(This page was very...disturbing. Again. It scared our staff so much that they can't even sleep. Weird words appear every now and then.)
September 30th
I know how it is. I know what you're thinking. I don't deserve it. But I do deserve it. I can't stop it. I hear them. I hear their screams. I hear their cries. I hear their pleas.
I hear their cries.
I hear their screams.
But I can't do anything about it.
I cant stop it.
But I have to.
I have to stop her.
I have to stop it.
I have to stop..
I have to stop...
I have to s-stop...
I have to....
Keep...
Going.....
NO! I can't let her take control!
I can't let her win!
Not on my w-watch....
Never...
Never.......
N-N-NeVEr....
KeEP goInG
DOn'T sToP
KE EP MUrDeRiNG
nO ONE wiL l caARE
No ONE WIlL M ISs thE M
I daRE y Ou
i DARE yOu i DAR E y OU
why...
I am losing control...
I have to give in...
but i cant
not with her so close to-SEE FOR YOURSELF
SEE HOW HAPPY YOU CAN BE
SEE HOW HAPPY YOU CAN BE WITH YOURSELF
YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME
I'LL GIVE YOU EVERYTHING YOU EVER DREAMED OF
YOU HAVE T OL iStE N to mE
(This page is one of the few pages in this journal that does not have odd lettering and spacing, but is still disturbing.)
October 8th
Dammit
why
why
I can't believe this is happening
I'm losing control
I can't fight the monster in me off anymore
NO! I need to try
but ive been trying for days now
months, even
I guess I should write more about this. Maybe it will help me. I should also write normally.
A blossom will fall
when the twilight is gone.