’ But decided not to mention the thing between the girls and continued ‘’though the math was easy.‘’ I ended with a smile.
‘’You’re definitely a smart young filly, which reminds me,‘’ Ms. Cheerilee said as she placed two books on her desk and continued, ‘’Take these books with you and let me know if they’re too difficult.‘’
‘’I will, Ms. Cheerilee,‘’ I said before I placed the books into my saddlebag.
‘’Then I won’t hold you back anymore, see you tomorrow Star.‘’
As I walked out of the classroom, I waved and called, ‘’Bye, Ms. Cheerilee!‘’
‘’Bye, Star!‘’ Ms. Cheerilee called as I trotted towards the door.
When I trotted out of the door, I saw Twilight and Spike as they waited next to the white fence, but the moment I locked eyes with Twilight’s eyes, I remembered my accident this morning and immediately wanted to go back to the classroom, but decided against it, I just needed to clean my sheets.
As I was over at the two, Twilight asked, ‘’How did your first day go?‘’
‘’Good,‘’ I answered, but as my mind went back to the accident, and if this were just a dream, a night diaper wouldn’t be so bad. But if it wasn’t real, why did it felt like it was real.
‘’Star?‘’ Twilight asked, ‘’Are you okay?‘’
I looked up at Twilight, smiled before I said, ‘’Yeah, I’m fine, should we go home?‘’
‘’Of course,‘’ Twilight answered.
‘’You want me to take your saddlebag?‘’ Spike asked as we began to walk.
‘’You sure?‘’ I asked, unsure why he wanted to.
‘’I’m the number one assistant,‘’ He said proudly, ‘’besides, your saddlebag isn’t nearly as heavy as Twilight's used to be.‘’ He finished with a laugh.
‘’Um, okay, if you're sure,‘’ I said, and he took my saddlebag before he fiddled with it for a second, and he used it as a human backpack. It looked quite normal on him.
As we walked through Ponyville and all the ponies around us were busy with their own business, so nopony noticed or looked at me, like when I first arrived.
Twilight broke my thoughts as she asked, ‘’So Star, how was lunch?‘’
‘’Lunch?‘’ I asked but then remembered the delicious sandwich and said, ‘’I loved that sandwich, can I have one when we get home?‘’
‘’Hehe, of course, I’m glad you like it.‘’
‘’What was it even?‘’
‘’It’s called a Daisy Sandwich, as the flower is called Daisy.‘’
‘’It’s delicious,‘’ Before I remembered the note and asked, ‘’Twilight, what was that note?‘’
‘’I wanted to make sure you tried it before rejecting it.‘’
‘’No no, not that. The other thing that um,‘’ I tried to remember back to what the note said, ‘’Something BBFABC or something like that.‘’
‘’Oh that,‘’ Twilight giggled, ‘’it said BPBSF, which stands for Best Pony Big Sister Forever.‘’
‘’Oh.‘’ I slipped out as I never told Twilight that I already had a big sister or two brothers back in my world.
Twilight then whispered, ‘’I added the pony part as I didn’t know if you have any siblings back, you know where.‘’
‘’Oh, okay.‘’ I mean, I cared for my older sister like my two older brothers, but the pony part wasn’t that bad, ‘’Sounds nice, BBSF.‘’
‘’Huh, BBSF?‘’
‘’Best big sister forever,‘’ I said with a smile.
As Twilight smiles back at me, the library was insight. By the look on Twilight’s face, she remembered something and said, ‘’Almost forgot, I was at the hospital earlier today and got you a time tomorrow after your second recess, so you’ll have to miss the last class.‘’
I couldn’t hide my smile as I tried using a disappointed voice, ‘’Whaaaat? Really? That’s too bad, but I think I’ll be fine.‘’
Twilight only rolled her eyes and smiled.
As we came home, I needed to keep Twilight out of my room, Spike was easy as he stayed downstairs, but Twilight went upstairs like me.
