//------------------------------// // Despair // Story: The Mysteries of Love // by MysteriousStranger //------------------------------// Rarity's P.O.V. It was another gloomy day. My friends asked me to hang out with them after school, but I didn't feel like doing anything, so I politely declined their offer, telling them that I had plans with my sister. Again, I lied to them. I felt filthy for lying to my friends. A whole month passed since I told Trixie the truth. A month! My heart was suffering from being apart from Trixie. I missed talking to her, I missed her smile and her cheerfulness. I missed her so much. I could barely see her before she noticed me and walked away. It was like if she reverted back to how she was before we became friends. But my sister told me that she has been talking to her. She told me that Trixie was being kind to her. Maybe I still have a chance to make up with her. But it has been so long. I couldn't stand the agony anymore! I had to keep smiling for my friends and family but I'm losing my strength. I needed to speak to her. I have been close to calling her on the phone several times, but I had to respect her space. I ran out of ideas to distract myself from thinking about Trixie. Everything reminded me of her. I still saw her in school, biology classes reminded me of the time she helped me to pass an exam, I couldn't go for a walk because she's the reason I started to jog more often. My sister kept trying to cheer me up. She gave me company every time she could. Even if we were in silence, she did manage to make me smile. But the smile disappeared whenever she wasn't around. I had to talk to Trixie. Maybe I could pretend to bump into her. She should talk to me, right? But what if she figures out I did it on purpose? Was it worth the risk? Of course it wasn't! I have this feeling that I will soon not care about the consequences. My sorrow won't let me think straight. It was already a problem. Normally, I wouldn't even think about doing something like this. I had to maintain my common sense. I have been locked in my room for too long. I stood up from my bed and walked out my room, towards the living room. No one besides me was home. It was quiet. Too quiet. The main reason I came here was to watch a movie, but most of the movies I owned were either Romance, Drama or both. I had a few romance-comedy movies as well, but none of them would make me feel better considering why I was cheerless. Instead, I turned on the T.V. and changed the channel until I found something to divert my gloom. In the end, I did find something. I didn't know which movie it was, but I didn't care. I laid down on the couch and watched the T.V., trying to follow the movie. But my eyes started to close. My efforts to keep them opened were fruitless. Ultimately, my sleep won. I woke up by the sound of thunder. I sat up straight on the couch almost immediately. I was panting. The loud noise startled me. When I calmed down, I noticed that I had a blanket on me. It wasn't there when I fell asleep. My guess was that Sweetie Belle got home and put a blanket on me when she saw me sleeping on the couch. Oh, Sweetie Belle... I took the blanket and put it on my shoulders to cover my upper body before standing up and walking towards a window. I didn't realize it was cloudy before falling asleep. How much did I sleep anyway? Glancing at a wall clock, I realized I slept for nearly two hours. It has been a while since I slept for so long without interruptions. I haven't had a good night of sleep for over a month. I also noticed that all the lights were out. The storm must have caused a blackout. "Perfect, just perfect. Now the weather is against me." I turned around and started to walk towards the stairs. "I hope Sweetie Belle got home before the storm." However, when I was about to put my foot on the first step, I heard that someone was knocking on the front door. Naturally, I gasped. I wasn't exactly expecting visitors, especially with the downpour. I headed towards the front door with a quick pace. I couldn't leave anyone waiting outside under the rain. I opened the door as soon as I reached it. "I'm sorry, but I'm afraid I'm in not conditions to receive..." it was then when I opened my eyes and saw who my visitor was. "Clementine?!" I was surprised. "Wh-What are you doing here?" Clementine was wearing a raincoat with a hood, alongside boots of the same material. "I apologize for showing up without a warning, but I need to talk to you. May I come in?" "Oh, sure, sure! I have a coat rack right here. Take off your boots too, if you want." "Thanks. I don't want to leave my footprints around your big mansion." Clementine jokingly said. "It's not that big!" I couldn't help but to smile. I needed some humor. Trixie's big brother removed his raincoat and boots before I led him to the living room. "Tell me, what brings you here? How did you find me?" I asked, as soon as we reached the living room. I offered Clementine a seat. "No thanks, I'm good. Trixie told me after she was here for the first time. I came here to talk about you and my sister." "Clementine, there's a big storm outside. How did you get here?" "I drove. I own a car." "You do? Then why does Trixie takes the