//------------------------------// // Chapter 8 // Story: Inner Demons // by Azure Sandora //------------------------------// Chapter 8: I Wanna Make You Love Me... "Concentrate... Concentrate..." Rarity said to herself as she let magic flow from her horn. Eventually she let the magic burst out and flow into the statue in front of her. She opened her eyes hoping for a change, even slight. But her heart sank as she saw no change in what was once Princess Celestia. She sighed and sat down, rubbing her eyes in frustration, "That was the tenth dud..." she said to herself. Soon after they chained Twilight in the library basement, Rarity and Spike relocated to Canterlot so they could work on trying to release Princess Celestia. She knew it was going to be hard, but more and more she was beginning to feel like there wasn't anything she could do. This was Twilight's specialty. Sure, Rarity was a unicorn, but the strongest spell she ever cast was a gem locator spell. But she was the only other unicorn Twilight knew and trusted. Deep down she was honored that Twilight chose her for this, when she could have simply given the books to an official unicorn in Canterlot. Twilight trusted her, and she wasn't going to betray that trust. "No luck, huh?" Spike asked walking to her. "What did Twilight do to her?" Rarity asked, "I know this is the Princess, but I barely feel any life." "You don't think she's actually..." Spike began, but Rarity shook her head. "No, I don't," she said softly, "I refuse to believe that Princess Celestia is dead, and I don't want you to think that either." Spike looked down and sighed, so Rarity nuzzled him affectionately, "Cheer up, Spikey Wikey," she said sweetly, making Spike giggle, "There, that wasn't so hard, right?" "Rarity," Spike began, looking up at her, "How do you do that?" "Hm? Do what?" Rarity asked. "Remain so confident? Twilight admitted that she was behind this, and so far nothing we've done has been able to save the Princess. How are you able to remain so optimistic?" "Huh, I never really thought of that," Rarity said thoughtfully, "Truth is, there are a lot of times where I want to cry, but I don't." "W-why not?" Spike asked now looking worried. That made Rarity smile a bit, thinking about how much he really cared. "I guess that's because crying won't fix anything. Besides, right now Equestria is counting on us," Rarity stood up and stretched a bit, "I'm going to go for a walk before we try again. Think you could prepare the next set of spells?" "Sure thing," Spike said nodding. Rarity smiled and walked out of the Princess' study. Once outside of the castle, she stopped and looked down. Spike was trying hard to stay strong too. He was so young (in dragon years at least) yet the second he heard that she was in pain too, he instantly thought of her. Had he been older, he might actually be the perfect boyfriend. Hell, even now maybe. But she wouldn't tell him that... yet. It had been a week since they restrained Twilight, and it seemed like everyone involved was feeling the weight of it. Applejack spent the most time at the library watching Twilight, who according to Applejack had become very quiet and withdrawn. Rainbow Dash stayed away from everypony except for Pinkie Pie, who seemed to have lost a bit of the pep in her step. With Spike and Rarity staying in Canterlot, poor Fluttershy was quite alone. She was used to being alone, but without her Saturday spa day with Rarity, the days seemed to wear on. She tried to go by herself once, but it just wasn't the same without her best friend there. These days Fluttershy spent most of her time at Sweet Apple Acres, watching Big Macintosh work. Being a pegasus she could sit on clouds to watch him out of his line of sight. He worked so hard. Being the largest in the family, it was his job to plow the fields. Everyday he was outside pulling that large plow, and everyday Fluttershy was outside on this cloud watching him. It had become the highlight of her day. Macintosh stopped and rested a bit. This was her chance, Fluttershy thought. All she had to do was go over to him and tell him how she felt. She jumped off the cloud and lightly landed a bit behind him. As she approached Macintosh, her heart began to race. It was becoming too much for her. Oh, how badly she wanted him to wrap those powerful forlegs around her and kiss her. And not one of those sweet pecks on the lips. No, she was talking about full blown KISSING. She breathed in, and sighed. He smelled so nice, even after working so hard. She