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// Chapter 2 - Understanding 
// Story: Heartbroken 
// by Sunny_and_Auri_23 
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“Twilight. Just listen to me. Stop doing this to yourself. Go out there and make friends!” Spike told me. “Stop being blinded by people who aren’t here anymore!” Spike said.
“How can I not be blinded by them, Spike?”
“It’s been years, Twilight! Don’t you think that it’s about time to move on!”
“It’s never time to move on!”
He scratched his head. “Twilight. Please, try to understand. You can’t live your life like this. Please, Twilight, I can’t see you like this any longer.”
“What if you don’t see me at all?”
Spike’s eyes widened. “Twilight, you- you know you can’t do that. That isn’t an option. You can’t-”
“Spike. I can. I will. I will do it. I can’t live like this anymore, Spike!” I cried. Spike could never understand what I was feeling. Never. He didn’t know what it was like seeing everyone just pass in front of him. There was only me. I was the only one who knew.
“Twilight. Please.” He coughed.
“Wait, Spike? Spike! Are you okay?” I asked, as he choked, and another one of Princess Celestia’s letters emerged.
“Well, Princess Celestia hasn’t used that method in ages.” He gasped.
He’s right about that thing. What would Celestia want?

Dear Princess Twilight,

Twilight. You need to stop doing this to yourself.

Do you understand that there is a whole world out there? I have been lenient and understanding with you. It’s true, you lost your parents and anyone who you cared about, but you can’t stay like this forever. Your friends would never wish for this to happen to you. It’s time to fulfill the promise that you made to each of your friends.

The honesty, kindness, generosity, loyalty and laughter aren’t gone from this world. They’re still here, deep in your heart. There is a magic inside of you that no-one can take away.

I understand how you feel. Generations have gone by before me, yet here I am. I live because there’s love all around me. But Twilight, the tears have blinded you from seeing it. Make friends again, Twilight. 

I have loved you like my own daughter, but it hurts not only me to see you like this. Please, Twilight. For my sake, for your sake. Listen to me.

Princess Cadence also wanted me to inform you that she will be coming to Canterlot in the next few days.

Celestia

“How can I make friends again?” I mumbled.
“Twilight?” I heard Spike’s voice repeating my name.
“Aha?” I looked up from the letter, keeping the tears from swelling up in my eyes. “Yes, Spike?”
Spike scratched his head. “Something on your mind, Twilight? You know, you're not alone. Look all around you. There are so many people who would understand your problems. Just believe, Twilight.”
“Spike, no-one can understand my problems, not even you.” I said bluntly. So much for the princess of friendship.
“T-Twilight? Luster is here. With her friends.” Spike said, holding the door open for six mares.
“Princess Twilight? You’ve already met my friends, Auri, Sunny, Saphie, Galaxy and Tinted.” Luster said, biting her lip.
“Of course, hi girls.” I said, quickly folding the letter up and putting it on a nearby table.
“Hi.” The six of them chorused. These girls remind me of us. Only us isn’t us anymore. It’s… it’s just me.
“Princess Twilight, I’m… I’m just so tired, and so scared of seeing you like this. I can’t do it anymore. It’s killing everyone, Princess. Everyone around you is so worried… and… I just can’t take it anymore! Maybe it’s about time I teach you a lesson. It hurts when the knife plunges deep into your skin, but it hurts even more when you keep pushing it in.” She burst out of the room. So it’s time for the student to teach the teacher, eh? If only Starlight were still here to teach me that lesson again.
Auri sighed. “So sorry, Princess, we’ll just… go.” The five friends bowed and ran after her. 

“Auntie Twilight?” A voice came from behind.
“AGH!” I shuddered. “Oh, uh, sorry, Flurry, is everything alright?”
She nodded. “Of course, auntie. Is everything alright… for you? You… you… you okay?”
“Flurry, you know, you are just as surprising as you used to be when you were young.” I changed the topic.
	“Twilight. Just tell me what’s on your mind.” Flurry persevered.
“No-”
“Twilight?” Cadence entered the room.
I gave her a weak smile. “Sunshine, sunshine…”
She returned it. “Ladybugs awake.”
“Clap your hooves…”
“And do a little shake.” She ended. “It’s… it’s great to see you again.”
“Y-yeah. Me too. I’ve… I’ve missed you Cadence.” I said. 
“I’ve missed you too, Twilight.” She said, glancing at Flurry. “Flurry, honey, why don’t you go to your room?”
Flurry took a quick look at me, before returning her gaze to Cadence. “Of course, mother.” She said, before leaving the room.
“So… h-how’s it been going?” Cadence asked, her hoofs trembling.
“I.. It’s been going… okay.” I said awkwardly, as tears gathered up in my eyes, as one fell down my cheek, she glanced at me as her own started pouring down her face.
“Twilight. I miss him. I miss him so much.” She whispered, as I put my hoofs around her. “I MISS HIM SO MUCH!” She shouted.
“Yeah. I miss him too. M-my B-B.B.B.F.F. Except the forever in big-brother-best-friend-forever was never right.” I whispered.
“They’re never coming back.” She whispered. “It hurts. And it hurts even more that we can’t join them, and they can’t join us.” She sighed, clearly attempting to keep tears in. “When he was d-d-dying, he-he said t-to not be afraid t-to love someone again.” She whispered. “Only there was the only stallion I could love.” She pulled free from the hug, and wiped a tear from her eye.
“Every one of my friends told me to make friends again. B-but how? How can I do that?” Tears started falling down my cheeks again.
“Twilight, I can’t do it anymore.” It was barely a whisper. “I’ll go back to my room now. See you tomorrow, Twilight.” She gave me another hug and left the room.
Tears poured down my eyes. I miss you so much, girls. What happened to the ‘forever’ in BFF’s?