September 28th
Things have gone pretty smoothly in the last few weeks. We got the power going of course we kept it off because to save on fuel. Till we find more we will keep it on but for now, it’s not wise to have it on. Savannah has been taking charge and trying her best to keep the others working. George and Wanda have been going around Battle Creek and to Kalamazoo too. Ted did what he could to make mixings and potions or what he called them.
It hasn’t been easy for us at all. There have been many things that fall apart at the seams. Many of us feel we are the only ones left alive out there or that have returned. I do wonder how the returning works. If it’s something to do with the body or the mind or the soul. I doubt I will ever know. Lyra has been silent on this even though she has been asked many times. Savannah has been trying her best to trust the mare from the outside.
At this very moment of course I was being lazy. Well, I am a dragon now I guess it’s normal to be very lazy. I lay in my horde and not allowing anything to ruin this wonderful day. It stayed that way till I heard our bat DJ call me.
“Malla come quick we have made contact with others.”
Others? Others are out there? I quickly got up from my bed most started to call it and waddled down the store to get to our bat DJ. But all I could think of while doing this is anyone was watching me. I felt like a fish out of water waddling through the store. Finally after a moment of being a duck dragon. I finally made it to the stairs panting softly groaning.
“I am sorry it took so long to get our leader here. She is on our way up the stairs.” I finally make it to the DJs booth.
“Sorry Jenny..” I smiled weakly and the bat just rolled her eyes offering the headphones to me and I placed them on my head.
“Hello, this is Dragons rest.”
It was silent for a moment I didn’t hear anything for a few seconds then another voice finally came over.
“Hello Dragons Rest Id rather not tell you who we are but. This is something you need to know.” An hour or so later I told the others what I was told and I didn’t believe it. It sounded way too farfetched to me. We all laughed and when Lyra finally came up to see us all.
“What’s going on?”
I shifted on my claws a bit looking at Lyra. “We got a call from another group. They told us a farfetched story of what happened to us.” I explained what had been told to us by this other group. All the color in Lyras fur vanished she looks down no longer staring at me in the eyes.
“Um… Malla it’s true.” The others stare at Lyra. I feel anger rising in my core. I took a deep breath and smoke came out with the exhale. I pull Lyra pointing downstairs to her and I turn back to the others. Wanda is not taking well. She is holding onto George and sobbing. The others are handling it better than her. It’s a shock that this happened. But now we know the truth.
Heading downstairs and Lyra tried to hide from me and all I did was stare at her. I took a deep breath again and sat in front of her and smiled.
“Lyra why didn’t you tell us the truth?”
“I..” She shook a bit in fear. I have a feeling that she is scared. Thinking that I would harm her for this. I place my claw on her shoulder. I stay fully relaxed even though I do want to lose my temper.
“I didn’t say anything to protect you. I felt if I did tell you. That you would hate me for keeping the truth from you.”
I would have done this before I met the others though. I no longer feel alone and lost. I feel I can go on and be strong with them. I shift on my claws again feeling the guilt fill my heart after how I treated her on the way here. Wrapping my claws tightly around Lyra hugging her tightly.
“My little friend I know you won’t be able to stay with us much longer. I am happy that you were here. If you weren’t here we would have gone on believing that those others that told us this would be crazy. So even though we may never hear from them again. If we do it will be an amazing feat. But for now, it’s best to rebuild what we can here.”
“I wanted to tell you back then.” She shifted on her hooves. “But your temper always made me feel that you wanted to harm me.”
That hit me hard she is right. I had a poor temper on the way here. I still have that poor temper. Looking at the scars of the healed claw marks I placed in Lyra. I knew that would make me remember how I treated her.
“I understand I deserve that Lyra. I wasn’t very kind to you I didn’t treat you that well at all. So yes I do deserve the fact that. I did hurt you and yes I didn’t yell at you and my temper wasn’t very well controlled. But now I understand this fact. I wish I could go back and tell you that you’re a good friend.”
Looking away I didn’t wish her to go but she has to get back home. I am thinking maybe soon we will have an early Christmas.
“I will make sure your last few days here Lyra are happy ones. So you can remember me.”
Lyra softly laughs.
“It will be hard to forget. Very hard to forget you.”
I had a lot to think about. I needed to relax my head and think about what we learned. I gave Lyra a nod and walked back to my hoard. I wanted to accuse someone of causing this problem. But I can’t use that excuse of going after someone the one that caused all this and caused us to change like this.
But I can’t do that I need to fully accept this. I don’t know why I can’t have an issue accepting things such as this. It could be because I am a dragon and they have harder times accepting things maybe?
“Malla?”
I turned to look towards Wanda her eyes pure red from crying. She took it much harder than I did. My anger melted away seeing the mare needing someone to talk to and I guess George is not around at this moment.
“Wanda is everything alright?”
She shook her head and she pushed her head in my chest and I heard deep sobs as I stroked the back of the pegasus. I felt bad for her I have never been a parent. I doubt I will ever be one now. Maybe someday but I am now understanding.
“Let it all out, Wanda.”
I lay down holding Wanda beside me as I let her blubber and cry. I knew that someone would take this hard. I thought it would be me. But the fact that Wanda is the one of us that did have a family.
“I wish I could tell you things will be alright Wanda. I do wish I could tell you that you may see them again. But they might return when the world is finally back to normal. Well as normal as it can be. “
“Do you mean we got lucky?”
I stare at Wanda after that question.
“Lucky? The fact that this happened at all I wouldn’t call it luck. Our lives got messed up because the universe or God had a bad sense of humor and wanted us to learn a lesson. I remember a line from an old show I watched. Babylon five” I think awhile on what the saying was. I remember the saying now.
“You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we deserve them? So, now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe."
Wanda just shook her head at my words. Things are never going to be normal for us again. It’s like I said the universe wanting to teach us a lesson. Maybe we deserve to be treated this way maybe not. But I have a bad feeling about the time ahead. I can no longer focus on the past. I got a community to lead even if I don’t feel like I have a right to lead.
“Listen, Wanda. Go work with the others to keep your mind off all this. Besides we need to find as much fuel as we can for the winter. All I can think of doing is nothing right now.” I walk back to my hoard feeling what we have been told rattle in my brain. All this happen because of either fate or no I can’t focus on it.
Laying on my hoard I closed my eyes to rest allowing this day to pass me by.