Chapter 2: the Day I found my Destiny, wish upon a star, Melody in the evening, Whispers in the dark
“Well then Kiddos lets begin!” I told to the class, I felt a pat on my hoove, I looked down to see the white one of Jacky resting on mine, I smiled and began to tell my story, the whole truth I had held in for the past 7 years and only told to my very closest friends and also to my first daughter Dinky, later I also told it to Starshine.
Flashback 27 years ago ( now I write the original story):
A bright white light stand before me, actually so bright I nedded to squint my eyes, until it got unbearable, I needed to close my eyes shut, the only thing I could make out, was something looking like wings, I heard a fe different voices saying gentle words to me.
“It´s not gonna hurt honey, you will feel new born after it, mistress, have no fear Ditzy, Momy hold on strong, I will wait on the other side, my Daughter!”
“Huh, what do you mean , where shall I go, where will I end up , please someone tell me, please , no, wait!” I mumbled, I think I did it to in reality and not only the dream but really clear I wasn´t about it. But at one point I was clear, that I gonna wake up way too fast, again.
“MOMY!” I jerked up this time so fast that it literally went black for a moment. I haven´t just heard the scream in my dream but also in reality, the moment when I looked up I saw giant Yellow eyes looking at me and I felt something poking my forehead, I tried to adjust my eyes but it had no use, I couldn´t make out what was before me, I rubbed my eyes and the next moment I looked up, I saw my beautiful Daughter Dinky, looking at me with concern.
“Momy, are you alright?” She asked in a worried tone, I smiled and picked her up and craddel her in my arms.
“Yes honey, im alright, hey want some Muffins!” I said to quickly change the theme, but not fast enough to cover it up before Dinky, she always knew when something bothers me.
“It was that dream again, not, that dream you had now since one week continously?” She asked and I were silent, I know she knew that I hate that dream, but I tried always to cover it up as a simple Nightmare.
“You need to go to Dr. Whooves, this is just getting worse and you always wake up screaming, momy, I just don’t want you to be afraid of sleeping!” She said derterminated and with a stern look on her face, after I remained silent, I sighed, she was right, I have to do something against this dreams, it keep me up in the night until I can´t anymore but falling asleep, only to wake up an half hour later screaming and sweat-bathed while Dinky stands before my bed with that worried expression I hate so much, I want her to be happy but for that I need to go to the medics like she prays since the third Nightmare, I think it could help me to sleep better, because even though I am still a very fast mailmare , the dreams munching on my condition lately, due to the lack of sleep nowadays.
“You are right Dinky, that must stop, I can´t live this way any more day or night, well then let´s forget it for a moment and let us starting the day, okay?” I asked her and she nodded sadly.
“Aww, don’t need to be sad honey, momy will be fit again by tomorrow, I swear!” I said to her while nuzzling in her coat and kissing her forehead, I jumped out of the bed, took my nightcap down, and began to stretch.
“So far so good , I still can bend until my hooves and…!” Suddenly it went black again and I stumbled falling to the side, the last thing I heard was Dinky´s scream.
“MOMY!” Just the same tone as in my dream, will this be my end, the end of Ditzy Doo alias Derpy Hooves, like my “Friends” call me, what about Dinky, will Carrot top help her to grow up.
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“Groan, ngggh, mhhhhnnn!” I was awake, or at least I tried my best to wake up, but my body felt like it weight a ton, I rubbed my eyes as best as I could, I looked up to be greeted by an white ceiling and a pair of purple eyes who looked on mye with surprise.
“Oh my dear , Dr. Whooves, Miss Hooves begins to wake up again!” I heard the Nurse shouting, or at least I think it was what I heard, due to the fact that I was still groggy, abit but still. But in the next few minutes the Ponyville´s best doctor, Doctor Whooves came in, he was very nice to everpony, even me, and he was really a good doc.
“Hello Ditzy, how do you feel, does anything hurt!” He asked concerned and with an worried expression.
“Yes , everything is okay so far, I just feel a bit dizzy, that’s all, but can you tell me what happened and where is Dinky, what has happened!” I tried to stand up but he gently pushed me back in my bed.
