(A/N: HEY people! thanks to a certain freind, who in a way was also the cause of my continuing personal self issues, they have convinced me to continue with this story...mainly becaues they wanted more "SILVERSHY!" as she called it...so anyways hope you guys still are reading and enjoy!
(Oh and there are going to be changes to how the story is gonna be done...starting with the first SILVER journal chapter! they will be used occasionally in place of normal chapters)
Silver Journal Entry: # 1- changes
TWO MONTHS SINCE ENTERING EQUESTRIA
Thought i would start keeping a journal of this place, you know, for if i ever do get home and need proof of this place or for a memorable item to keep. Fluttershy has offered me a place to stay for my time here, i accepted her offer gladly
umm...dont tell anypony, but i think her little rabbit is a bit evil...really.
He always give me this look like he's jugding weather to kill me while im sleeping or when im alone...
anyways.
Blue keeps teasing me saying that im just not a rabbit person and im just a scaredy pony, which i sorta agreed with.
Oh about Blue, she's been acting really really different lately! I dont know what it is but....she's starting to act like she is somepony else entirely!
She was always a very social and outgoing person, but lately she's been making herself practicly 100% busy...she got a job making art for ponies to buy in Ponyville. Her art is really really good, awsome even! but i think she purpously takes on alot to keep herself busy...or to cover her flank...
I tried to talk with her one day, since she worked out of twilights tree house i thought it would be easy to talk with her...boy was i wrong...
When i entered the library it looked empty, desserted. Twilight and Spike were out meeting with the ruling princesses, Celestia and Luna, which explained why they werent there.
When i went in to look for Blue however...i got more than i wanted...
Behind one of the bookshelves i saw a different Blue than before...she was a silvery blue coated mare with a black and red tipped shaggy mane and a black dog tag like necklace. She was making out with another pony while cuddling up to him...A STALLION! Since when did Blue go for males?
I didnt stay to ask her...when i saw them, i felt...cheated. i felt angry, devistated, lied to...but most of all....heartbroken.
I knew i still liked Blue, even when we were still human, but having seeing her with a stallion, who to me looked like he was hiding something bad, crushed my heart...
I came back to Fluttershy's cottage in tears, unable to stop them from coming out, and just cried. Fluttershy was shocked to see me like that...but she just held me, and i clung to her like my life depended on it. i cried into the crook of her neck while she stroked the back of my mane with her hoof and rocked gently back and forth.
While she held me, it felt...perfect...like she was what i needed to get rid of the sadness...i think she may have had a similer experiance before...
I eventually tired out, and fell asleep in her arms. Fluttershy had fallen asleep as well, we both woke up cuddled together on her couch in the living room, quickly fallowed by both of us blushing madly and scrambling to untangle ourselves.
Nothing eventfull had happened since then, which was a few days ago...i havent gone back to the library yet, have mainly stayed inside the cottage...Fluttershy had told me that one way to help get rid of my sad feelings was to mabye write down my thoughts, she was right i think. Anyways...if its me who reads this in the future, hope your feeling better and are happy.
Not really sure how to end these, so umm...bye? sorry
JOURNAL END