I never stopped looking at Whooves and he never stopped looking at me, I saw his friends sometimes at my lunch, but I was still sad, they all tried to cheer me up, but it never worked. My mind wandered elsewhere, anywhere than to where I wanted it to go. The end of the semester was close, about 3 days away, and I am positive that I will fail the exams if I don’t focus soon. While I had many things on my mind, there was one that had stumbled me for a long time. And that was the Winter Dance, I was debating whether to go or not. And if I do, what would I do there. It wasn’t a date dance (thank Celestia), and it will have a few good activities to do, but other than that, it will be just like the party at Cumulus’. And we all know how that turned out, and instead of a kiss at the end, I would just end up in bed, crying about my horrible life.
Finally after much consideration, I decided to go. Yes, I know just what I said, but if I were to get just one moment with Doctor I would hope it would be there, I paid the large amount of money it provided and am going to have to find some kind of dress. Normally I hate dresses, but now I think I might enjoy wearing one, sure it may just be a hand-me-down from Daydream if I ask my parents, but her clothes are really nice. I didn’t know why I wanted to wear a dress, but I guess I was just getting into a phase again, I am still considered a teenager.
Home has been a mess since I noticed Daydreams strange ways. One day she was complaining about getting up in the mornings, and the next she says that she is going back to college! I was utterly confused but my parents were extremely proud, they hugged her and petted her for what seemed like hours. Even if they include me in a small amount of stuff, they still give Daydream more love. I didn’t care that much, I was more worried about her than anything. She hated college, she always said that it was the worst decision of her life, and now she is saying that she is so excited. Not to mention that she was having a lot of mood swings, from yelling at me to crying over herself for crying. I already knew what this was but I wasn’t going to dare suggest anything for her, not when she was like this. I asked her about it once but she just slammed the door in my face, that was when I dropped it all together. I am so surprised that my parents don’t know yet, but of course, Daydream is the best child ever, so she can do whatever she wants even if it includes getting into trouble.
I didn’t think much about home at that time, she will have to tell them at some point, they are going to know whether she wants them to or not, I thought as my teacher began explaining a few of the problems that may be on our exams, I couldn’t hear a word he was saying, my eyes wandered outside, where I could imagine a better life again.
I heard the bell ring and I went into the library, I mostly just ate here and didn’t care about what ponies would think about it, the librarian liked it, and I liked the quiet, mostly because I hated not being able to talk and hearing the loud crowds in the lunch rooms. So there I was, sitting, reading my favorite book from Saddle Dessen, The Honesty About Eternity, it was the best selling book of her series, and the one I feel mostly related to. I didn’t even care if it was a romance novel, I can read them if I want to.
I was just finishing it up when I heard somepony call out to me, “Derpy? I didn’t know you would be here today?” I looked and saw Kindle, I surprised myself. Usually, he would just spend his time with his brother and Atom, but I guess even brothers who get along must take a break at some point, I wish I could have that relationship with my sister.
“Hi, Kindle?” I said in much curiosity as to why he way here.
“Hello, Miss,”
“What are you doing here? Don’t you go to the science lab?”
“Oh, we need to find a book on chemicals and it just so happened that I found you,” Kindle said with a big smile. I knew he had a small attraction towards me, but unfortunately, I could only see him as a friend, and I hate that I would have to tell him that if this attraction became anything more.
“Oh, is that all?” I asked
“Well…” he started with a blush, and I grew worried, “I guess it was luck, and the fact that I wanted to see you again.”
“Oh, kindle,” I said with a tone that I knew was going to disappoint him, “What do you need?”
“You know that the dance is coming up the weekend before our midterms,” Oh dear “and I was just thinking that you could come with me and my friends, we don’t necessarily go to many dances, but now we think this one would be special. So maybe you could go with us?”
I didn’t think that it would be this hard to say no! but yet the thought of showing up with another colt, no… the friend of my crush! That would just be horrible! “Kindle… you know that I would love to,” he already knew the answer I am sure, “but I'm afraid that I don’t think I can, it isn’t that I think that you are the reason, it's just that you to me are only seen as a friend, I know that this may be hard to hear, but I hope that with time, you can forgive me,”
I looked at his face, I knew that I made him sad, or so I thought I did, “What are you talking about? I said if you would like to come with us, not me,”
As the former conversation entered my head, I realized that he was right, he did say “us”, maybe I was so worried in my head that I thought he was going to ask me out. And now I began to blush of embarrassment. “Kindle, I am so sorry! when I heard you I was just concerned that you were going to propose that we go together as a “date”, I didn’t mean to make this uncomfortable,” I said trying to explain my blunder. I thought he would have been more embarrassed, but he actually was smiling! It may have been rude, but I was kind of hoping that he would be sad and tell me that it wasn’t okay, but all he did was chuckle for a few minutes.