bus every day?" "She's... afraid of riding cars. Remember that I told you she was in the car during the accident that killed our parents. Since then, she won't get in them." "That makes sense..." I should have known. "I'm sorry for reminding you." "It's alright." He smiled at me. I don't think he's angry at me. "But wait, she got in a taxi with me after you performed in that karaoke place." "I know. I saw. I was surprised at first, but I quickly realized why she wasn't terrified." "Really? Why?" Clementine chuckled. I was very confused. "You didn't realize why yet?" I shook my head, still puzzled. "Because of you." "M-Me?" My cheeks quickly turned red and my body got warm. I was truly surprised. I knew Trixie had feelings for me, but, were her feelings really strong enough to suppress her fear of riding cars? "Yeah, and that's why I'm here. Rarity, my sister is still crazy about you. I can feel that you're no ordinary crush. It's the first time I saw Trixie get in a car in a long time. She was so happy to be near you, that she didn't realize what was she doing. For a while, we feared that you would never fall for her. But you did. It's not right for two people who have feelings for each other not to be together. You two need to talk." Oh, Trixie. My dear Trixie. Learning that you are so happy around me made my heart race even more. You are special. I was dying for meeting her face to face again. "I-I know... but, aren't you mad at me for hurting Trixie?" Clementine sighed. "I won't lie, I was furious at first. She's my baby sister, and you played with her heart." I didn't say anything. He was right, I did play with her feelings and I was ashamed for it. "But I know you're not a bad person. You made a mistake. You regret it, right?" "I do. I wish I could go back in time and fix this..." "That's all I wanted to hear." Clementine smiled at me again, but I couldn't return it. "What can I do? She won't speak to me. She doesn't even want to see me." "My sister can be stubborn, but I'll convince her to talk to you. I just needed to hear that you regret what you did." "Of course I regret it. I don't like hurting people. Clementine, I'm not lying, I have feelings for your sister. I'll do anything just to talk to her." I could feel my eyes getting wet again. "I believe you. Not just because of what you said, but also because of your eyes. They're red. You have been crying... a lot." I nodded and cleaned my tears with the palm of one of my hands. I removed my makeup as soon as I got home, because the tears ruined it. "You can trust me, I'll find a way to get her to have a conversation with you, even if I have to drag her all the way here." I giggled softly. "I hope it doesn't comes to that." "Well, I'm off. It was nice to see you again, Rarity." "Likewise. I'll accompany you to the door." "Thanks." Clementine put on his raincoat and boots again before walking out. "Please, be careful!" "It's not the first time I drive in these conditions!" I smiled and waved at him. I saw him get in his car and driving away before closing the door. It was early to go to bed, so I'm thinking on asking Sweetie Belle what does she wants to do. The storm was gone by the next morning, which was a relief. The power was restored while I was asleep. There were poddles everywhere. I had to skip over them on the way to high school. While I was walking, I saw one of my friends ahead of me. "Good morning, Sunset." I greeted the former bully as soon as I caught up with her. "Huh? Oh, hey, Rarity! How's it going?" Sunset tried to stay upbeat for me, and it worked. My friends were always there to help me. But I knew it was just a charade. As soon as I was alone, nothing could stop my depression. "I'm... well, you know. Nothing changed since yesterday. What about you, darling?" For the sake of my friends, I faked smiles. Even to Sunset, who knows the real reason of my sadness. "About me?" "Yes. It has been a long time since you confessed to Fluttershy." "Oh, that... I don't know. Things are kind of awkward between us when we're alone. I try not to talk about it. As of now, I'm thinking on telling Fluttershy that it's fine if she wants to just be friends with me. I'm giving her too much pressure. I should just forget about it. Maybe she doesn't feel the same and she fears disappointing me." "Sunset..." I was about to try to convince her not to do it, but I realized she was right. I wanted Sunset to reveal her feelings to Fluttershy, but I forgot that the feelings might not be returned. "Don't worry, Rarity. I'll be fine." Sunset smiled at me. "I have been talking to Twilight, the equestrian Twilight about this, and she offered me to spend the next weekend at Equestria." "Wha- wait, really?! I mean... wow... I'm surprised you said it so casually. Twilight doesn't just live in the neighbor town." My friend chuckled. "I know. Actually, I was also surprised by her invitation. I told her I will consider it." "Why? Don't you want to visit the place you were born again?" "Of course I do! It was my first home. I miss the landscapes, I miss the fresh air, and it would be nice to take break from the tall buildings, the cars and the schedules. I would also enjoy being able to do magic and having my horn