“No fear Miss Hooves, Dinky is alright, she´s in the school, Miss Top has brought her down there, and to what has happened to you, well you had been collapsed because of all the stress you had lately which mixed up with the lack of sleep, your daughter told me about your current series of nightmares you continously have, Mr. Hooves ,I must really say that I am dissapointed in you, it wasn´t really good that you weren´t come directly to me, I could have helped you, you know!” He said to me with a gentle expression and that only makes me feeling bad all over again, the same feeling as when the second time Dinky asked me, I thought , going to get help, because of some simple nightmares, only let me seen of being weak and I will be gettting mobbed much more by all the bullies, or Dinky will be getting embarassed in school, because her mother can´t handle some normal Nightmares.
“I know!” I only mumbled almost not audible, if the Doc wouldn´t have leaned over me to put the Blanket over me, he looked at me with a soft but stern and a bit sad expression.
“Next time you need to come earlier, but for the moment, I only gonna make a recipt for some sleeping pills, but for now you gonna relax here a few days, I have spoken with the post-master, they have token Rainbow Dash in, for the moment, until you are fit again, and Miss Top will taking care about Dinky , but for the next time you gonna stay in bed, do you have understood that?!” Dr. Hooves asked me, and I only nodded, I feelt bad for myself, here I lay and just because of a fricken nightmare.
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The night came fast and it was time for me to sleep, I just was about to take my sleeping pill, as I heard it.
“Ditzy Doo!” a , for myself, fully unknown voice said my name, how it could be unknown you ask, well as a mailmare I have at least visited every pony twice in my lifetime, and while doing so I make memos with the voices of my “customers” in my head , just a hobby of me, but this voice I definitely never had heard before, it wasn´t Chrysalis Voice, nor was it Discord´s or Nightmare moon´s or whoevers voice.
“Ditzy Doo, it´s time to awake!” The voice said and I began to shiver, even thought the voice has a beautiful and soft tone, doesen´t mean she can´t be dangerous.
“Awake from what, I am fully awoken, thanks to you!” I asked quietly.
“Its time, awake, from that dream your old life was, you need to find the truth!” The voice said and I was confused, what does she mean with that , I shall wake from the dream my old life were.
“What do you mean by that!” I asked and I began to look around to find the source of the voice, but I couldn´t make out anything, no glimpse of life beside my own.
“Wake up and you will find the answer, follow the falling Angels to the ruins of the Cathedral of Light, you need to find the light or this world will fall in chaos forever!” The voices said, I was fully awake but still couldn´t make out anything.
“I am awake, where are you, who are you and why do you choose me!” I asked fearfully, why does no one came to help me, I mean from what I heard they always make patroll around the Hospital rooms, to check on the patients, someone needs to hear this voice too not.
“I am not here, for now I am only a voices in your Head, I am called Equestria, but do I have many names, I am the Angel who created with some help this world, in order to watching over Equestria, I have sended of eight holy Elements on this earth, the so called Elements of Symphony: Sound , Water, Fire, Nature, Stone, Metal, Wind and Light, together with the forces of Princess Celestia and Princess Luna`s parents, we have been able, to close away an evil force which has treaten to take over the whole World of Equestria, this Creature, Nestrell, has also Elements, but they are called the Elements of Chaos, to them also Discord, and the dark part of Princess Luna, Nightmare Moon are members of, once Nightmare Moon was a separate creature, called Nightmare, the Element of fear but in the war from over 4 milleniums ago, we had manage to defeat her, almost completely erased, she managed to posses Princess luna with a part of her, so it happens when Luna begans to get very, very angry, its getting easier for Nightmare to take her over and posses her with darkness. For this we needed the counterpart, the Element of Light,Lumena, to cure her, when the war was over I had layed back to sleep to recover my forces, I let the Princesses Father rule the land until his daughters took over the responsibility, in order to not erase the Elements, I have asked their Father to make pony bodys for the elements, then came the second fight against Discord, who has been completely possesed by Nestrell, the Demondragon of Chaos, he made Discord attacking the few Villages around Canterlot, as we fought against him, he shoot of an Spell on the Elements, to turn them to stone, we managed to throw back the speel with all our might and the help of Princess Celestia, but a part of the speel has been able to leak through, it changed while hitting us, it changed to an so called Phoenixcurse and it hits us all, we had been spellbound by an spell, which should let us getting so oldt until we die, but due to the god¬-like force in each element they managed to stay alive, with time the speel began to work, we began to younger again, in an cyclus of 250 years, we then aged slowly so long until an whole millenium is over then we become foalys again.