“Well, I guess, now that I went back over it, you may have gotten the wrong conception, but good on you for standing up for your own rights. Though it is true, what you thought. I may have had a… slight attraction towards you, but I knew it was a long shot, you and I may sound like a one-week thing, but when I see you and Time, now that is love.”
I began to blush incredibly, “You know then? How I feel?” I said.
“How could I not! The way that you talk about him, it is almost as if I can hear doves crying over how beautiful your love is,”
“I can't help it I guess, he was just so… nice to me! At first, I just thought that he could do better and maybe move on from me, but now I think that he is here for a reason. Before I wished on a shooting star that he would see the real me, but at the time I didn’t even know there was a “real me”, but he just accepted me and didn’t complain whatsoever! I knew that he was going to be my best friend… my only friend, my only interest. I think it was love at first sight for me, but I knew that it may of taken him awhile. Sure it may just be in my head, but what he does to me… I have had dreams of us together, mostly PG, but some… well, let's just keep that a secret to me. He makes me feel the light from my dark inner conflicts and self-deprivation, and I knew I needed to tell him, but after I heard he was “together” with Shadow Heart, I grew so jealous that I wanted to scream. I love him alright, every single thing about him. His smile, his laugh, and those eyes… oh, they are such beautiful eyes, what I wouldn’t give to just stare at them one more time,” tears escaped my eyes as I finished my speech, it was relatively quiet and I looked at Kindle who had eyes bulging out of his face, with tears in them. I was about to speak when he beat me to it.
“that… has to be the greatest love story that I have ever heard!” he said, as the tears fell down.
“Thank you… you know he was the only one who ever cared about me, when no one else would. Not my parents, and no one from-“
“You're kidding me right?” Kindle said, the tears coming out of his face some more.
“What?”
“No one cared about you? There were ponies who talked to you right?”
“Well they did, but only for a short time, they all believed that I couldn’t withstand the conversations that they all withheld,”
“Wow, that sure does make us bad doesn’t it?”
“Not you specifically, sure you may of not of talked to me, but that wasn’t your fault, in fact, I didn’t even know who you or your other friends were until I met you just a week ago. Sorry if that was offensive,”
“Nah, we kind of keep to ourselves, when we are not in class, we sometimes go to each other’s house to play some nerdy game. Or most times just stay in the science lab, better than our house.” Kindle said finishing off kind of bitter. But I didn’t think to push it.
“oh, so if you keep to yourselves, then why are you going to this dance?”
“ehehe, well if you must know, there is going to be this really cool liquid combustion that will be played as the music beat and I and Bio wanted to test out some of the works, there may be something that could go with our testing to make our experiment work!”
“That sounds incredible! Why didn’t you just tell me that? I will totally help you!”
“Really? I wouldn’t think you to be some sort of chemist,”
“Well I may dabble, but I am nothing like you or your brother, my career stands with the stars,” I said blanking out to space.
“That’s right, Turner did say that you liked the stars, you even have an observatory?”
I looked at him with confusion before I (Once again) forgot that we were talking about Doctor, I haven’t heard his nickname in so long it must be like they are talking about a totally different person.
“Um, yes, you know you and your friends could come and see it sometime, if you want to you know. Maybe you could bring Whooves along too.” I said not even realizing my mistake.
“Uh yeah, but quick question… who is this ‘Hooves’ guy? Do we know him?” it still amazes me that they had known Doctor for a long time, but he still hasn’t told them about his past, even now, when I know both of them.
“Oh! Did I say Whooves? I meant Turner, you see I have a second cousin that is in a different line of family and he looks exactly like Time, only he has… wings and he has a-a... a ginormous hoof for a cutie mark, to imply that he likes to work with hooves?” I said covering up my truth as best I could.
“Oh… well then, I don’t think that would be the best idea, Derpy. It isn't you, it's just… well, Turner isn't exactly in communication with us, not since,” I looked to see that Kindle was looking both sad and mad, hurt mostly, he lost something. And regretfully, I think I may know why.
