"Now your highness, why don't we try this again?"
"Aght, do we really need to have this? What else do you need to know? I told you, I'm a broken man, lie, betrayed, and train to be nothing but the perfect weapon. What else is there to talk about?"
"I'm honestly don't know your highness, that is why I'm asking. Please, I'm assure you this is a safe place nothing you say will leave this room" I sigh frustration as I lean on the sofa I was currently on. After my little…lets call it 'fallout' it was pointless to try and hide things for mom, it was hard enough keeping the act, now that she has proved that I really needed help, she will not leave me alone until I came clean, so although not without some final resistance I finally gave in and told them all about my nightmares, the type of training I had and even how at nights, unless I go to lure the hallways sleep doesn't come easy. Needless to say they took it as I expected they would.
Aunt Luna took upon herself to visit my dreams first before making her routes and each tree hours come to check if everything was ok, all well and good although poping and going so frequently result in one awkward dream that both of us swear will never talk about it. As for mom…well it was a war of negotiation, reassurance and cake (don't ask) until we both came to a solution that would put her poor heart at rest and leave me some space to breath. In other words now. If I agree to go see a psychologist twice a week she will back down from spooning me at night in her quote on quote 'Therapeutic mother love'. I mean, sure it can be a bit nice to have company and I really miss my mom, plus her wings can be very soft and fluffy, but there is a reason moms don't do that after their kids are like 12 or 13.
My sessions aren't all that bad but after the first introductions and brief exploration of my mind things have gotten a bit more difficult to talk about.
After sighing in resignation I decided to just come clean and start to talk "Tell me Miss Practice, have you ever experience the 'start again' situation? Like for example the new kid on the block that needs times to absorb what is happening around him when his family decided to move. Or start in a new school?"
"I believed I have, my father was a wonder bolt so we actually move quiet frequently"
"Then that experience multiply a thousand folds might be what I'm going throw. When I was born, I was nothing but a normal human, in a nuclear family. Life was boring sure but it was safe and sometimes kind. Then in one single night, all of what I knew was whisk away by a car accident, experience death was a roller coaster of emotions on its own but before I could have embrace it. I was took and transform for the queen of the changelings"
"I bet that probably was to much to take in"
"That is to put it lightly. For the first days I couldn't believed my own eyes, my mother who die years ago just suddenly welcoming to join her not in the after life but in…agh I don't even now what to call this"
"Well technically its a new fresh start so it could be call that too your highness"
"Whatever it might be, it was huge, and I…well I was happy. I feel horrible for saying this but my life, my human life was something I constantly fought to fit in, even when I was with my friends I somehow felt like I didn't belong, like I was a misfit in that world" I clench my fist with force as my magic appear turning red. "And that Ogre"
"Wait I'm sorry did you say Ogre?" The therapist say with some confusion.
"A…stupid low life scumbag that claimed to be my…father"
"I see" She say starting to write that down. "Something tell me that you and him…"
"No we didn't, I…I suppose it was blame on both of us, I try to reach him and made peace multi times but each times I dared to lower my guard he would simple crush me and betray me with a smile thinking it was just 'funny'" The magic glow brighter. "The bastard didn't even call me by my name, prefer to simple refer to me as 'thing' under the pretext 'oh its just what in means in other language, so its ok!'" I yell in frustration.
"Prince Caeruleo" Looking at her I notice how I was levitating things on the room and my magic was gradually increasing the temperature on it to the point when the magazining in the desk were staring to be set on fire. Oddly enough my therapist, Dr. Prime Practice a light purple pegasus with formal cloths and librarian glasses was complete unfazed by my display as she too was levitating from her chair. Realising what I was doing I stop my spell and put everything down.
"I'm sorry"
"Don't have to, it come with the job, plus I have give your mother some session so I'm familiar with 'heaten' situations"
"Je no wonder she recommended you"
"Anyway you were saying?"
"Oh yeah, well with all that in mind and 'him' as part of the deal, making the jump into another life was actually a very easy decision. I was even giving the option of be some kind of super hero and defend a land that I until recently though it was my new, new home"
"Interesting, so you were happy during your training in the hive?"
"In a way…yeah, sure the session where harsh and even brutal at times but for the first time in my life I felt like, my family really listen to me and I was included on it rather than be the 'special case' that needs to be dealt carefully and talk in a way that not hurt his feelings"
Practice stop what she was doing so she could see me again "Did your human family never took seriously?"