was trembling now. She couldn't take it. Screw telling him how she felt. She was going to throw herself on him, and let him take her right there. She didn't care who saw them! Truth was, she WANTED someone to see them! Yes, yes, YES! Here it was, her moment. Her chance. Good-bye good filly Fluttershy, and hello- "Oh, hey Fluttershy," Big Macintosh said turning to her suddenly, "Fancy runnin into you here." Aaaannnnnnd just like that, it was gone, and the passionate beast from earlier clammed up INSTANTLY. "H-h-hi, M-Macintosh..." Fluttershy whispered, despite how loud she was screaming on the inside. "Were ya lookin fer Applejack?" he asked, "Ah reckon she's at the library." "Um... well..." she was at a loss for words. What could she say? No, I wasn't looking for Applejack. In fact, I was stalking you from the clouds like I do every morning fantasizing about all the wonderful yet naughty things I want you to do to me. Yeah, she could totally tell him that. Maybe then he wouldn't run away too far from Ponyville. "I, uh..." she tried again, "just... got... here..." she then nodded brightly once she came up with an excuse, "Yeah, that's right. I was just passing by, and I saw you," she crouched down backing away from him, "But, you look really busy, so I'll just talk to you later." "Um, hang on a sec," Macintosh called out right when Fluttershy jumped up to fly away. "YES?" she said suddenly turning to him with what she thought was the dumbest smile EVER. "Uh, Ah went ta the Library the other day, but the sign said it was closed, and lately Applejack has been spendin a lot of her time there. Thing is, Ah reckon there's somthin she ain't tellin me. Do ya know what's goin on?" Uh oh, Applejack didn't tell Big Macintosh about Twilight? Should she? "Um, do you really want to know?" Fluttershy asked. "Eeeyup," Macintosh said with a nod. Oh boy, this was a doozy. Was this supposed to be a secret? They never said anything about it, but was it okay for her to tell Macintosh about what happened to Twilight? He would freak out if he found out that Twilight was locked up in the basement, and that SHE helped. "Well, Twilight's going through something right now, and she's away for a bit," Fluttershy stated, "Um, we're watching the library for her while she's... away..." "Why didn't Applejack just say that?" Macintosh asked, clearly irritated. "W-well, we're not trying to spread it around. Twilight is really private, so we don't want to spread her business around." "Ah see, okay then," Macintosh said with a nod, "Ah'll keep it a secret." "Thanks," Fluttershy said smiling. She and Macintosh stood there for a long while, not saying anything. Celestia, why did this stallion do this to her? He was so big, and strong, and so wise. He wanted to go to the library, for Pete's sake. He was everything she was looking for in a stallion, and more. A LOT more. "Um, Fluttershy, you're gettin awfully close ta mah face," Macintosh said, snapping her out of her daze. "Um, uh," Fluttershy stammered, "I was just..." once again, lost for words. What could she say to him? I was just getting lost in your big blue eyes imagining what a wonderful kisser you probably were. Yeah, that would go over well. "I've gotta go!" Fluttershy cried out. "Ya sure ya alright?" Big Macintosh asked her. "Oh, yes, but I uh..." she then turned to the side suddenly, "What's that Angel?" she called out, "You're hungry? Mommy's coming right now! Sorry Mac, but duty calls," she said to a bewildered Macintosh before flying straight up and away. Did he call after her? She didn't know nor listen. She just needed to get away. He always drove her mad like that. She was perfectly sane when she wasn't with him. It wasn't until she was with him that she began to have those violent fantasies about them together. She was a good filly, right? So why did she want him so bad? When she did get home, she fell down onto her couch and buried her face in a pillow. Angel hopped over to her and patted her on the back silently asking her what was wrong. "I tried to tell him," Fluttershy said to Angel, "I was so close, I almost told him how I felt," Angel turned his head asking what happened, "But I lost it, right when I was about to open my mouth! I'm such a COWARD!" she began crying in the pillow now. Angel continued to pat her on the back trying to comfort her. It was sweet that he cared so much for her (especially when most of the time he was a brat) but right now there wasn't anything he could do for her. Normally the embrace of her animal friends