back. But I can't just casually return to Equestria. Not after the way I left. I defied my ruler and I knocked out some of her guards when I exiled myself. If I decide to visit my first home, I would likely have to talk to her. Anything could happen. I might... I might not be able to come back here anytime soon. Rarity, I have made amends with you and our friends, but back in Equestria, my name may still be synonym of evil." I paid full attention to what Sunset said. I was in shock. I forgot that she never apologized to her people. Judging by the way she spoke, I could feel her regret. I wonder how many times her guilt interrupted her slumber. Not to mention that she said that there was a possibility she wouldn't be able to come back. "Sunset... do you really think that it's possible that you're... imprisoned?" My friend sighed and avoided looking at me. "I don't know. Before I left, Princess Celestia was severe. She had to rule an entire Kingdom by herself, day and night, barely having time to rest. "But if you were still unwanted, maybe Twilight wouldn't have invited you over." "Maybe." Sunset glanced at me. "I guess I'll find out this weekend. Do me a favor. Don't tell anyone about this. Let me be the one to do so." "Absolutely." "Thanks." The former bully smiled at me, and we soon made it to Canterlot High. "And, BAM! The goalkeeper didn't stand a chance. Once again, my team won thanks to me." Rainbow Dash was telling her story with enthusiasm. She even mimicked the moment she scored by punching her hand with her own fist. "We know, Rainbow. We were there." Applejack tried to sound unimpressed, but she was smirking. We were all used to hear our friend Rainbow Dash talk about her favorite sport. We allowed to let her ego grow. I was listening to my friend's sport story, but while I did so, I also looked around the cafeteria. I haven't seen Trixie all day. Did she skip school today? "Oooh, no way! What happened next?!" Pinkie Pie, as usual, behaved like if it was all new to her. She never missed any of Rainbow Dash's games, but she still acted surprised when she talks about her games. She even gasps and cheers. Rainbow Dash chuckled and smirked before continuing. "Well, Pinkie, let's just say that our rivals knew they were no match for us. They were scared. I pointed at the goalkeeper and said 'I eat people like you on breakfast!. I could see her shake. I mean business!" "Go, Dashie!" Pinkie Pie pulled out pennants with Rainbow Dash's face out of nowhere and waved them into the air as she cheered. "Number one!" "Of course! The one and only." Our athletic friend smirked with pride. That girl's ego was just enormous. Wait... I just realized how similar Rainbow Dash's pride was to Trixie. Is this how Trixie would be like if it weren't for her parent's sudden depart? Except... Trixie's world wasn't around sports. She plays volleyball and jogs, but that was it. I couldn't help but to wonder, what would have happened if her parents were still here. Would we still have met? Would I still have fallen for her? My thoughts were interrupted when my phone started to vibrate. I pulled it out and saw that an unknown number was calling me. "Hey, Rares! You promised not to use your phone during lunch. You always space out!" Rainbow Dash said as she and all of my friends focused on me. I most certainly didn't space out while using my phone! Not too much... "Sorry, but someone is calling me. An unknown number." "Are you going to pick it up?" Applejack was the one to talk this time. I looked at her and could see that she was worried. Maybe she noticed my gloom when I was thinking about my crush... again. "I think I should. Excuse me, girls. I'll be back soon." I walked in a fast pace until I arrived to the corridor. No one was here, so I decided to answer the call right there. "Hello?" "Am I speaking to Rarity... umm, sorry, the last name has a stain on it." "Yes, I'm Rarity. Who am I speaking with?" I didn't recognize the voice. Is someone trying to sell me something? "I'm nurse Dnowheart. I'm calling from the Healthcare Hospital". I have a patient here, Lulamoon. The patient's sibling asked me to call to this number. "What?!" WHAT?! Lulamoon?! Hospital?! "I'm heading there right now!" I ran as fast as I could towards the exit as soon as I hang up. While I waited in a corner for the streetlights to change of color, I quickly texted Sunset that I had to leave the school due to an emergency. I was so shocked to hear the news, that I didn't ask who was the patient. Lulamoon... was it Trixie or Clementine?! What happened?! The faster I reached the hospital, the sooner I would get answers. I somehow managed to reach the hospital without stopping to catch my breath until I was inside. Once I could breathe normally, I headed to the reception desk. I was third in line. "Yes? How may I help you?" the receptionist asked me when my turn arrived. "I'm here to see patient Lulamoon. My name is Rarity..." "Lulamoon. Yes, the patient that arrived last night. Room 207." "Thanks." I couldn't run anymore inside the hospital, so I had to walk in a fast pace. I took the stairs to the second floor and searched for the room. I knocked on the door when I found it and waited until the door opened.