In the dure of this state, Princess Celestia ordered that a pair of childless ponies should take one each of them in, so long until they are old enough for an own life and the duty of they destiny, for these times the Princesses, created so called Elements of Harmony, which held a bit of our force and my own in them, these Elements should take the responsibility , in the 500 years where we grow up again, litterally, it has become good for the most years but with time, the ponies doesen´t need us anymore, they celebrated the guardians who were always there for them, the Elements of Harmony, but us ,due to the great forces of my children and their alwys existent and strong magical power wich begins to leak through in the foaly-age-time, they began to my children bad when they were foalys, one day they have injured Two of them very bad and if they were mortal , almost kill them , Jetfire and Lumena, means Sonicia Firestorm, Element of Fire and you Ditzy Doo, they abused you and they slayed you numb and unconsious for years, but luckily you had survived but you had been sturcked by amnesia since they slayewd off your horn, I am not sure if it was due to the heavy injuries or if it was the body who wants you to forget about the pain you had to go through , or it was only as an defending reaction of your body, but all in all you forgot about all of your powers, after your old “Parents” has been arested, princess Celestia has agreed to send you next time to an old friend of herself, this was your Mother Ditzy, the last one you had, she was an Oracle in the Cathedral of light, the temple of yourself, where now the most of your powers sleeps to recover there own forces, there sleeps your Magical orb as well as the Angel core, till now you were only a god-pony without memories or knowledge about its power, your mother has been an oracle to pray and to guard the powers of you, when you were old enough she would have told you everything and give you your powers back, but by the last attack of the Elements of Chaos, in an attempt to manage to travel through the portal to Nestrells prison, the cathedrale has been destroyed and well I think you know your Mothers story, she has been missed since the.
We had then a talk with Princess Celestia but we decided to leave it the way it was and didn´t give you new parents , also because you don´t need new parents until this Millenium is over again, which will be in 32 years, so still enough time for you, but now we have a problem because we have become a urgent mission from Princess Celestia, it seems that the Diamond dogs population has increased dramaticaly, and new creratures , uknown till today rises, also has it give some news from insiders, that some of the Elements of Chaos began to rise again, and the outbreak of Discord as well as Nightmare moo, means Luna , possesed by Nightmare, all these cases can be used as an trustworthy message, Nestrell begins to break out of his weakened prison, his dark influence begins to rise the old dark long lost and forgotten races back, and that they were to much for the guardians to handel, it doesent last long and they will attack again, so we need to get all the elements back together, in the tower of Dantoras, or like you guys called it, The Black bastion, Valhalla of This world, but before we need to get your powers back, I will send you one of the elements as an mentor for that time, he will help you to find the other elements and your own powers, but beware this journey will be dangerous for sure, the more elements you have the more of a chance you can have, try your best to make new friends who can help you on this way, so you will be able to find your powers, but beware, on you way there will be much dangerous and evil quest to master and the villains will seriously try to defeat you before you will be able to get your powers and the other elements, better you prepare for the worst , its time that you say goodbye to the world you live in, and its time to say goodbye to your closest friends and your beloved, to go on with this mission, we need to save this world or Nestrell will win this Game for sure, all depends on holding him closed in until we find a possibility to finally destroy and defeat him , to erase him and to set him Checkmate !” She told me and I was buff, my mouth hang on the ground, so that was what she meaned with , waking up from the dream, you old life has been, but how can I do that, how can I leave my family Carrot top and Dinky, how can I simply leave from this town I lived in for years now.
