To whoever finds this,
I can't take this stress anymore. I've managed to make it eighty-two days, but it has not been easy on me at all. No matter how quiet I try to be while outside, whether it being a simple walk, searching for food and supplies to sustain me, creating the slightest noise, it can always hear me! Even as I'm writing this, I'm taking precision to write ever so slowly, but the basement walls act as an extra barrier. None of my noise deafening remedies seem to fully work real well. They work at some degree, but it knows I'm still around and always tries to find me either way. There's just no stopping it. To be honest, I've was lucky to find out that the monsters track by sound because they're pretty much blind. That's how I feel my whole survival has been based and relied on; just luck.
There used to be six monsters on the first day in Ponyville, but this one has a thing for me, I just know it. It's probably just waiting for me to make a big mistake while feeding off other animals in the Everfree Forest as I speak. I can be miles away and it'll still pick up the sounds I make with its super-hearing ability. The others must be somewhere far down south in Appleloosa and Dodge Junction, or made their way up north to Canterlot. Ah, who am I kidding, those meteors crash-landed everywhere in Equestria. I just think it's not fair, but that'll all be settled with me soon enough.
I've been thinking about this for a while, three days, actually. I've seen the method on how these creatures kill before. They always jump, take a long swipe with its giant, blade appendages and that always results in an instant kill. Close quarters is attacks are just terrifying to watch. But the swipe looks like it's quick and painless, but what if that's not the case? Would it actually be painful and slow? No, I deserve it for what I did. Nopony could ever forgive me for what I did.
I grieve for my family everyday and I know I could've done more, or at least died alongside them, but I chose not to. Please, you must understand! I know I sound like such a horrible pony, but I was just so scared that it blinded me to do what I shoud've done! I'm sorry! I was cornered on one side of the room while my wife and young daughter were on the other. They both begged me to help them, but my fear was just too much and I couldn't move. When my wife was quickly overpowered by the monster, I shut my eyes tightly and covered my ears. It's just the sounds and the screaming that still haunt me in nightmares, a nd I'm such a cowardly pony! How could I do this to my own family?! I deserve to be dead for what I did! Even the voices in my head are screaming it at me right now! I want to cry my eyes out so bad right now, but I need to be quiet. screw it i'll just end this rgiht now! i dont care anymore!
Winter Breeze threw his pencil on the floor, grabbed a pillow and stuffed his face while he cried in emotional anguish. His body slightly shook with each muffled sob and he hugged the pillow tightly, picturing it as his wife and daughter just to give himself the slightest feeling of comfort and love that he once felt in his normal live as a loving husband and father. With the pillow now slightly drenched with five minutes worth of tears, he pulled his face out and quietly sniffled and wiped his eyes. Once he slowly calmed himself down, he scooped up his letter and read it over one time, a single tear landing and soaking into the paper.
"Do it! Do it, Winter! Finish the letter. Stop crying and do it." Winter egged himself on, whispering. He then picked up his pencil again and sat down on his haunches to finish what he had started.
Sorry. I just had a little breakdown if you noticed the broken sentencing. Anyways, I'm just getting ready to, well, head out at the moment. I'm just tired of all of this. I deeply hope that the monsters will have gone away by the time you find this, or that somepony else can get the Elements of Harmony working, but I have no idea how that will happen after the main wielders have been killed. The big one that touched the sky was far too powerful for them.
Best wishes,
Winter Breeze