//------------------------------// // Trust Issues // Story: The Mysteries of Love // by MysteriousStranger //------------------------------// Trixie's P.O.V. Rarity was looking shocked by my outburst. I couldn't believe it. This was the second time someone played with my heart. I didn't think that Rarity would be capable of doing this to me. "T-Trixie... I didn't know what to say... I wasn't completely sure if I really had feelings for you or not..." "You could have been honest to me. We would have figured something out. Lying to me only made me feel depressed for the past weeks. Do you have any idea what have I been through?!" "I have an idea... but I didn't mean to..." "But you did..." I sighed. I had no idea how was I feeling. I was angry at Rarity for lying to me and causing me pain, but at the same time, I was still in love with her. Learning that she felt the same way was a relief. But I couldn't just forgive her for betraying my trust. "I-I can't deal with this right now. You need to leave..." "But, Trixie, I..." "Please! I-I need to be alone..." I turned my back on her. I heard Rarity whimper as she left. I didn't like making her cry, but I was too furious. I felt a tear trying to escape one of my eyes, but I cleaned it and forced myself not to cry. What a mess. What am I going to do now?! I needed to speak with my brother, but he's out with Rosemary. He won't be home until in a few hours. I glanced at my computer. All I could do while I waited was browsing the Web while listening to music. Yes, that was a good plan. "She really said that?" I wasted no time to tell my brother what happened as soon as he came back. "Yes... apparently, she has had a crush on me for a while." "Before you confessed to her?" "Yes. She... she lied to me. All this time... Clementine, I was furious. I made her cry after she told me the truth..." "Trixie..." My brother put an arm around me. ”Your anger is justified, but try not to be too harsh on her. Yes, she lied to you and she should have told you the truth back then. But at least you know she has a crush on you. Trixie, try to calm down. Talk to her when you're feeling better, but don't erase her from your life.” "But... she played with my heart... just like..." My brother walked to the other side of the room with a hand on his forehead. "No, Trixie, don't compare Rarity to that... awful girl. They're nothing alike. Rarity has no bad intentions. If she didn't care about how you felt, she wouldn't have felt any guilt and wouldn't have tried to make amends with you." "I don't know... it seems that everyone I trust ends up hurting me in one way or another. Why should I even consider give her another chance?" I crossed my arms and frowned. I genuinely didn't know what to do. "Because, it's obvious that she cares about you. She tried to contact you several times. She came here to tell you that she likes you. She has feelings for you, Trix. Isn't that what you wanted all along?" "Y-Yes, but... she hid her feelings from me when I revealed mine. I don't know if I can trust her again...” I dropped my head and stared at the floor. I wanted to yell. I wanted to throw everything through the window and forget all about it. But I kept my composure, for Clementine. He still had his eyes on me. He helped me to think straight. “Maybe you're right, maybe I need to calm down. I need a break from her." My brother looked around and we remained silent for a while. Eventually, he focused his eyes on me again. "Okay, seems fair. Just... don't break your friendship." "If she still cares about me as you say, then I won’t. Thank you, Clem." Clementine hugged me. "Anytime. Now, I was planning on going to the convenience store to buy our dinner, but what if we have it at the mall instead?" I gasped and smiled. "I would love to. Yes!" I love him. He always knows how to cheer me up. I was still feeling down on the next day. It was afternoon. I went to jog and I took a shower afterwards, but it didn't help much. I went straight to my bed after the shower. I barely found the mood to dress my usual outfit. I decided to listen to music trough my music player. It helped me to lose myself into the music. I still couldn't believe it happened again. Why do I even bother with love? Why did I think it would be different? Why did I let Rarity into my life so fast? I should have known better. Love is not for me. From now on, I will only care about myself, my brother and my sister in-law. No one else will be allowed. I don't need friends, I don't need a girlfriend. I'm fine without one. I might give my friendship with Rarity another chance, but I wasn’t sure if I could trust her enough to date her. I had my eyes closed, but I suddenly felt it got darker. Someone was standing beside me. I opened my eyes to find