“Can you appear or make me seing you somehow, just to proof, that I am not already way too insane for the outter world!” I asked.
“I will do my best, wait a moment!” the voice said, I waited, five minutes later I saw a tiny light sphere infront of my eyes, it was tiny and like gas but it seemed compact, it had something lookinf like wings, suddenly the sphere flies in the middel of the room and begins to raise until it takes the shape of an angel with 8 wings, which I only know out of an old picture book my mom once has shown me when I was an young foaly, as much as I remember, it was not very good to see but it has the shape of those creatures we call humans, out of an other dimension, as Twillight always tells me.
“I´m sorry but this is all I can do by now, like I said it must being all the elements together to truly summone myself so I can fully appear, also because I have only limited forces for the moment!” Equestria said , I was totally mesmerized by the way she stand before me, cladded completly in white light, only the fine lines of her body were visible, but I can say that she was very beautifull, she looked at me with a warm smile.
“How old am I in reality!” I asked still dumbstrucked, honestly I could now being called a real dumb for believing her but I, have the gift to see through masquerades pretty well, so I know that this words where all true.
“you are since now, 6.968 years old!”
And that gave me the rest, I blacked out in my bed.
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“Momy?” I heard it coming from my side, I opened the eyes and I felt a soft touch and a light pressure on my stomach, I began to fully wake up and to rub the sleep out of my eyes.
“Dinky?” I aksed before I took away my hands and looked in the face of my beloved daughter.
“Good Morning, Momy, how are you doing?” She asked me and I smiled, I picked her up and nuzzled our noses together and pecked her on her forehead.
“I´m fine, now that I saw you, honey, how are things going?” I asked her worieddly, but she laughed and smiled and she was happy.
“I´m fine too Momy, Carrot top cares about me, she is here too!” Dinky says and she raced out of the door and came back with my oldest true friend, Carrot Top , back in.
“Hello Ditzy, how are you doing!” she asked me and I smiled up to her.
“I´m fine, and you, no problems at home?!” I asked but she shaked the head in no.
“Not at all, Dinky is a real Angel!” The moment she said the Word Angel, it mades me remembering on what had happened last night.
“Yes she is really one ,uhmm hey Carrot top, do you think you can get Twillight Sparkel and Spike over here, I need to ask them something!” I got strange looks by both of them, but Carrot simply nodded.
“I will see what I can do okay, but for now you need to rest, so good day , I need to get Dinky in the school see ya, later when I have time okay!” she said and I got one last hug from both of them.
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“It´s boring here!” I said with crossed arms, sitting upright in my bed zapping throug the songs on my new I-pony, Vinyl Scratch has brought over as she came to visit, she knows how much I love music and she has been a good friend too, maybe not as much as Carrot but still, she , Lyra, and Octavia always has been my favourite music trio, some nurses coming in to check on the instruments, it has been a while now since Twillight had been gone to send a letter to Princess Celestia, sure as a mailmare I should have been proud to use a normal way but first, it was better than being attested of being insane, when they read the letter here in the hospital, and second I need answers, quick, I chuckled a bit when I remember the whole conversation with Twilight.
A few hours ago:
“Hey Derpy, sorry but spike wasn’t there for the moment but he will come home late anyway, well , Carrot top says you need to ask me something, what can I do for you!” Twillight asked me, okay well now I am sure she doesent really care that much for my state I am in or else she at least could have asked how I am doing, but I simply need to ask a few question so I don´t mind, for now.
“Well I need answers on some questions I have, and since you are Princess Celestia´s best and beloved student I think you are just right to get me the wished answers!” I said with such a dertermination that it begans to confuse Twillight.
“Uhmm Derpy, what exactly are you trying to say?” She asked but I hated it, this name and the way she simply ignored my mood right now, was just too much.
“Would you mind if you just please stop TO FRICKEN CALLING ME DERPY; CAN YOU PLEASE DO THAT FOR ME?!?!” I yelled at her and she jumped a few meters back, scared by my outrage.
“Uhmm sure , ah, how shall I call you then?” She asked embarassed and blushing, it brought me over the edge and I losed it.