was just what she needed. But when she longed for the embrace of a certain stallion... Fluttershy found herself in a foggy environment. Wasn't she in her bed a few minutes ago. When did she... "Hello?" she called out, "Is anyone there?" She heard something in the distance. It sounded like a mare moaning. Was she okay? Who was it? Fluttershy ran forward, hoping to find whoever it was. She heard the moan again, but this time she heard it better. It was a moan of pleasure. Fluttershy was wide eyed, and she felt flushed. Was there someone having... doing... that... nearby? Maybe she shouldn't go forward. Don't you want to see? I think you do... Huh? Was that a voice... Fluttershy shook her head and decided to ignore whoever it was, but she stopped after what she heard next. Oh... Macintosh... Fluttershy immediately turned around when she heard that. Somepony was screwing HER stallion? Instantly she felt a rage unlike anything she felt before. That's right... This very second, somepony is having their way with Big Macintosh... You aren't going to let them get away with that... Are you? She was on the brink of exploding. She immediately galloped forward. When she found that bitch who was taking her stallion... She saw something in the distance. Two ponies on a bed... and it looked like they were... One of them was Macintosh, definitely. But the mare she couldn't recognize. Was it a pegasus? Was it... Rainbow Dash? No, Big Macintosh wasn't her type. Besides, Dash knew how she felt about him. So who in their right mind... Yes... Oh yes... But she did know that voice. Who was it? This is what's going to happen if you don't take what you want... Somepony will steal him from you... Just like this... Fluttershy decided to approach them. She needed to catch them in the act. She needed to stop this before... Wait... maybe this was best... I mean, what if Macintosh was happy? Then she shouldn't intrude... How much longer are you going to keep running away? You know he's supposed to be with you, right? That's right, Fluttershy began to think. He was hers, he just didn't know it yet. There was only one mare he was supposed to do that with, and that was HER. Fluttershy trotted over to the bed, grabbed the covers with her mouth, and pulled them free, hoping to see who it was, and got the shock of a lifetime. It was her... Fluttershy backed away in shock. It was definitely her, but something was off. The look in her eyes, and the things they were doing. That wasn't her! "No, but it's how you want to be," a familiar voice said to her. Fluttershy looked around and saw the last pony she thought she'd see here. She saw Twilight! "T-Twilight?" Fluttershy asked, "Why are you... how are you..." "You've wanted him the moment you saw him. I mean, who can blame you," Twilight stood next to Fluttershy and looked at the scene play out with a sort of lustful expression in her eyes, "He is the most handsome stallion in Ponyville. I hear he has a whole list of mares after his heart, among... other... things..." "I'm... sure..." Fluttershy said, secretly loathing everypony she mentally saw eying him. "But you're different," Twilight said turning to Fluttershy, "All they want is his fine, fine, body," Twilight said looking at him again, "But you, you want his heart, his soul, you want him to love you, right?" "Love... me..." "You want him to hold you." "Hold... me..." "To kiss you." "Kiss... me..." "And make sweet love to you, right?" It was too much for her to handle. Fluttershy wanted to cry out she wanted him so badly. They were perfect together. She knew it, she just wanted to him to know it too. "It hurts, doesn't it?" Twilight asked, "You want him so much right now it hurts."
 "Yes! YES!" Fluttershy cried out, now falling to the ground and crying, "I love him so much! I need him to be mine!" "Then why don't you take him?" Twilight asked, shocking Fluttershy a bit. "Take him?" "You were going to throw yourself at him, right? Then why don't you? He belongs to you, right?" Fluttershy nodded, "Then all you have to do is get him to realize that." "I... can't!" Fluttershy cried. "Why not?!" Twilight asked intensely, "You love him, they don't! They don't deserve him! Don't be ashamed of what you're feeling! Embrace it! He's still up, you know?" "He... is?" "In the barn, right now. If you hurry, you can still catch him." How did she know this? Was she stalking Macintosh too? Fluttershy didn't care. Right now she only had one thing in mind. If he didn't love her before tonight, he would after this. She's