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// Entry 41: A No-Win Scenario 
// Story: Samudra's Journal 
// by vren55 
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Starswirl has given me an… ultimatum, a no win scenario and I… damnit.

He’s refusing to help me with my hallucinations unless I tell him what the hell is in that Abyss. That’s not the only problem though. He’s tried to go down the damn Abyss himself! If only to satisfy his curiosity! That suicidal pony has already tried twice! I’m not sure if it was just to force my flipper, but whatever it is… I… I don’t want him to endanger himself because of my secrets.

So I sent him away and told him that I couldn’t tell him, at least, not right now. That really infuriated him, and I don’t like that I had to protect him in this way.

Still, what he and I have found… or did not find, could suggest that Yoth might be behind my hallucinations, my false hearings and the sensations that I feel.

But why? These hallucinations and sensations don’t debilitate me. Alright they do sometimes, but they hardly incapacitate me. They haven’t driven me insane. I’ve grown to expect them and they came so often that if we are right, then Yoth’s allowed us to pinpoint that she is the cause.

I suppose… one reason is that we can’t really do much. Yoth is sealed and cannot escape. Despite my power, I do not dare go into the Abyss lest I myself be corrupted. And besides, what can I do to further that seal? The Creator herself bound Yoth and according to what Panthalussa told me, bound her even more thoroughly than Shi-Nihalar. I can’t further increase that seal with my magic. She’s stuck there.

Damnit. I don’t know if Yoth-Atal even is the cause. The area that Starswirl plotted is a rough one, done by estimation. It might be that someone decided to throw us off by framing Yoth. She is the most likely culprit, but we can’t even do anything to her even if she is the culprit.

The mystery is as deep as ever before and I have no way to put it to rest.