Samudra's Journal

by vren55


Entry 44: Why the dreams?

I think it’s Yoth-Atal… the dreams… I’m not sure, but I can’t do any more study. These nightmares… they are far, far more deadly than the hallucinations and false sensations.

In this one, I woke up and it seemed like a normal day. I wrote in my diary, I chatted to Starswirl, everything seemed fine.

Nothing seemed to go wrong. There was absolutely nothing that seemed off or that seemed like a dream.

At least, until I took a trip to the abyss where we did suspect Yoth-Atal was. I can’t remember why, I think I had to examine it because there was volcanic activity nearby that only I with my powers could seal. Thus I had to go and examine it.

I had decided to be lazy, I was being carried in my palanquin by several of my Myrmidon guards for the journey as we skirted the Abyss. For once, it actually seemed less forbidding than usual.

At least, until they lost their grip.

I tumbled into the Abyss, deep into the dark, where I began to succumb to the extreme pressures of the deep. I called upon my magic, my powers, to try to reinforce my body and summoned currents in a desperate attempt to whisk me from the Abyss.

But nothing worked, I tumbled into the dark. I couldn’t see my hooves, and all I could here was a great… indescribable muttering… or was it chanting? I’m not sure, I don’t quite remember.

Then I woke up and well… I knew it had been a dream.

Except I hadn’t actually woken up. The moment I turned and looked, I was over the Abyss.

And there, I fell, darkness swallowing me, the light just gone. My flippers disappearing in front of me.

Only after that, did I finally wake up, with my servants yelling at me.

By this point, I was getting desperate. I had written in my diary, but couldn’t find the entry. So I… well I wrote a nonsensical message to Starswirl. Just a bunch of words scorched into a page and weird symbols.

It didn’t work. I just “woke up” again and again, and every time I wrote more and more to Starswirl, desperate, disillusioned.

So this time, when I woke up, I saw his confused response and realized that well, I had actually woken up.

Unfortunately, Starswirl had been very concerned. I… I barely remember my state of mind, and the writing I did was quite ilegible, but I mentioned Yoth-Atal, who back then, in my delusional state, I had been sure was responsible for this.

I still suspect she is… but I have no proof and I have to explain things to one really confused pony.