“Kindle, did something happen between you?” I said taking his hoof and squeezing it tight, I remember always feeling so much better when I had someone there with me.
“It only happened recently, there was a lot of yelling, and it all went to chaos when he said that his grades were the only things that mattered in this, but my brother took it the wrong way and they began fighting, I tried to get them to stop, but it only took a little while before we both stopped because, as you may be aware, we nerds aren’t at all athletic. Anyway, it ended with us parting ways and… I think that had to be the moment in which I saw him walk to Shadow Heart and… well…
-*-
Kindle walked away from Time Turner and follow his friends, never had any of them been so violent in their entire lives! He only wished that this mess with Shadow Heart would just go away, but still, he liked Turner and wanted to be there. once he was considered Time’s best friend and the only one who understood him. So being Kindle, he began to walk slower and slower until he stopped short and looked back. He thought for a moment about the situation, but knew the best bet… he needed to stay loyal to his best friend. For now at least, until this whole Shadow Heart business blew out of the water. Kindle walked back but hid when he saw Shadow Heart standing behind Turner.
“Well, did you tell them?”
Kindle could see the tears that wanted to escape his face, he wanted to run back and apologize, but he also knew that if he did, then this trouble would just get worse. Turner moved back and went into Shadow Heart’s face with mad daggers staring in his eyes.
“YES ALRIGHT! IS THAT WHAT YOU WANTED! FOR ME TO BE SO UNHAPPY WITH YOU THAT I LOSE FEELINGS ALTOGETHER!”
“um, you need to stop that right now mmkay, I only told you to do that so they wouldn’t get in the way anymore. I mean, you already have friends,” Shadow Heart said with the evilest smile Kindle could see.
“But that is just it! They are your friends! not mine. I liked the friends I had, but oh no! they were just butting in from my life like everything that I like,”
“HEY! You should be thanking me, I gave you better friends, and now you have the most popular name in all of the school, no more sciencey thingies to break you from your true name,”
“THANK YOU!?!?!?”
“Oh you are so welcome baby,”
Kindle could see that Time Turner wanted to rage out all of his anger, hit her even! However, he also knew that Time was a gentle being, who would never take to such antics, unfortunately, Kindle wasn’t always the nicest person to the bullies. But he still gave a bit of the light of mercy to others. Now with Shadow Heart, oh he wanted to do so much more than hit her, he was going full-on fireballs. Yet he knew how to contain it.
Turner began to walk away, leaving streaks of tears down his eyes, and all Kindle could do was watch.
“oh and stop crying, it doesn’t look good for your figure, and it makes you look more ugly too…”
-*-
I stared at Kindle with such surprise, that didn't sound like any of them before, and now with all of this mess with Shadow Heart I can almost believe that she would do this, but not Doctor. Maybe the pressure came to him? Or maybe he was being threatened? However it may be, it still raises my venue on why? Why everything? Why now? Why can't I stop asking questions?
“And that was the last time you saw him?”
Kindle nodded his head and I gave him a big hug, he began to smile and blush, probably from not getting many hugs before. We parted and he looked a tad bit better than before, but still had a hurt face. I knew that it may be close to impossible to try and talk to him. Yet I also knew that if I didn't then nothing could get solved.
“Hey, do you want me to talk to him? Maybe I could convince him to talk and we can all settle something,” I suggested.
“You see, he would be the one to talk immediately, it's the others that may need some more convincing, while I may look hurt, you should see my brother, he and Turner were as close as family. And Atom won't talk to anyone anymore, it all is such chaos since Shadow Heart became part of his life,”
“I know that it may seem impossible, but it isn't. I know Who-Time, he would never do anything like this except under pressure. I think that is what is coming over all of us,” I said to lighten the mood.
Before long, I heard the bell ring to get to the other class and went to the door. Not before I looked back and tried to make the Kindle's light shine brighter.
“Um, Kindle? I think that if there way anyone who Turner can talk to it would be you, as you can see, you are a fun pony to converse,” I said with an uplifting smile.
I went into my other class and decided not to think much of what was going on, and about what dress I should wear instead.
--*--
I breathed in heavily and let it out slowly, I had finally found a dress in my sister's closet, she didn't mind too much and actually said I looked nice! It wasn't that great to me. It was just a simple royal blue with a little ribbon to tie it all together, I made my mane a bit more curly and tried to not let my eyes be the center for once. My mind raced with the scenarios about what may happen if I went. It was being held in the cafeteria, of all the places that could have been worse, the problem wasn't the building (It actually was a really big one), but the fact that the smell could go through your nostrils and make you pass out from the disgusting aroma.