As I was about to open my door, Twilight said, ‘’Don’t worry about Flurry, she’s drying right now.‘’
My thoughts stopped, any plans I might have had were destroyed; I slowly turned around and saw Twilight as she sat down. To my surprise, she didn’t look angry, not even disappointed; I couldn’t tell, nor did I know if I should talk or stay silent.
‘’I,‘’ I forced myself to say, ‘’I had an accident last night.‘’ I finished, it felt better to say, but I still dropped my head.
‘’I know, and I think I know why you didn’t tell me.‘’ Twilight said, and I looked up at her in confusion as she continued, ‘’I haven’t been treating you like the adult you are, not even like a filly, more like a foal, and I’m sorry.‘’ As Twilight paused, her head faced the ground, and I knew I needed to wait until she was done before I said anything, ‘’I’m not sure how to explain it,‘’ She looked me in the eyes, ‘’but when I look at you, and if I’m not thinking about it, I can’t see you as anything other than a filly.‘’
‘’You, you can’t?‘’
‘’No, according to Princess Celestia this could be a part of the spell as well, that other ponies will have difficulty seeing you as other than a filly.‘’
‘’I, um.‘’ I said, unable to understand what Twilight just said, ‘’What do we do?‘’
‘’I don’t know.‘’ Twilight said before she continued, ‘’But the best thing we could do would be that you tell me when I treat you like a filly. That way, I would know and then stop.‘’
Silence only came from me as I thought, ‘Should I say that I like being a filly? I mean, could I even say it, would Twilight even want to treat me like a filly? It would only be until I could go home?’
‘’Twilight?‘’ I asked; she looked at me, and I continued, ‘’Did you like, to treat me as a filly?‘’
By the look on her face, the question surprised her, ‘’Hmm…‘’
‘’Please, just yes or no,‘’ I said before she could say anything else.
She was silent for a few seconds, she then looked at me and said, ‘’Yes, why do you ask?‘’
‘’Well,‘’ I started, but as I opened my mouth to tell her, no words came out; I tried again but nothing, ‘What’s happening to me,’ but then everything erupted from me, and I yelled, ‘’I love being a filly!‘’ Before I covered my mouth with my hooves.
Twilight’s face said it all, shock, confusion, but settled on calm as she asked, ‘’You like being a filly?‘’ Her voice was not that of mockery or disgust, but more curiosity.
I nodded as my hooves still covered my mouth.
‘’Since when?‘’
I removed my hooves and played with my mane instead, it just felt right as my heart pounded like crazy, but as I played with my mane, I calmed myself down, ‘Maybe because it’s distracting me a bit.‘ I swallowed as I still hadn’t answered Twilight’s question and whispered, ‘’Since I was young, I wished I had been born a girl.‘’ I paused and thought about my conversation with Princess Celestia and why I became a filly, ‘’Princess Celestia believed that the spell knew what I wanted to be and so gave it to me.‘’
‘’Possible, does Princess Celestia knows about you liking to be a filly?‘’
‘’I told her that I wished I was born a girl, but only today, I realized that I liked being a pony girl. I mean, when I would go home, no time would have passed, and whatever that would have happened until then wouldn’t happen, right?‘’ I asked, hoping she would agree, ‘It is the truth after all.’
‘’Wait, did the princess tell you that?‘’
‘’No,‘’ I answered and said sternly, ‘’But it’s true.‘’
Soon I found myself in an embrace as Twilight rubbed my back and felt as tears fell down my chin, while she said with a mother’s voice, ‘’Then it is true.‘’
Some time passed before Twilight sat me back down and asked, ‘’Better?‘’
‘’Uh-huh, thanks.‘’ I said as I smiled before I asked, ‘’What now?‘’
‘’Will you promise me that, if I treat you too much like a filly, then you’ll tell me?‘’
‘’I promise.‘’ As I lowered my head, I said, ‘Why would she ever care for me like a filly? I wasn’t a filly, I’m just being w-’
‘’Then you’re my little filly sister,‘’ Twilight said and broke all my thoughts.