Clementine staring at me. "Clementine!" I quickly removed my headphones from my ears and sat. "What are you doing here without knocking first?!" "I did, several times. I even called you. I hope the volume wasn't all the way up. Remember what happened last time." "The volume was fine. What's so important to come in without my permission?" "There are two kids in the kitchen, looking for you." "Kids?" That caught my curiosity. I stood up and walked to the kitchen, while my brother walked into his room. I instantly recognized the kids when I reached the kitchen. Their eyes focused on me when they noticed me. They were Sweetie Belle and one of her friends. "Trixie..." Rarity's sister ran towards me and hugged me. I almost lost my balance because I wasn't expecting it. "Rarity told me what happened, I'm so sorry!" The little girl started to cry. I had to knee in order to hug her properly. While I did so, I looked at Sweetie Belle's friend. I couldn't remember her name, but I was certain that she was the sister of that cowgirl Rarity was friends with. She was visibly puzzled. How not to be? I was being nice to her friend when she was used to see me as a bully. "Sweetie Belle..." I tried to say something, but Sweetie Belle moved her head to look at me and spoke again. "My sister is a good person, she's not mean! She really likes you, Trixie, please, don't stop seeing her. She just made a mistake. She's really upset!" Rarity's sister was still sobbing, so I hugged her again. Poor girl. I had nothing against her. I enjoy her company, but I got her upset too. "I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that you got caught in the middle of our argument. Please, understand. I'm aware that she made a mistake, but it doesn't mean that I can't be angry at her. Her lie caused me two weeks of misery. I'm dealing with serious trust issues now." I broke the hug to be able to see her in the face and stroked her hair with both of my hands. "Rarity told me the truth yesterday. It's still too soon to forgive her, that is, if I can forgive her." "P-Please, you have to make up. I know that it can't happen now, but in the future? I promise I won't be a bother to you. I won’t even look at you if I annoy you too much." "This has nothing to do with you, Sweetie Belle. I like spending time with you. You never annoyed me. Don't stop being yourself, okay?" Sweetie Belle nodded and I smiled at her. Then, I shifted my eyes to her friend and realized something. "How did you know where I live, anyway? Did Rarity tell you?" "No. She wouldn't have told us." Sweetie Belle spoke again. "Then... how did you find me?" "We followed you." Sweetie Belle's friend was the one to speak this time. "You don't live close to Canterlot High. Do you always walk?" "No. I usually take the bus but I was out of change." I directed my smile to the red haired girl. "I asked Scootaloo if she wanted to come as well, but she refused." "I'm surprised that you agreed." The cowgirl kid smiled at me. "If ah learnt somethin' with Sunset Shimmer and it's that everyone deserves a second chance. Ah just wish Scootaloo wasn't so stubborn." "She'll come around, eventually." Sweetie Belle said with a smile. I noticed that her tears were fading. "Okay, you explained me how you found me, but who let you in? Who led you to my apartment?" The apartment complex had forbids tenants from allowing strangers into the complex. "Your brother, Clementine, let us in." The cowgirl said. "Of course he did..." I looked away, towards the door leading to my room and Clementine's. But I did it with a smile. Sweetie Belle's visit was just what I needed. "Yes! He must have noticed that I looked like Rarity because he asked if I was her sister." "I'm thankful for your visit. I didn't realize how much this affected you, Sweetie Belle." Rarity's sister lost her smile when she focused her eyes on me. "Of course it does. I'm very close to my big sister, and you're cool when you're not mean. Rarity doesn't want to lose you. She really likes you." She really likes me, huh? I'm still angry, but hearing that still made my heart skip a beat. "Like I said, I only found out the truth yesterday. I'm still too mad at her. But, if she respects my space, and lets me cool off, maybe..." Sweetie Belle's smile was returning. "I don't promise anything. Just tell her that I need time, okay?" "You got it!" Sweetie Belle said before she and her friend headed towards the door. I followed them. However, Apple Bloom turned to see me before I closed the door. "Ah think Sweetie Belle also wants to know somethin' else, but she's afraid of askin'." The cowgirl kid said before patting Sweetie Belle's arm with her elbow. Rarity's sister frowned at her friend before sighing and gazing at me. Her lips quivered. I was patient and