Despite my authority, I went in there anyway, and I immediately wanted to rush out. The room was changed in more ways than before. The roof was hung with tons of shaded blue lighted and snowflakes that could have made any pony squeal of joy. Unfortunately, I wasn't that happy. I began to search around to find something to do. Yet all I could see were ponies who were talking to their friends, I noticed a lot of them were popular ponies and almost ready to strike at any moment at the first victim. This made me get really nervous so I left them and began to search my way for kindle and his brother. They needed me to help them with something, though for now, I am uncertain of said job. And furthermore, I don't even know if they came or not, I may just be here to make a fool of myself. And it didn't help that many of the other ponies were already starting to stare at me. I didn't really notice them though, I didn't want to look at their faces, I only wanted to look at one. And that “one” is probably being forced to do something so major with my enemy that I wouldn't be able to see him at all!
I let the anger out with a calming breath and trotted my way, hmm, where would I be if I was a nerd, aha! I thought as I headed my way to the attic. If I would be anywhere it would be in an enclosed environment where no one else can see me. It would be a dark and stuffy place to make me feel comfortable and warm And that is exactly where the two were as I climbed upward.
“Derpy there you are, we were worried that you wouldn't have made it. Nice dress by the was,” Kindle said with a tiny breath of relief, I could sense that he way tense about this whole thing. I looked to his brother who was working on something in a beaker with a light glowing yellow. Their eyes were very visible to the darkened attic, making them glow the purple and blue that made them so fascinating.
“Hey Bio, stop playing around with that phosphate and say hi to our guest,” Kindle said in an annoyed tone.
“Hey,” his brother replied, I wasn't particularly with the name, but I was hoping that it would come up soon. All I really knew was that it started with ‘Bio’, which could be his name, but it doesn't sound like it.
“Sorry, Bioluminescent has not been in the best of moods after the, you know,” Kindle whispered to me. I nodded my head, it must have hit him really hard after the fight he had with Whooves, it made me feel sorry for him. I bet they were the best of friends and now it was all broken my a mare who he doesn't even like!
“It's okay, I understand if this entire thing is a bit tense,” I said in assurance.
“Thanks,”
Most of the time I spent in there I just stirred up a few ingredients that went into a mix. He may not of said it, but I bet Bio was impressed with how fast I knew how to mix the chemicals. As I said, I dabble. Finally, we went outside to the party and went close to the DJ. I asked kindly if we could have a sample of some of her liquidated capsules but unfortunately, her music was so loud that I couldn't even speak loud enough to make her understand. Soon I just pointed at the item in question and then pointed at me and my friends, now that the gesture was put out, she mouthed out an ‘oh’ yet nothing came out. Then she nodded her head and gestured her hoof so that we could get a firm sample. After we got a pretty good one, then we decided to go back up to the attic, but not before Bioluminescence came back to me and said, “Hey, uh, we need you to get outside and find a leaf.”
“A leaf? What for?”
“Not just any leaf, the apple trees leaves, the ones on the stems, if you need, I can come with you,”
I shook my head, “No thank you, I'll get it,”
Luckily for me, I knew this school pretty well and I knew specifically the apples in the Agriculture class had been growing for moons and knew exactly where the apple trees were. It confused me why they need a leaf from an apple, but of course I was always confused about Zecora's potions, so this wasn't new to me. In fact, it was why I was so good at mixing. Zecora always made me get a few ingredients and stir the pot from her hut. I flew fast to the apple tree and plucked one with such grace and posterity, but not before I heard two ponies talking. At first I thought it was just some incompetent teenagers who were lusting over each other, but that was before I heard the accent.
“What do you mean get rid of her?”
“What is there not to get? She is the reason that you are always distracted. So I think it would be better if you just… let her go aside, for now at least, and who knows, maybe you will find it better without her.”
I was shocked, how could Shadow Heart ever suggest such a thing! To make the Doctor choose between me or his own freedom? Every time I thought about it, I would always know that his answer wouldn't be the right one. And that is just what he proved.
“No way in Tartarus would I ever do that,”
“So be it, then maybe I could extend this little predicament,” Shadow Heart said with a devious smile.