“YOU DON´T EVEN KNOW MY FUCKING NAME; HOW CAN YOU, AM I´M SO UNINTERESTING THAT YOU ARE NOT EVEN ABLE TO KNOW MY REAL NAME,, HASN´T YOUR FRICKEN BOOKS IN YOUR LIBRARY NO NAMESLIST; WELL IF YOUR FINE BOOKS IN YOUR FINE LIBRARY NEVER HAD TOLD THIS TO YOU; MY NAME IS DITZY DOO ,FOR HELLS SAKE!” I screamed and I saw her being afraid for her life but I was angry, I mean hello I know her now since Years and she never had the intentions of searching for my real name, no one, not anyone but Carrot and Dinky, and even Doctor Whooves ever had called me by my real name, for everypony in this dumb Town, I am only Derpy hooves, the Derp, the mare who can´t look straight ahead, the mailmare with the wall eyes, the idiot of ponyville, the one everypony, but my closest friend and my dauhgter, can make fun of, I hated it and I hated it here where everypony always look down on me, in the whole time I live here in pony ville, Carrot, the Doc and Dinky were the only one who calls me right, my name seemed to be not much to care about, so they yust invent a new name and think I will suck it up and deal with it that I am the new town derp, as if I couldn´t doing anything but being dumb, as if I not always tries everyday to act as normal as I could, cant they see how hard it is form me to live as normal as I can for my daughter to not embarrass her, to make my job and giving her life a perspective, isn´t that good enough , do I really need to be calling names from others who said that I am their friend, well if this is what they call friendship, I would be glad if they just leave me alone with my real friends and my daughter, it isn´t enough that my Daughter is a bastardchild, I don’t even know who get me pregnant with her, as much as I could remember I suddenly was pregnant , I think it was after a party or Pinkie Pie, I don’t know what happened but the next week I was suddenly pregnant with Dinky, even thought I never regret it, I really would like to know who is the actual father, and if I got raped or if I said yes to an act of love I cant remember.
“Umm, im very sorry if I hurt your feelings, I just thought that this where your name!” She said and I was sad, she didn´t even knew I wasn´t being called like that, I am sure that came from someone bad who spread this name and with time the people seemed to have forgotten, that I am called completely other and that I am not dumb.
“Yes that is always the excuse, no one knows my real name anymore, for everypony I am only the Derp, Derpy Hooves the Mailmare with the Wall-eyes, no one knows anymore Ditzy Doo, the kind mailmare of the neighborhood, the one who tries to be normal and the one who always failed every singel day of my life, but not anymore, this will stop from today on, now that I know the truth , I don’t belong here, I never had, and I never will, so tell me this Twillight, if you can´t remember my name , can you at least tell me who is Equestria?” I asked to a shocked Twillight, it lasted five minutes before she answered.
“Umm our world we living in I guess!” She said shyly.
“I know for a fact that our world is called so but who has created this world!” I asked , I want someone to told me that I don’t have losed my mind.
“It has been Princess Celestias Father!” Twillight says to me suspicious.
“And who else!?” I asked annoyed.
“Her mother I guess, why do you asking me that!?” She said much more suspicious on what I want to come out.
“And what´s with the Angel Equestria!?” I asked her, and I saw now the most shocked face she ever had made in her life, she paled until she was almost white coated.
“How do you know that, this is highly, over topped topsecret!” She whispered to me, coming closer to me.
“I had saw her last night!” I said flatly and again Twillight was shocked.
“That is impossible, no one can see her , she is everywhere, she is the goodness who held this dimension and world together, you can´t have seen her!” She said almost stuttered it, she was shacking .
“Oh but I did Twillight Sparkel, and she told me a bit of some real secrets last night and I wanted to know what was true or if I already loosed my mind, but by the real shock on your face, I think I can clearly say it is true!” I said with a winning grin.
“So tell me now everything you know about her and the Elements of Equestria, the Elements of Symphony, and don´t you dare to let out any part of it or you will see how much this Derp can do to you, and im sure It wouldn´t be bright and beautiful, got it!” I growled with dripping venom and threated her with a slicing over the throat, I saw her paling, till she was white like a sheet of paper but she came shaking closer to me.