make him love her if she had too... "Go! Get your stallion!" Twilight urged, "I'm rooting for you, Fluttershy." The second she said that, Fluttershy instantly opened her eyes. She looked at the clock by her bed. Eleven, huh? She did go to bed early, and this wasn't too late for the Apple Family. Was she really about to do this? She thought about the number of horny mares after his body, and her rage built up to a boiling point. Soon, words of wisdom came to her. Something she heard last year, and although she didn't think his advice was good, this moment, one of Iron Will's mantras returned to her... "You cut in line... I'll take what's mine!" she said getting up and running out of her house. She wasn't paying too much attention, but as she ran, she could have sworn she heard something. Something that sounded a lot like laughter... Sure enough, when Fluttershy arrived back at Sweet Apple Acres, she saw the barn door open, and a light inside. She slowly approached the barn, and took a peek inside. There he was. The yolk usually on his neck was off, so Fluttershy saw his body even better than she usually would. Her heart began to race again, but this time she knew what she was going to do. Here in the barn was perfect. Sure she wouldn't have lost her virginity here but she would have her first truly magical experience here, in the barn, with her special stallion. When Big Macintosh turned around, he did a double take. Was he that surprised to see her? If so he was going to be really shocked by was came next. "Fluttershy? What are you doing here?" Macintosh asked her. "I would have thought that much was obvious," Fluttershy said, silently shocking herself with how sure of herself she sounded. Yep, this was totally happening. "Ah'm... not sure Ah follow," Big Macintosh said walking over to her, "Not that Ah'm not happy ta see you, it's just really late and-" "Perfect for the surprise I have for you," Fluttershy finished for him. "Um, surprise?" Macintosh asked. "Mm hm," Fluttershy nodded sauntering over to him, "Something I've literally been dying to give you." "R-really?" Macintosh asked, apparently beginning to understand what she was talking about. "That's right," she then ran over to him, jumped up and landed right on top of him knocking him to the ground, "It's me." "Y-Y-YOU?!" Macintosh asked, his face suddenly turning a darker shade of red than usual. "Take me!" Fluttershy begged, her breathing picking up, "Make me yours!" "Huh?!" he looked somewhat scared now, but that was just the shock of what she just said. "I want you Macintosh, I need you!" she got closer to him so she was practically lying down on top of him, "Please Macintosh, take me right here in the barn!" "Fluttershy-" "LOVE ME!" she begged, then pressing their lips together. She was doing it. They were kissing. He was... resisting? He was struggling? Macintosh pushed them apart and looked at her absolutely shocked, "Fluttershy! What's gotten into you?!" he asked. That was when she realized what she was doing. What happened to her four years ago... she was now doing to him. She was forcing herself onto him... She was... raping him... Fluttershy backed away from him, shaking her head as thoughts of that day returned to her, and she realized what she was becoming. "I... it wasn't..." she stammered, unable to think straight, "I was..." Macintosh got up and slowly trotted over to her, "Fluttershy, Ah'm sorry. Ah didn't mean-" "DON'T!" she screamed making Macintosh back away a bit, "Don't touch me!" "F-Fluttershy..." Macintosh said softly. "I'm sorry!" she said, now unable to hold in the tears, "I'm so sorry!" She then flew away out of the barn. She knew that if she went back to her house, Macintosh would follow her, so instead she flew up to a cloud, where she could be alone with her tears. So she wouldn't have to face her past again. And the one moment in her past she never told ANYONE about... Unknown to either one of them, someone saw the whole thing, and was now more sure than ever that something was up. She woke up when Applejack stormed into the house, and while she was starting to doze off again, the commotion coming from the barn got her attention. She didn't expect to see Miss Fluttershy like... that though... "Somthin ain't right," Apple Bloom said walking back into her room, "'Tween Twilight's disappearance, Applejack bein in a weird mood, and now Miss Fluttershy is actin out?" Apple Bloom knew that moment that something was wrong. And she was going to get to the bottom of it, one way or another.