//------------------------------// // Celestia Damn it // Story: My Name isnt Crash // by NightmareTRXY32 //------------------------------// Derpy had always been awkward when she was younger. Her eyes used to be properly aligned when she was a filly and as she got older they had been more or less the same until junior flight school. She suffered an accident that caused her eyes to become misaligned later in life. She had struggled with a lot of things later on. Why was this so hard Rainbow thought to herself? She was usually cockier around other mares and her friends. Her recklessness had been toned down in recent years after certain events. During a magic experiment, while helping out Twilight, the two of them were exposed to an alternate reality where the two of them had gotten married after meeting for the first time. When they got back to their own reality the two mares could only stare at one another and wonder if there was a spark like that between them here. Twilight and Rainbow both decided not to overthink it for right now. They were just friends after all. The next few months would test that notion and push it beyond its breaking point. Especially when it came to a certain mail mare that used to know Rainbow back when they were small fillies. As Derpy and Rainbow stood next to each other, there was one thing on Rainbow's mind. she couldn't keep denying this any longer. After everyony else, even Spitfire had left and gone back to Cloudsdale, she turned to look into Derpy's eyes. "This is hard for me to say, Derpy," Rainbow exclaimed," But there's a reason I kept sticking up for you back then, buck, even now,", She could see something in those amber eyes, something that felt familiar. "What, what is it Dash?", Derpy was curious now, that was when Rainbow Dash leaned in. "I love you.", she said as she placed her lips on Derpy's. After the initial shock wore off, Derpy couldn't help but smile. It had taken Dash this long to confess to how she felt about the mare. Well, here she was in jail again, and still not letting it sink in that striking Dash was not the smartest thing that she should have done. LIghtning had pretty much ended any chance of getting back into the Wonderbolts by this point. She kept telling herself that she was trying to show Derpy the tough love that Dust's parents had shown her all her life. It didn't help that they had died when she was younger and had left the cloud house to her and her siblings. She smacked herself in the forehead with her left hoof. "Celestia damn it,", she muttered afterward. It wasn't the first time she been behind bars. The last time she had been here had been just after she had been escorted off of the Academy grounds. Soarin had been one of the Wonderbolts that escorted her off the tarmac, and for a reward Dust smacked him in the face with her left wing. "Not smart Lightning," he had scolded. "eat my Cloud trails,", Dust muttered under her breath before she decided to just spit back at him. " Like i need you giving me life choice advice,", she retorted. "What you need Lightning, is a good hoofslap right up side the head,", she could hear the hostility in his voice. "Take it from someone that used to date Rainbow Dash, she's better off now then she used to be,", he told Dust while he escorted her to the jail cell. Soon after she had found herself sitting in a jail cell in Cloudsdale. All she could do was think of how she was gonna get back at Rainbow Dash. And now after all of that time she had still never learned her lesson from back then. It finally started to creep in, maybe she wasn't Wonderbolt material at all. Maybe she was a failure. No, Lightning thought to herself, I am not a failure. She knew full well where ' Failures' ended up. And that was not the place she wanted to eventually end up seeing. The one place that frightened not only small pegasi, but even Wonderbolt trainees. A Place that was operated outside of the jurisdiction of the Weather Factory. She had to get her life straightened out soon, or she was bound to keep making the same mistake over and over. For one of the first times in her life Lightning Dust was going to have to swallow her own stubborn pride and accept the fact that Dash was right. That her actions had endangered the lives of others and that she had put herself over that of her fellow ponies and the other cadets at the Academy. They released her from the cell when she told the guard that she had learned her lesson. He looked her over before deciding she was being honest with him. It was almost like there was a storm raging inside of her. And in the midst of that storm she could see a singular path. Lightning had to admit to herself that she had to seek comfort in anothers hooves. She had always been a loner for most of her life. She never wanted to feel the pain of being hurt again, so she cut herself off from others. The only other one that she looked after was her brother Sky Stinger. After their parents had passed away, they were left taking care of the house and the finances. She never told him what really happened regarding the Wonderbolts Academy. One of these days she would have to sit his flank down and explain it to him. She had become a bit of a drunk after that incident. She never really got over it. It was more then just Rainbow being her Wing pony. Dust looked at her reflection in the Jail Cell's window and understood that she was in love with the mare. She wanted Rainbow's flank to herself. Back at the Academy she and Dash were showering together after a few times on the training course and she couldnt get that sight out of her mind. Seeing the water glide off of the mare's wings and her back seemed to turn Lightning Dust on. Before she could say anything the bell rang that signaled it was time for the final exam test. Everything in her life went to Tartarus after that. She could barely hold down a normal job. She was constantly getting into fights with other ponies and still in the back of her mind, was that scene in the Locker room. And the one mare that seemed so far out of her reach that it nearly drove her nuts just recalling it. She had to tell Rainbow how she really left. She didnt care if it damaged what anypony else thought of her.