‘’Wha, what?‘’ I asked, but thought, ‘Wait, what?’
‘’It’s the best option as the other one was using magic, and it would be more dangerous.‘’
‘’You sure?‘’
‘’I am.‘’ Twilight said with a smile as I jumped on top of her and hugged her chest and cried tears of joy into her fur, ‘’I love you, little sis.‘’
‘’I love you too, big sis,‘’ I said.
A little time later, Twilight asked, ‘’We still need to talk about that another thing.‘’
I was placed down on the floor as I asked, ‘’What’s that?‘’
‘’Your accident last night.‘’
‘’Oh, that.‘’ I said as my head became warm, and I hid my face of embarrassment, ‘She knows, but she doesn't need to say it out loud.’
‘’Yes, what do you what to do?‘’
Surprised, I brushed my mane aside and asked, ‘’Me?‘’
‘’Yes, I mean I did take the opportunity to buy some protection for you while you were in school.‘’
‘’Then what do you asked me what I want to do?‘’ I asked, now very confused as she had already bought the protection.
‘’I won’t force you.‘’ Twilight said, ‘’It would need to be your decision, and you can choose not to wear them.‘’
‘’I,‘’ I said, surprised by what she said, it was my decision, but I didn’t want to wake up again like that, but what Twilight had bought was better, not that I like it, but I guessed it was the best option, as long as nopony else saw me, ‘’Will anypony else see me or know about it?‘’
‘’I won’t tell anypony, nor will Spike,‘’ Twilight answered.
I felt I could believe her, ‘I mean, she did hide my real identity and Flurry after the cute creatures attacked and the other ponies were close to finding out.’ I sighed and said, ‘’Okay, it’s better than the alternative, but for how long?‘’
‘’Hmm…‘’ Twilight let out as she thought.
After a few seconds, she said, ‘’A-ha, when Shining, Spike, or I wet the bed, we would need five mornings dry in a row before they came off completely.‘’
‘’Okay,‘’ I said as I felt a chill run through my body.
From Twilight’s bed, a big white packed levitated down to us, and it was clear as it was from its name, ‘Dry night diapers’ as Twilight said, ‘’Let’s go to your room, just to make sure they fit.‘’
I nodded and already regretted my choice, but it was properly just a bit of butterflies in my stomach.
Inside my room, and as Twilight closed the door, the curtains covered the windows and the door to my balcony, ‘’Just lay down on the bed and don’t worry, Spike changed your sheets.‘’
I nodded before I jumped up, laid down, and covered my face with my pillow, as I wished to be anywhere else.
My rear legs were lifted and placed down, but after a few groans from Twilight, I removed the pillow and saw Twilight with a book in her face, so she didn’t pay attention to me and several different things levitated in the air as Twilight mumbled.
‘’A-ha.‘’ Twilight let out, and a second later, I couldn’t press my rear legs together, and Twilight noticed me as she said, ‘’Done,‘’ Lifted me down to the floor, and said, ‘’try to walk a bit.‘’
‘’Okay,‘’ I said before I walked, and it was possible, but not enjoyable.
‘’Perfect, now come, and I’ll take it off.‘’ Again I did as she said, and soon it was off before Twilight asked, ‘’How was it? Too thick? Too loose? Anything?‘’
‘’It was fine, if not a little too annoying to walk with.‘’
‘’Hmm, let see tomorrow if it holds, and then we could maybe go thinner, okay?‘’ Twilight asked.
I nodded and asked, ‘’Can I use magic now? I hate writing with my mouth.‘’
‘’Hehe, of course, Star, you want some help?‘’ Twilight asked; I nodded, and we both made it to the living room and lay down.
