Luna was happy that I finally remembered.
That was the true series of events. All this time, up in the moon, she was watching me. Watching how distraught and destroyed I was after it happened, and watching how I went insane.
I did recover, somewhat, but my memories refused to allow this back into my head willingly.
She said she also realised that the past 20 years would lead me to believe certain things, and do certain things, and in fact, it happened.
She then told me a secret.
That plan that I had to defeat her at the shrine?
She knew.
She knew it all.
She allowed herself to be 'defeated'. I played into her hooves like an old deck of cards.
She told me that all this time, from her escape until now, she had been talking to me, breaking me down, all for this point.
It was she, Luna, who wanted her sister back.
And it was a thousand years before she could finally see it happen.
All I had was one word.
Why?
She just gave a tired smile, the kind that you give when you finally come to the end of a very long road, and said:
Just looking out for you, big sister.
I cried for the first time since the accident.
And I cried for a long time since.
I knew there was nothing, and there is nothing I can do to make up for these sins that I have committed, this blood on my hooves, but she merely said that she forgave me.
And the reality is, there is a lot weighing on my heart now, but that really helped a lot.
All this time.
And all she was ever doing is getting us together again.
I don't know how to face her again, dear diary.
I don't know what to do except pour my heart out onto these pages.
I don't know anything anymore.
I don't feel worthy of the crown.
I don't feel worthy of having a sister.
I don't feel worthy of Twilight Sparkle.
What do I do?