//------------------------------// // Chapter 12: One Makes Two... // Story: Letting Go // by RoccoRoccs //------------------------------// Letting Go Chapter 12: One Makes Two Rocco Roccs Ending of this chapter was written to the song 'Kiss from a rose' (cover) by Wake Me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lS6YGF_IwIk "Sweet Luna's ASS!" I screamed as I stubbed my hoof on the same hallway end table that I somehow managed to find... Again... For the twelve time. "Hunny!? Remind me why we need this STUPID thing again?" "Because it's cute! It finishes off the hallway well!" Whistles sung her words as sweet as she could knowing I hated this infernal thing. "It's about to be in a million cute little pieces if I hit it again..." "Hey! It did nothing to you... It's been there the whole time, you are the one that keeps bumping into it." I screwed up my face at the thought that where she was in fact right, It was painfully apparent that our new home was booby trapped. Who puts something like this right outside their bedroom!? I have smashed into the thing every morning since we moved in. It nearly killed us both on our wedding night! You can barely trot, let alone carry a mare on two legs while trying your best to have sex on your way to HAVE sex with out smashing into everything! "Yeah well..." I grumbled as I trotted into our living room. The apartment we have bought was, in a word, nice. Well, ok... It was the nicest home I had ever been in to be honest. But everything still felt surreal, like at any moment it would all disappear and I would wake up from this dream. A beautiful home, a beautiful bride and a beautiful veiw of the ocean to enjoy together. Not to mention the sun was just beginning to set as I had woke up from my nap, painting the room in amber and blue on our white walls and floors. Granted, city life was a far cry from Cloudsdale, let alone ponyville. Everypony was in such a hurry for everything! It was like they left home and forgot that it was also on fire at the time and they couldn't go home until they got everything done. The shopping is good though... I found SO many hoodies! Everything from Wonderbolts hoodies to Hoofington Reapers hoodies! The former I now own nearly seven of. I don't even like hoofball, but their hoodies just look so freaking cool! Whistles was taking to the change rather well, all things considering. She still likes to stay home and doesn't venture out further than the downstairs mailbox without me by her side. I can't say I blame her, plenty of crime in the city, something neither of us had considered when we left. I would guess that two young ponies with plenty of bits to spend stick out like a sore hoof in this town, but we were slowly taking to the town well. Whistles still has night terrors and still can not sleep without me by her side at night. She says that even with Rain behind bars, she still feels like he is near by. I can't blame her for that even one bit. Had I had to endure what she went through... I don't even want to start down that dark road, I know if I do I will end up getting all pissed off over something that I can't control. Sure he was out of our lives for good, but with him in jail and not anything short of dead, he was still in Whistles life. He was like a tumor that refused to disappear, tormenting her until he was gone from this world. He went as far to write us once. Just once. I received the message that had been forwarded by the shop when they collected our mail. You would think it would be dripping with remorse for what he did all those years, maybe even a touch regretful for how he treated me. You would be wrong too. If anything he hated the two of us and blamed us both for what happened to him, rather himself. But being the changed pony I was, I took the time to write him back several times. I told him how I knew all about what he had done to Whistles and how sick and depraved I though how raping his own daughter was. Just to be sure I sent it to his cell number, the one next to it and the other ten or so on that block. But I wanted to make sure he got it for sure so I also sent an extra to the guard post and asked that it be read to him in case he was throwing them away. That was months ago now and I have yet to get the first reply from him. Talk about rude. I might not be able to reach out and give him the hug I feel he needs, but maybe a caring inmate will. There really was no need to tell Whistles I had wrote him, it would just worry her more. But with any luck it would be the last time either of us would hear from him. She has enough to deal with from therapy twice a week without her very problem being apart of her life again. It wasn't a fix, but it was a start. As I had promised before, I might not be able to fix her problems, but I can try and try like hell I will. I owe her so damn much that it worries me that one day she will figure it out, but what scares me to death is that she says that she owes me so much more. How do you tell a pony that it was all worth it in the end, how do you tell them it was nothing at all to help shoulder their problems and have them believe it. I already married her, what more could I do to show her that I loved her through it all? Don't get me wrong, our relationship is perfect in every way apart from the two of us still working through our emotional problems. I guess I don't really know how to put it into words, everything just feels 'perfectly flawed' in its own beautiful way. Then again, I once read that 'we are attracted to ponies for their traits, but we love them for their defects'. Maybe that's what it is, maybe when you take two perfectly broken ponies like us and put them together, you have one good relationship. She is the light to my dark, she showed me the world could be happy again after I spent the last few years of my life in my own dark pit of sorrow. Her love was what brightened my world and helped me find a way out. I was the key to her lock, the pony who unlocked the door to her hiding place and let her out. But neither of us could have made it out without the other. To say that fate has a way of carrying you right to the place you need to be in life is a understatement. "Hunny? Are you going to watch the sunset with me?" Whistles said to me, breaking my silent reverie. Great, somethings never change, I bet she thinks I'm a lunatic just staring off into space. "Yeah-yeah... I was just thinking is all. I said as I trotted out onto our deck. "You were doing that thing again. Are you ok?" She asked as I laid down beside her on the porch. It wasn't a cloud, but everywhere