Dear Princess Luna,
Thank you.
My waste bin is full of false starts: Long-winded gratitude, nervous anecdotes, and I think I even tried to crack a bad ex-villain joke at one point?
Then I remembered something Twilight once told me. "Successful relationships can be boiled down to three things: Patience, communication, and simplicity." I thought she was joking with the last one. Simplicity? Like her mile-long lists? But... I think what she means is, simplicity is without conceit. It's true that feelings can get complicated and tangled, but how do you solve the worst knots? Go back to the beginning and move carefully forward. All you have to do is follow the thread. Simple.
I am grateful for your last letter, so I say, "Thank you!" and leave it at that.
Though I guess I already failed that, huh? Twilight says simplicity is a lifelong pursuit. That's one big knot if you ask me!
As for forgiving myself... It's strange. I can hardly recognize the pony in the mirror most days. I want so badly to forget the things I've done, but that just leads to repeating mistakes. I visit my foalhood friend Sunburst on the weekends, and he picks my brain about how I traveled through time. I'm happy to share the knowledge, but it digs up bad memories. I have nightmares of the wasteland Twilight showed me.
At the risk of sounding rude, your choices led to one possible bad future. In my case, my choices very nearly led to all of them.
Though I guess to soften the harshness of that fact, Sunburst claims time is a linear track, and even though the futures changed depending on how I tried to change history, only one of them could have been possible. Meaning none of them were since Twilight talked me out of it. But then Dr. Hooves, a resident here at Ponyville, argued vehemently that from a non-linear, non-subjective viewpoint, time is more like a big ball of wibbly-wobbly, timey-wimey stuff. Meaning I guess that all the futures could have been true? And are? I'd bring it up with Twilight, but I can only handle so many lectures in a week.
Still Grateful And Wishing All The Best,
Starlight Glimmer