“NO! Not anymore. I am tired, tired of you, tired of all of this sh-” I covered my ears before he could say it “You can do anything to me! But the minute you mess with anyone else, then I can’t take part in this deal!” Doctor Whooves yelled.
“What are you saying?” Shadow Heart responded with a confused look.
“I’m done Shadow Heart, done with you,”
Shadow Heart stared at Whooves not exactly knowing what to say. She never expected that he would stand up to her before, but she did know that this could have happened.
“Well, news flash! You can’t be done because we had a deal! And until those semester exams are done you can't give up now, or else I will tell daddy that maybe that fight was you all along, and maybe a few other things that could get you suspended for a week,”
I wanted to slap that smile off her face, but Whooves was what worried me most. I thought that he would be angry, or even sad, but no. he in fact, was smiling? I began to grow scared that he was going to agree to this plan, but I was way wrong.
“I am so glad that you brought that up. Because I knew that the only way that you were controlling me was my suspension. So, during the entirety of my period as your 'coltfriend' I decided to figure out some way to get out of this without actually mentioning anything. And then it hit me: Why exactly was it that after I conveniently got in trouble, you came over and decided to strike up a deal with me?"
"I heard daddy telling you what the punishment was, and I wanted to help!" Shadow Heart said, looking nervous and starting to sweat a little.
"That is what my first suspicion was, but then I kept thinking about how you never once wanted to help somepony just because they got in trouble. No, this was definitely not just a coincidence, you planned something, and I spent the rest of the time trying to figure out what that was.
"However, there was just no way of knowing any sort of evidence that I could prove, my theory was indeed beginning to come clear and correct, as other ponies I had been asking around had also been suspicious of what happened, and most even said they heard her talking about a certain pony that she had been wanting. Can we guess who that is? Oh, yes, the one pony who stood up to you and finally told you the truth instead of sucking up to whatever the hay it is that you tell everypony. However, it still wasn't good enough. It was still your word against mine. I needed actual proof of what you were doing.
"And then, just as of last week, I noticed a certain class that may have been able to help. What was that classroom? While, yes it would be nice to know. I believe that if I were to tell you, then most likely you would have sabotaged them in any way, so let's call them 'class A', and it just so happened that they were recording a video for the awareness of bullying. But that is not what is so interesting about it. What is? Well, it seems as if there was a cut scene needed for the remake, and it seemed to include a mare waiting until the Principal came up. I only needed to make sure that the date and time went up. And what do you know! It actually was the exact time and date as the whole fight! So, what to make out of all of this? Well, let's just say that you no longer can control what I do, and in return, the tape I have will never reach the minds of your 'daddy', as long as you leave me and my friends alone, then we don't have to discuss anything. Is that clear enough for you?”
There were no words to describe the look on Shadow Heart’s face just now, it was like a mix between surprised and really angry. And it made me so happy. She began to stutter but no words came to her mind. All I could do was smile at how idiotic she looked.
She moved away with a scoff and her muzzle raised high, I thought that was it, but once again, I was oh, so wrong. And not in the good way.
“I don’t even understand why you want to hang around that retard,” Shadow Heart said in her most angry voice.
It must have triggered something horrible in Doctor Whooves, and in fact it was scary to see, but as soon as she had said those words, he pushed her to the apple tree causing it to shake hard enough that I could have sworn the entire Equestria could hear it! His face, it was darker than the usual one I had seen before, and his eyes, they weren’t his usual sky blue, no they were almost a shade darker, almost as if his entire body changed as well as his personality! It was like he was a totally different pony, and I could tell that Shadow Heart felt the same way, only more terrified than me.
“Okay, you better listen and listen good,” he said in a monotone voice, and more sinister than any I had heard before, “I have let you off the hook for saying things like that, I have made you mess around with talking to her, and I even made sure that I wasn’t seen with her most of the time, but if there is one thing that you can never do, is ever call her that again! do you hear me, I don’t care if your ‘daddy’ is the principal, I don’t care if you have any power here, you never call her that again, alright. And I mean it too. So help me I will build a fire and watch you burn with a smile on my face as your flesh boils, and I will cut you limb by limb if you ever are seen bullying her and be proud of it! You hear me! DON’T YOU EVER GET NEAR HER AGAIN!!!