And so she began to tell me everything she knew, she told me that the Elements of Symphony are the official ruler over the forces which held this world together, the Keepers are called after their Element: Jetfire for the Element Fire, Aquania for the Element Water, Venturios for the Element Wind, Gaia for the Element Stone, Shockwave for the Element Sound, Esteel for the Element Metal, Floraya for the Element Nature, and Lumena for the Element Light, together with the Elements of Harmony they fight against the evil, Milleniums ago, the evil in person is the Demon dragon Nestrell, who former has been the Brother of the Angel Equestria before he became jealous of the Power of his sister, he always wanted to create a world for himself but could he only destroy the prototypes because he wanted them to be perfect, he saw all the worlds Equestria has created and they were perfect, bright and beautiful, Nestrell became angry and began to destroy the worlds his Sister has created, in order to defend the remaining last world, the world of us, she fight against her brother, who has token over the power of creation, which has been in every world Equestria has ever created, with the time he began to change his shape because the force has been too strong for him, from the once so beautiful dark Angelboy he transformed to an evil looking zombie Dragon, who bring out Discord, the deadly Mias sisters, the Black sheeps of the Dryade Shaman Clan, and much other evil spirits, even Nightmare Moon; in order to seal him away, Equestria gave up the power of her wings and created Eight Elements, in order to fight against her brother and his monsters, together with Celestias Father, their Mother, Celestia herself, Luna and Six Guardians , the Elements of Harmony they has been able to defeating the evil forces, but only Nightmare has managed to infect one of us, Princess Luna, we tried to heal her but it had no use, Nightmare has began to take over the control over her, and it don’t give us any other option, in order to save the freedom and on wish of Princess luna we banned her to the Moon, it wasn´t easy for their father and their mother, and especially not easy for Celestia, she has the most to suffer under the loss of her sister, well the further act with Luna is still in our bones I guess, I still remember when Nightmare moon broke out again after Princess Luna was back on earth.
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“I thank you Twillight, but now you need to make a letter to Princess Celestia, tell her that I know everything about my story and that I am about to go searching for my lost memories in order to find my own power and the other elements so we can save this world all over again, it has been long time that we had been united so I will go to search them, but someone needs to take care over Dinky because it will be dangerous for sure and I don´t want her to go with me to somewhere so dangerous, this is my faith , this is my journey I must go to get to know the whole truth behind my life!” I said to her and she nodded.
“I will do so directly, Ditzy!” It has been now the first day since I know her, that she called my real name.
“Thank you Twilligt and im sorry that I have screamed on you, I wasn´t right to do so, im truly sorry!” I said to her and I hug her.
“No I am sorry Ditzy , for not caring for your feelings!” She said with a soft expression, we talked a bit about this and that and soon she has to go home for dinner, but she said she will send the letter immediatly.
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It was night and I was again just about to sleep in, but this time I heard again something, but no voice this time, no it was a Flute, or at least it was kind of such a sound, I listen to this beautiful melody (Panflute Music), I stepped out on the balcony and i listen to this tone, so soft, beautiful and caring, I felt how the notes and the wind softly brushed against my cheeks and I felt tears streaming down my cheeks, I don’t know from where but I know this melody, I looked out in the darkness and suddenly I could see a falling star, a starfire shooting across the sky, quickly I wished me something , I wished the best for Dinky and Carrot, and I wished for answer on all my questions, and I wished for somepony to love me truly.
“I will come to hold you again in my arms , my love!” I heard someone whisper, or was it the wind, well it doesent matter but I just cried here in the wind strucken by emotions of pure love, care and sadness, but also by imessurable joy, I cried tears, tears of joy and of love , I walked back to my bed while letting the window open so I could hear this wonderfull melody, and I slowly began to fall asleep, I felt something on my cheek , it was like a kiss.
“I will come, soon we will be reunited my dear!”, the voice whispered and I smiled while my tears still keep streaming.