was a cloud when I was with her. "Yeah... I was just thinking about... well, everything. You know, it's been a weird couple of months." I said with a sigh. "Hey..." She started by wrapping her hooves around me. "It's all over now. We have a life now! We can relax!" "I am... I guess I just need sometime to adjust to everything. All the stress and... worries. I need some time to let go of what all happened." "So long as that letting go does not involve me, then I won't hurt you too bad." "You!? Hurt me?" I said with a laugh. "Whistles I'm twice your size." "Not all hurt comes from hooves..." Oh... that's what she meant. I thought we were going to be playful, well, screwed that up. "Hey! I didn't mean too..." I started, but was frozen by feathers tickling me between my hind legs. "H-HEY!" "HA! Got ya!" Damn it, that was like the fifth time she did that! "No, com'on, seriously? What are you worried about?" "I guess... I just don't want to end up alone again." "Casky... I'm never leaving you. I swear to you that I will be here until we are both gone, even then, I plan to be with you in the Everafter." "I know, I guess I'm just worried i'm going to screw this all up some how." "You can't. I won't let you." She said giving my neck a nuzzle. "I don't know, maybe it's time we went on vacation. You know we never got to have a honeymoon." "OH! Can we go to the beach!?" "Babe, we basically live on the beach..." I said smugly. "No a real beach! Like down south! One with sand and sun and mmmm! Warm weather! I have never been to a place like that!" "You mean someplace like White Saddle Shores?" "OH! YES-YES-YES! Oh Caskade! You know how I have always wanted to go there! Canwe-canwe-huh-canwe-canwe!" Whistles shouted as she began to crawl all over me. "YES! For Luna's sake yes! Please just stop crushing me!" "Oh please... I'm half your size! Can we go!?" She said with more enthusiasm than when I had asked her to marry me. "YES-YES-YES! Please stop! You're tickling me! I'm going to pee myself!" "YAY!" She shouted as she came to a rest on my chest, nose to nose with me. "I'll call the travel agent tomorrow morning and get us two tickets to White Saddle." I said as I wrapped my hooves around her. "Yeah... About that..." She started as her expression grew nervous. Great, what was it this time... She wanted to fly there, didn't she! I hate flying that far! It's not the flight there, it's the flight back! It sucks flying back from the very place you don't want to leave! "Whistles, I'm not flying all the way there..." "No... Not that... I want to take the train, you know I'm partial to it after you proposed to me on it." "Then what could it be then?" I asked with with a stroke of her mane. "Better make that... three... tickets." She said while hiding her muzzle in my chest fluff that she had created. "I thought you didn't want to talk to your mom any more." I said in confusing. "No, you know I don't. Casky... hunny..." She said with her eyes just peeking out above my fur. "Well if you don't want her to come then why do we... need... three... three-three-three-three-" "Casky..." "Three-three-three-three." I was stammering. No, there was no way... No... way... "W-when!?" I stammered out once more. I didn't mean to! I just wanted to have some fun with my wife on our first night as a married couple! What would this mean for her!? Celestia knows she had problems with her father, now I was going to be one, and of her own foal! Would she be scared that I would turn out like Rain!? Would she get scared and run back to her mother!? Would she be able to handle this!? "Our wedding night." She said as she attempted to bury her face into my chest." I was going to be... A DAD! Like HAVE a foal!? What in the... I can't even... What if I'm a bad father!? What if I mess this all up!? What if... IF! "H-How..." Oh no this is so bad! What if she didn't want to be a mother and here I am just cramming babies in her! What have I done!? "Casky... Are you mad?" Her big blue eyes caught just the right ray of sun light to bring me out of my stooper of a train of thought. She was scared, worried and nervous just like I had seen the first time I had ever seen her. Oh no, I really screwed up... Com'on Cask... Fix this! "No... I... I'm so-so sorry I made you pregnant." I said burying my hooves into my face. "But... Why are you sorry?" She said as she pulled them away. "Babe... I... your dad... me being a dad..." I started but was getting choked up with all the emotions hitting me at once. But she knew just how to stop all of it. Without thinking she pressed her lips to mine and kissed me. Who knew a pony could do so much with just a simple kiss, but coming from her, to could clear the skies of every cloud for miles. "I'm happy." She said as our lips parted. Oh thank Celestia! I thought I had broke her! She damn near broke me! "How long have you known!?" I said almost out of breath. Was I having a panic attack? No, I had just forgot to breath there for the last... few... evers. "About a day. I just didn't know how to tell you. I was so worried you would be mad at me! Oh! I feel so stupid! I knew you would be happy too, but I was worried that you would... you know... react like my... dad." Oh hell... Well, I was nearly right. I wasn't the one worried, she was. "Hey..." I said pulling her in close. "You don't know it yet... But you just made me the happiest buck in all of equestria." "Really!?" Shouted in excitement. "Really-really. I'm scared, but I'm so freaking excited right now!" I said with a mile wide grin. I was going to be a dad! A actual father! "I love you Casky." She said as she laid her head upon my chest and cuddled up to me. There, on a balcony over Manehatten, it happened again. She found another way to surprise me that I never saw coming. I guess it's true what they say, you never know what you want until you get it. I never knew I wanted to be a dad, but here I was, about to be one and I could not be more excited. It was a chance to start a family, a chance to fix what was broken and a chance to be happy all over again. As we watched the sun set together, I couldn't help but think back to the first time we met. There is no way I would have ever seen something like this coming even in a million years, it was just too random. But again, fate has a funny way of sneaking up on you like that, one second you are sad, then some out of the blue happens to change everything. I was already thinking of names and praying for a little filly. One thing was for sure, whatever it turned out to be, I was going to hold onto my little family and I was never letting go.