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// Academic Illusion Begins 
// Story: Atychiphobia 
// by Ice Star 
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dear diary 

the heaps of books i am given
hold the accelerated courses
that rule my nights and days
more than dreams and dinner
and almost
as much
as
You

i let them into my head
in hopes that
they never fly out

yours eagerly

sunset shimmer











dear diary

my quills are cut
more than they need to be
when i am shaking
over anticipating all the answers on quizzes
so much
that i taste them
long after completing

You say to me
how i need to do
more
better
different
diligent
focused

yours in schoolwork

sunset shimmer











dear diary

i know i need to move mountains for You
i promise i will
magic is worth losing sleep over
all my time is spent
on 
everything
You
put before me

yours tirelessly

sunset shimmer











dear diary

i will
skip snacks
now that i am
a big filly
and i will be bigger still

yours in maturity

sunset shimmer

p.s.
i will
have to write
to grandmother
another time

p.p.s 
too much
homework
to sleep
again!











dear Princess Celestia

please 
let me have
extra 
credit work

and more still

Your most faithful student

sunset shimmer











dear diary 

as the days turn
to weeks
and 
into moons
i am lost
in paper castles
You have assigned me

wondering
why i can do everything
and You still say
all the same things
smiling
an unbreakable porcelain smile
that grows no wider

it only ever pales when
i finally
plead
for something harder
meant for all the faithful students
who were bigger than i
so i will no longer
be the smallest
who only gets
the smallest smiles 
from You

yours in worry

sunset shimmer








long after You
infected
the diary 
You never gave me

i had
only
one question
that 
beats
in my heart
still

did i fail You
or did
You fail
me?