He let go of her and she screamed of pure terror, even I was beginning to grow a bit worried, he had never been so dark before, and it made me wonder if he would ever be like before. I thought he was just going to stand there and maybe do something else wicked, but…
“You can come out now, I won’t hurt you, I promise,” I heard in his more normal voice.
I stayed near the branches and started to breathe heavily, I didn't know whether to go or not, I was still a bit spooked by what he said to Shadow Heart, but of course I also know that he couldn't take any longer withstanding her shenanigans, but at the same time… he never threatened either. Only two solutions came to my mind: one, I stay here, he leaves, and we see how it goes from there. Or, I go down, we talk, and maybe I can finally tell him a few things. It seemed obvious for what I should do.
I flew down but hesitated when I landed, making sure that his little tantrum way over. I must have shown how frightened I looked because Doctor had on a face that meant so much sorrow. And I felt very bad.
“You won't… go crazy again will you?” I asked backing up a little bit.
“No, in fact I don't think I have ever been that mad before, but I can take a hint on why my actions were so dangerous,” he said with a smile that I knew meant that everything was okay. So I smiled back.
He hugged me and I smiled more brightly, finally, I can finally feel right about this, I thought. We stayed there for a looong time, and nothing way said the entire time. Despite the cold winter winds, I felt warm, warmer than I had ever before. I knew I was blushing hard, and I could feel he was as well. His heart was beating so hard, and I smiled of pure happiness. It can finally be okay to do this now. And nopony can stop me.
Finally, after the calming silence, Whooves spoke, “You look nice tonight you know,”
“This thing? This is just a simple hand-me-down from my sister,”
“Well then maybe she is the one I should be thanking, despite her illegitimate brain always conceding on who I am,” I laughed hard, this way what I needed, this is what he needed matter of factly. We stayed in the moonlight just rolling on the floor with our breath giving out from the laughter. It may not of been the best joke, but it was the first time that we had ever laughed for a long, long, long time. Finally, after our breaths were caught up with our brains, we smiled at each other, knowing that this way just going to be the start.
“Hey, we have had a pretty hard time these past months, so do you maybe want to do something else rather than go back in there?” Whooves asked.
“Like what?” I said with a smirk.
--*--
I raised my hoof and pointed to the night sky, after agreeing with Doctor about going, we decided to come to the hill that I love so much, but I quickly remembered that I had an apple to give, so I tried to excuse myself and go back to give it to Bio, who questioned me but I left before he could say anything else.
The rest of the time was spent looking at the night sky and seeing which one of us knew the stars better, I obviously was the better opponent, but Doctor did put up a good fight. After much back and forth, it was my turn again.
“Okay, what about that one,” I asked.
“Orion,” he answered. In all fairness, it was a pretty easy one, but I needed an idea and it just came to my head.
“That was too easy, I'll get you next time,” I said in a determined voice.
“Alright then, how about that one,” he replied sticking a hoof up at another constellation.
“Obviously Gemini,” I said in ego.
“Wow, it took me ages to figure out that one,” Doctor said with an impressive look.
“Well like I said, the stars have always been apart of me,”
“I think me too,”
“Really? How so?”
“Well, it may not be like time, but the stars have always been special to me. Sometimes I have dreams of going and exploring the different realities that space has for us, and using time as a way to commend it. And who knows, maybe I will have a companion to help me discover these oddities that the universe creates, and finally realize what I am meant to do,” Doctor said with a smile as he turned to me, and I blushed as I knew he was meaning me. It made me happy that he would want to spend his life with me. And yet, it also raised the one question that I have been wondering for so long.
“Hey Doctor?” I asked as I looked at those beautiful blue eyes.
For a moment, I could feel the sensation of pleasure as he looked at me. His smile faltered a bit, but I could sense that he was happy. And more tranquil. “Yeah” he whispered to me. It was almost as if he read my mind as he spoke, and that was when I could feel it… the spark.
“The reason you threatened Shadow Heart, was it just because you were tired of her and wanted her to stop calling me a, you know… or is it because, you felt like you were going to lose me forever if you agreed to that deal any longer?”
I could see that I made his brain think for a while, and soon he just sighed and smiled at me, “You really are the smartest mare I have ever met, you know that?” I didn’t really know what to say to that, sure I knew I was smart. I knew that he knew. Yet before, I always felt that being called ‘smart’ made me feel egotistical, but now it makes me feel proud. And it was Doctor who made me see that.