I simple nod before continuing "It was hard, I knew they were only concern for my well being but the way they saw me, those eyes full of pity, no matter how many times I old them, they just keep staring at me with them. Not even realising how much did they hurt. I'm not even sure if they care" I say looking down "I know I know compare to millions other I got off extremely easy but that doesn't make the pain lesser"
"Nobody is judging you Caeruleo, just wanting to help. But I'm starting to realised why you were so willing to accept this world and even the lies of Queen Chrysalis"
"Yeah it was a dream come true, even with the price to pay I was feeling like I for the first time belonged somewhere…and then that happen"
"The invasion"
"Yeah, attacking the elements on its on was hard but then be betray by my sister and became a mockery once again? I bet they never really love me to begin with. That was the tip that overflow the cup, I was furious at everyone, I was thinking straight and barely had a will to lived at all"
Once more Practice stop but this time out of fear. "Prince, are you saying…"
"…Yes doctor, in that moment I really was prepare to just ended up, I was done with betrays, with lies and with pity" He say looking at her with a glare. "At least death is honest, so tell me doctor. After making peace with everything, and lose faith on everything, how do you expect me to just start everything again?"
"By taking the first step" She simple answer "I understand your situation a little better now prince, I'm truly sorry for what happen but there is no point for us to hold into the past. Doing so would just poison our minds and make us repeat the same mistakes" She smile and put her hand on my knee "Every pony deserve a second chance your grace, this opportunity might have come from an unexpected place but is yet an opportunity that you willingly took. All is forgiven and your family is want to give you a chance. Why don't you give it to yourself?"
For a moment I remain quiet contemplating what she says until I heard her wrist watch as an alarm on it went of and she quickly turn it off "I'm afraid our times is up"
We both stand up and I start to follow her to the entrance "Thanks for your help Dr. Practice"
"It was my pleasure prince Caeruleo, can I count to see you again next week?"
"I will be here first thing in the morning"
"Good now, no more talking about those dark though of I might have to reconsider princess Celestia treatment"
"Je you got it, I will try to stay positive"
"That is all I wanted to hear" I wave at her and went to the waiting room where an eager Pyra was waggling her tails with a happy bark "Je sorry to keep you waiting" I reach up and let her climb into my shoulder before we make our way throw out the hall.
Give myself a chance… I though as I look at my left shoulder, still feeling my stinger attach to it even though there was nothing there. Will it really be that easy?
At that moment in a underground fight club, in the heart of Manehattan
The sound of metal being hit echoes throw the room as Exsos keep using industrial barrels as punching bags, to practice. A large pile of destroy barrels lying in a corner while he continue his training, until a door behind him open and throw that Chitin walks in holding a grocery bag in one hand and a gag and tie up mare on the other.
"Exsos!" He yells to gain his attention before tossing the grocery bag at his face "Dinner"
Exxon take the bag and open it revealing a whole gouda cheese, and a red wine. "Cheese and wine?" He ask with a smirk and a raise eyebrow "What is the occasion? Do you intent to give the royal treatment to our 'guest'" He joke as Chitin move to a table and toss the mare on it. Before pulling out a knife "Don't be ridiculous" He start to cut her ties making her sprung her limbs like a spring and lay there breathless. Do to her be wearing a skirt and not caring of covering it. Both the changelings could see her panties smoking wet. "I already ate, that is to cover the smell" Chitin say opening a closet revealing a dozen coccuns all fill with mares in similar situation. and with a vein connecting them all into bucket being fill with a pink sustain.
"Oh so are going to make another one" Exsos laugh as he take a bite of the cheese "You are a sadist bastard Chitin" He tells as the barrel he was currently punching fall over and a broken and bloody hand fall off it as a stream of blood start to leak from it.
"That is rich coming from you" Chitin say looking at both the broken barrels and his last victims. "Another bar fight?"
"Je a rapist actually, the son of a bitch thought he could take…" Exsos transform into a fragile and small little earth pony mare with white fur and yellow mane with a soft female tune "…a little fragile mare" He exploit in laugher "Oh the look on his face when he saw the 'wrong equipment'. Just priceless!"
Chitin sigh and turn around to look at the mare "Seriously, with how many of them have you find I don't know if you are a committing a crime or a public service"
"Hey we all have to eat right?"
"Right" Chitin make his horn shine and get to work "Anyway I have good news" He levitate a news paper and give it to him. "It appear your wish was granted, you will have a chance to fight our dear old brother after all"
Exsos read the article on the paper before reaping it apart "He lives!?" In a strong swing he punch the barrel once more breaking in two "That little, good for nothing, back stabbing…"
"I know Exsos" Chitin say silence him with his magic before looking at him with a smile "But instead of bursting in rage, why don't we take this opportunity to our advantage" He tells before lifting the poor mare by the back of her neck and show it to Exsos "After all we still need to send him our thanks for that wonderful harmony cloud that keep us away"
Exsos smile once more and clean his bloody knuckles "Like I say a complete sadistic"