//------------------------------// // 1- The failure // Story: To be Someone // by ThatWritingDragon //------------------------------// Hi, my name is Twilight Sparkle. I am currently sixteen years old, i am 162 cm tall. Despite me finishing Crystal Prep early, i have decided to continue my studies in Canterlot High where i, in this order. Found magic, got bullied, nearly broke down, blackmailed, got turned into a flying demon and finally got friends! it may sound bad but i wasn't complaining. Right! i almost forgot about me meeting her, my otherworldly counterpart Princess Twilight Sparkle (i now understand why people kept on mistaking me for someone else during my time there). Wait! wait, i know it sounds bad but it really wasn't, there was no time rip on the universe simply because we met, nothing weird happened. like me feeling left out Just me feeling bewildered that another me was a princess but other than that, i felt nothing. Well, other than simple curiosity, i mean who wouldn't be curious? After that weird encounter, everything went back to normal. I transferred to Canterlot High to be with my friends and i started my journey to adjust to the atmosphere of Canterlot. Now onto Camp Everfree! so many things happened and... I feel like im forgetting something here... i tapped my pen on the table as i tried to see what i was wrong. "Twilight~" "Yes? im working right now" i answered, still busy trying to remember what was off, perhaps i didn't put much detail? but it seemed like a good opening, was i wrong? "Twi~ light~" oh chocolate fudge, she's saying my name like that. "Ye- yes?" i turned slowly, an awkward grin on my face hoping it would placate her but the unamused look i received. I couldn't help but shiver (No, not that way!) in fear, woman im sorry! i just wanted to finish this work. "Twi," She cooed, wait- is she wearing my clothes? wait! no! priorities Twilight! "get out of that chair and get to bed" she stated firmly, a hand on her hip as she cocked her head to the extra bed. I turned to the clock on my table and realized just how late it has gotten, it blinked 1:30 in its full red glory. I shifted my attention back to her, "i- im sorry for waking you up, do you and the girls need anything?" i winced, just how long did i ignore them? i was supposed to help them, just like how the others helped me... They are your responsibility. I should start being more direct, i know that they don't want to accept my help easily, so i have to be more assertive on their needs but... they won't listen to me. I know that they don't trust me fully but i really care for them, why won't they understand that? i turned to the bed and observed just how content, relaxed and happy they were. I realized they never looked like that around me. Princess Twilight left them like this and you look just like her "Hey..." i looked back at her, her annoyed look was gone and was replaced by... pity? why? was i really that pathetic? "We may not seem like it, but we really are grateful" she smiled, it was soft and it made me feel fuzzy inside. I couldn't help but wonder how a simple smile could leave me with so many endorphins while making it seem like i was on the moon with how light i feel. (It was a nice kind of fuzzy, I'll have to make them smile like that often) No, stop focusing on yourself Twilight, don't be narcissistic. Focus on them, get stronger to protect them, keep them safe. They need you and you will be there for them. ... ... (I will fail them) (—?!) A chill washes down my spine as memories i knew i kept hidden in the depths of my mind came running to its forefront. That's right. if i do not get stronger i will only be in the way. ("Twilight, leave!") If i don't become stronger... ("No! I'll keep you safe! we're friends! i don't care what he says! come with me! ----------") ("GO! you weren't supposed to be here!") If i fail... ("You... she just wanted to a friend! why can't you give her that!? you're her Dad! you're supposed to take care of her! if your not gonna care for her- then i will!") ("As if a scrawny child could stand up against an Adult. If you couldn't do anything before, then who is to say that you can do anything now? Oi brat, come here and convince your friend to leave permanently or else I'll double the beating") ("Twilight... please leave, just leave. Please") ("Oi, i said permanently, I rather not deal with pests who keep on coming back") ("Im sorry Twilight, please don't talk or go near me ever again") ("You hear that brat? now scram, you and you brother are so alike, Both of you are failures") I gritted my teeth, im not a failure. I've succeeded in so many things now- Compared to Princess Twilight? You are nothing Poke! "Why are you afraid?" she whispered to me, her soft smile gone as i stared at her. Her eyes were clouded, so many things running in those gorgeous Raspberry eyes. "Afraid?" i questioned, why would i be afraid? im not scared, i won't be scared. I had no time to be scared when i am with them. "Why are you holding back when it comes to us? did those Raindorks really cloud your judgement on us?" her voice may sound judgemental and yet i could hear a glimmer of hurt in it. "What? no!" i had to remove that misconception, "It- its just, i just don't want to inconvenient you girls!-" i ran a hand through my bangs, not realizing that she sat on the table next to me "- i know its really weird for you girls to be around someone that looks like the person that help break your amulets and i didn't want to make you girls uncomfortable-" i was interrupted by a finger, i trailed it with my eyes before it landed on her. "You know Twilight, you truly care for us huh?" she asked, i simply nodded. Of course! why wouldn't i? "Of course i care for you all!" i stated with a grin, conviction in my words. They're my responsibility, and i handle everything under my responsibility with care. "i mean with you three having such a 'Dazzling' personality, who wouldn't?" i grinned cheekily, i have been waiting to use that in a while. Great timing as always! She smiled, it was better than the last one. It was soft and much happier(?) i decided that it looked definitely better than the last one, she looks much prettier when she smiles like that. (Much fuzzier than before (experiment needed) i definitely need to know why i am feeling this) "Your really pretty when you smile like that" i wanted her to know it, i was being truthful after all. "Your a dork" she smirked when she saw the indignant look on my face before it faded once more to that soft, happy smile. "My Dorky Hero" ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... My Dorky Hero ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... Hero... What makes a Hero? from what little that i know of the term Hero. A Hero does not hesitate. A Hero saves everyone. A Hero is selfless. I am not a Hero, i realized. I was a hero once but i failed. I couldn't help but wonder who has those kinds of characteristics before i realized that it embodies Princess Twilight, then who am i? ... ... ... (The Twilight Sparkle...) ... ... ... Right now, i am nothing more than the Twilight Sparkle... That hesitates That can't save everyone. That is selfish. (The Twilight Sparkle that i want to be...) I stood up from the chair i was sitting on and grabbed her by the hand, i may not be able to save everyone but at least i saved someone. "Let's get you to bed," i said as we walked, she silently followed. Her hands were small compared to mine, i can feel the light callouses on them and i couldn't help but grip it harder as i remember how we met in the first place. They will not go back to that kind of lifestyle, not with me around. (The Twilight Sparkle that i want to be...)