“You want to know the truth? the reason I went all dark on Shadow Heart, was because no pony, NO pony, can call you something like that and think they can get away from it, but that wasn’t the only reason. No, there was another,” Doctor said with a face of pure red crimson, he grabbed my hoof, and I began to blush as well.
“Doc-“ I tried to say.
“No, let me finish,” he began before brushing my light yellow mane out of my face, letting my eyes be his major focus. “Ditzy… Muffins, you have been there from the start, from the moment I went into those doors, you were there. And of course, I could see that you were different, but I didn’t care, all I saw was a mare full of potential that nopony would see. There you were, your huge brain and all, thinking that you were forgotten, but you weren’t,”
For a strange reason, I couldn’t help but feel that this shouldn’t happen. It made me feel like all he was saying was wrong, and flashes of before came to my view. And for another strange reason, it was Shadow Heart who was becoming of my conscious.
If you hadn't met him, then maybe his life would have been better, he may of gotten a better way of currency if you hadn’t told him about staying over at your observatory, and maybe he was just pretending not to like being popular and getting some sort of attention. Why don't you just admit it? You’re a mistake, you messed up trying to get along with your sister, and you made his life so much worse. You are nothing but a mistake!
“No,” I said. It was all true.
“What do you mean?” Doctor said, taking his hoof off of me and put on a quizzical look.
“You can't,” I whispered with tears coming to me.
“Can't what?” Doctor said growing worried.
“YOU CANT LIKE ME!!! You have to realize how much pain I have caused you! Can't you see that I haven’t made any part of your life better! You had it all, why did you just let it go when you had the chance,” I hated that these words were coming through my mouth! It was like my time with Whooves was just a dream, and suddenly I woke up to the reality of everything! And I could tell that Doctor was getting angry at me for acting this way.
“Why do you always think that everything is your fault, even when you know that it isn't? Do you think that I chose to be with Shadow Heart ? No! of course not, and don’t even get me started on you not making my life better, and-“
“Why can't you realize that I am nothing but a mistake!” I yelled with tears streaming down my face.
“DON’T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT YOU AREN’T A MISTAKE YOU ARE A MIRACLE!!!!!!”
I stopped short on my words as the last tears escaped my face, my confused look said nothing more but yet I still muttered a “What?” meekly
“You are a miracle! A miracle to me! Don’t you see that before you my life was a complete mess! All I did was lie to everypony, but then you came along and showed me what I was doing was wrong. If that is not a miracle then I guess I don’t believe in them.” The Doctor said in an angry tone, but calming down a bit before going on. “ You’re a miracle, Ditzy, you always have been. To me, and to anypony who talks to you, you are the light in my dark past, you are the sunshine to me grey clouds, you… you are my little grey angel,”
I didn’t know what else to do then, the only instinct I had… was probably the best. After his words were done, I waited a while before leaning fully in, and showing him how I felt. He, in return, reflected the movement, and we were both in full embrace. Finally, I could finally just let my doubts away, and maybe now, it will just get better. And then I had realized. That Shadow Heart crap was just some doubt I had about everything, and it made me believe in its little lies. But now, now I have all I ever needed. And I wouldn’t trade him worth all of the muffins in the world combined.
Our faces moved as I felt my oxygen depleted, and for a brief moment, I had almost wanted my tongue to fly out, and reach every part of his mouth. Unfortunately, my lungs couldn’t contain much more, And I had to let go.
We tried to catch our breaths as much as we could, but the mere force of our love pulled us back in, and once again I could feel everything bad go out from my past. I must have fallen, but I didn’t mind one bit, in fact, it made it a bit more comfortable. It was like I was a new mare, and every bit of it made me so happy.
Finally, our mouths parted for the final time, and he picked me up. Both of us with the happiest smiles that were to be seen from 10 miles away. He walked me back to my home. And I offered that he come inside, considering that now it wouldn’t be so awkward if he came in as my coltfriend, but I understood, he needed his sleep as well. So I went in alone, and soon my family asked me how the party was, but all I did was say “It was… a big night to remember,” and I went into my room. But not before seeing Doctor stare at me from the observatory. And I could see that blush from a mile away as he left the window. I went into my bed, but could not sleep until thinking of so many possibilities that we could endure. And for once, I actually slept happily knowing that everything was going to be okay. But before I could fall asleep. Those last words echoed in my mind, and I smiled at the thought, “you aren’t a mistake you are a miracle”. And those were the words that I would always tell myself whenever I let my guard down.