After Twilight gave me a crayon and asked me to levitate it, I closed my eyes, but Twilight said, ‘’No Star, with open eyes.‘’
I nodded, ‘’Okay.‘’ I narrowed my eyes on the crayon, and I tried to make my aura appear, but nothing happened, ‘’What? Twilight, why isn’t it working?‘’
‘’It takes practice; when you have your eyes closed, you only see your aura, but with eyes open, there will be more distractions.‘’
‘’Is that why only a loud noise could get me out of the hypnosis?‘’
‘’Exactly.‘’ Twilight said, ‘’But if it’s easier for you to close your eyes in the beginning, then it's okay, just try to open your eyes.‘’
I nodded and closed my eyes, felt as the magic swirled around my horn, not strong, but consistent, ‘’Very good Star,‘’ Twilight said, ‘’try and take the crayon.‘’
Again I nodded, and through the darkness of my closed eyes, I saw two sets of swirled, the lowest was browner, which I suspected to be the floor, while the one above was of pink swirls, which I presumed to be the pink crayon and I was right, as Twilight said ‘’Perfect, now try and lift it.‘’
However, this time, I didn’t nod, as I instead held my focus on the crayon, and as the brown swirls became weaker, Twilight encouraged me to lift it higher, and I did.
It wasn’t long until Twilight said, ‘’Perfect, how does it feel?‘’
As I felt comfortable with my focus, I said, ‘’Bit difficult, but okay, not too heavy.‘’
‘’Good, remember to open your eyes slowly and only focus on your crayon. It does get more difficult to focus, okay?‘’
‘’Okay,‘’ I answered in a rush.
I took a deep breath and braced myself for the weight, as I remembered when I first lifted the quill with my open eyes.
Slowly I opened my eyes, and as a light came through my eyelids, it was pink, and already my focus dwindled. Quickly I recovered and regained my focus solely on the crayon.
As I heard Twilight’s voice, it was muffled, as my focus was elsewhere, I tried again and opened my eyes. I only saw the crayon, and the weight increased. Even as everything in the background was out of focus, I struggled as the crayon gained more and more weight by the second.
My neck began lifting, as well as my magic, but it proved futile as the crayon slowly dropped to the, still in my magic, but soon it lay on the floor and my head and eyes looked straight at it.
I looked, as the crayon lay on the floor, engulfed in my pink aura, I tried, again and again, to push my head up, but to no avail, it lay still on the floor.
‘I can’t lift it,’ I decided in the end, but could I move it as it lay on the floor.
I focused my eyes on the crayon and rolled the crayon a few centimeters before it was too much, and I lost my aura into the air.
I fell, not gasping for air, but it felt like I had run a marathon, my neck was stressed, as well as my front hooves, and my eyes burned as I forgot to blink.
As I lay and recovered from my practice, I felt a hoof, as it stroked my mane, I looked up and saw Twilight as she smiled softly at me.
By the smile alone, I could tell she was proud of me or just thought I looked cute; I was happy with either.
Shortly after Twilight had stopped stroking my mane, she asked how I felt and how it went. I told her what happened.
Afterward, I reminded myself of the forgotten memories I had discovered and said, ‘’Umm… Twilight?‘’
‘’Yes? Is something wrong?‘’ She asked, concern filled her voice.
‘’Back in class, I thought back on my world, and discovered that there is a big piece of my memory that’s gone.‘’
The look on Twilight's face said it all, as she freaked out, ‘’What! Do you know what memories, what type, anything? Actually, while you think about it, I’ll get parchment and quill.‘’
I didn’t even have time to react before Twilight zoomed off, ‘How can I tell Twilight how I thought about the lost memory, without bringing up what it connects to?’ It was indeed a subject I didn’t want to bring up. It was in the past anyway.
As quickly as Twilight left, she came back, but before I could react again, this time she pulled me into an embrace and held me, as she hushed me, and whispered ‘’Hey, it’s okay Star, big sis is here.‘’
Only then I realized that I had cried. I guessed it happened so often that I just got used to it.
As Twilight held me, I didn’t want to tell her that I was fine, so instead, I stayed in her embrace and snuggled further into her fur.