waited until she could finally say what she wanted. "Do you... still feel something for my... sister?" I was taken by surprise. Since learning the truth, I have been focused on my rage. But after hearing Sweetie Belle's words, and how upset Rarity really was. After learning that she really regrets what she did, I decided to put my anger aside for a few moments. I pulled my cell phone out and searched for one of the photos of her and me together. I focused at the picture, on our smiles. The good times before I confessed. My lips moved, forming a smile, and I returned my attention to the kids. "Yes... I still do. It's not common for people to touch my heart like she did." Sweetie Belle and her friend smiled. "What are you looking at?" "A photo of your sister and me." I said as I showed the photo to Sweetie Belle. "Aww, you two look so cute together!" Apple Bloom's comment made me blush. "Yes, I guess we do." I looked at the photo again and got lost in it. The kids said goodbye to me and I waved at them, but I didn't move my eyes from my phone. After closing the door, I headed to my room and laid on my bed again. The surprise visit put me to think. I was still furious at Rarity, but I now know that she was genuinely sorry. Maybe my brother was right. Rarity was nothing like my ex-girlfriend. My ex never cared about how I felt. I won't be happy on seeing Rarity tomorrow at school, but with time, happiness might return. Days went by. No one noticed my gloom. I was an expert at hiding my emotions since I have done it most of my life. Rarity was one of the few people I was unable to hide my emotions from, but I haven't spoken to her since she told me the truth. Apparently, Sweetie Belle made her part, since Rarity hasn't tried to contact me at all. She avoided my gaze as much as I avoided hers. I could tell, even from afar, how upset she was. This wasn't easy for neither of us. Still, whenever I could, I would talk to Sweetie Belle, even small chats, to make sure that she knew that I was still the same. She was upset as well, but she told me that talking to me cheered her up. I got too attached to that kid. But you know what? I didn't mind at all. Being able to talk to her means that I didn't lose myself. It meant that, the change Rarity caused on me might be irreversible. What kept destroying my mood was Sunset Shimmer. Unlike Rarity, she wasn't even trying to avoid my gaze. I walked on the opposite direction whenever I saw her. But one day, she cornered me after psychical education, when everyone left. I tried to walk past her, but she blocked the door with an arm. "Listen, bacon, in case you can't tell, I'm not in mood to deal with you right now." Sunset Shimmer took a deep breath before speaking. "This won't take long. I have been meaning to talk to you all week." "Alright." I crossed my arms and frowned. "Talk." The former bully took her time to talk. She opened and closed her mouth several times until she finally said something. "I'm... partly responsible of your argument with Rarity..." "What?" What was she talking about? Was she trying to sabotage my relationship the whole time? I swear if she really was, I'm going to break her arm! "Explain." I changed the tone of my voice to let her know that I was pissed off, which startled her. "Listen, it wasn't my intention. Rarity asked for advice, so I gave advice. At the time, she didn't fully accept she had feelings towards you. I told her she should wait a few days until she sorted out her feelings. I didn't know she would take two weeks. I'm sorry, Trixie. I should have told her to tell you that she was confused. I didn't mean for this to happen." That was... unexpected. I never thought I would see the once menacing Sunset Shimmer so... remorseful. The look she was giving me. It was guilt. No one could fake that. I know I couldn't. "Listen, camp... umm... Sunset Shimmer. What you're trying to do for Rarity is nice, and all, but, it's not going to work." "I-I don't know what you're talking about." The former bully shifted her eyes from side to side and tried to sound oblivious. "You want me to get angry at you so I forgive Rarity. You might have given her advice, but she decided to follow it. I could have forgiven her if she only waited a couple of days. Please, do me a favor. Let me handle this. Go with Rarity. She needs her friends right now. I can take care on my own. I will speak to Rarity when I'm ready to talk. Not a second sooner." "I... okay, I understand. I'll leave you alone, then." Sunset Shimmer sighed and turned around. "See you later, I guess." She walked away. I crossed my arms and paced around the locker room. I couldn't believe Sunset Shimmer would actually try to do something so honorable. I actually felt pity for her! Rarity, you did this to me.