10.43 PM
Once again I find myself visiting Luna. I don't want to, but my legs take me to her room anyway. It's as if I can't control them.
I don't even want to be there. I don't want to look at her face. I don't want to talk to her. It's difficult.
But I went anyway. After pacing in front of her door for fifteen minutes.
She was delighted to see me again. It felt genuine, but I don't know anymore. I don't know a lot of things.
Back for more? she asked me.
Yes, back for more.
What happened that day? I asked her.
I don't know, she said. I thought you had a good idea.
I told her I wasn't too sure.
Well, alright, then, take it through, she said.
I sighed. Alright. I closed my eyes and thought hard about the events that happened on that day.
We had just come out of a meeting in the middle of the Everfree Forest, where both Luna and I presided. It was to discuss what we should do with the Humans. Many Ponies were calling for their defeat, and everyone else was calling for a tactical relocation.
But there were too many of us, and we couldn't simply just walk away.
Besides, we had magic now. We were on equal terms. We could actually start to fight back and defend ourselves.
I remember... voting for one or the other. It is a bit muddy, I'll give you that. I know I was inclined to believe that we should fight for our rights as a sentient race.
Luna was much more passive about it, and we came to heads about the situation.
That night, before I went to bed, and before Luna started her nightly watch shift, she asked me to walk with her outside of the forest's boundaries for a while.
I accepted, of course. It was rare to find any time with Luna back then.
She took me to the edge of the forest, where we looked out over the silhouette of the city in the distance, its lights casting a soft orange glow that clashed with the natural light of the moon.
We stood there in the shadows for a while, enjoying the breeze and the fresh air.
And then what happened?
It happened, I told her.
What's 'it'?
It, ok? Just... it. Did it matter what it was? We both knew, why did I have to say it?
She smiled gently and nodded.
Yes, she recapped. We left the forest and had a walk, and then a terrible altercation happened.
Do you remember where it was?
Of course I know, you stupid filly, I yelled. It's right there at the edge of the Everfree Forest where...
...where Ponyville now stands.
Are you sure we were alone? Luna asked next, after a long silence.
I left in an instant. I couldn't think anymore. I couldn't talk anymore.
I am shaken. I can barely levitate this quill.
Does this mean anything? I am unsure.
I think I will get some sleep. No doubt I will be better in the morning.