It wasn’t long before Twilight didn’t place me back to the ground but said, ‘’Did you think about your lost memory?‘’
‘’Umm…‘’ I said as I still didn’t know what to say, so I improvised, ‘’Well, I haven’t thought about it since I arrived in Equestria, and I know I loved it, but I don’t remember where I got it or what it even is related to. Sorry.‘’
‘’Hey, it’s okay, sh shh, don’t apologize. But do you say that you could have lost the memory before the spell, on the day you came here?‘’
‘’Yes. Maybe? I don’t know.‘’ I answered and snuggled deeper into Twilight’s soft fur, which made her give a few giggles.
‘’Alright, done. I’ll get Spike to send it to Princess Celestia, hopefully, we’ll get a response before your bedtime.‘’
‘’Hopefully,‘’ I answered, but as Twilight said bedtime, I remembered my thoughts about a footed pajamas and said, ‘’So I also thought of a small thing I would like to buy.‘’
‘’Oh, what’s that?‘’ Twilight asked as she pulled her head back and tilted it as she gave a smile.
‘’If I could buy a pajamas that covered all my hooves, I’ll pay for it myself, of course,‘’ I said, rather hastily. It was just so easy to say things fast, it just gave me no time to stop myself.
Twilight thought for a moment over what I just said and responded, ‘’Umm… Is it the spell that’s talking, or is it you Star?‘’
‘’It’s me, Star. I know it sounds weird, but I don’t remember ever having owned one before, and since I’m a child again, why not. And don’t worry, I can pay for it myself.‘’ I said, even though I could pay right now, then I would just have something to save up for.
‘’And you're sure?‘’ Twilight asked as she sat me down on the floor.
‘’I’m sure, do you know what they cost?‘’
‘’I don’t, but after the visit to the hospital tomorrow, we can go looking for it. And don’t worry, since I suggested the diapers, then I’ll give you something that can hide them.‘’ Twilight answered to my surprise, and her smile told me she spoke the truth.
‘’Thanks, BBSF,‘’ I said, and as I hugged Twilight, she hugged me back.
Until dinner, I tried over and over again to engulf my pink crayon with my aura.
About thirty minutes before dinner, Spike came home, as after Twilight and I went upstairs, he went to Carousel Boutique and helped Rarity or something like that, but as Spike came upstairs, he sent the letter.
Shortly before bedtime, I was able to engulf it in magic, and I cheered and gave Spike and Twilight a shock as they both screamed.
After I explained what I did, both congratulate me, but after a loud yawn from both Spike and I, Twilight announced that it was bedtime.
We all went to where Twilight brushed my teeth before we went to my bedroom.
As I lay on my bed and zoned out, Spike ran into my room, and as Twilight was done, she sat me onto my bed, but now in a diaper.
Spike didn’t even react to me being in a diaper, only gave me Flurry and gave Twilight a letter from Princess Celestia, and Twilight read to herself.
After Twilight had read the letter, she said, ‘’According to Princess Celestia, if you had lost the memories the day you came, there would be nothing we can do. However, if it was because of the spell, we need to act, sooner rather than later. Do you have other memories that are becoming unclear, unfocused or in any other way leaving you?‘’
I thought back on my life, and as it was impossible to remember if I had lost another memory, I thought of a few odd memories, like an aquarium with turtles, which I believed was my earliest memory, maybe at the age of five. Then one of the final nights before my parent divorced and my older brother and I heard them arguing. I only remembered it as it was the only time I was the older brother, it was weird however, I believed I was about ten or eleven at the time, and now I’m ten, ‘Just a coincidence.’
The last few memories I thought of were just my primary school up to grade eight, and of course, grade nine and ten, the best years of my life.
In the end, I believed I still had all my memories, but how I could yet have tears left, would always be a mystery to me.
I told Twilight, and after she tucked me in, I took Flurry’s ear in my mouth and mumbled ‘’Night big sis.‘’ Before I slowly fell asleep.