Hello, Mota.
I thought I'd write a line see how you are doing.
Brush
Oh. Hello.
MasterOfThisAstra
Mota? Is anything wrong?
Brush
Nothing is wrong. I just... actually several things are wrong. I had a panic attack during one of my exams. I'll be retaking the semester. My parents are pissed. They even talked to the dean about me having another go this year, but it was decided That I might use a short break. My grades are exemplary n the whole so I don't think it will be an issue if I rest a bit.
How are you doing?
MasterOfThisAstra
How do you think?
Brush
My sister told me what happened. I'm sorry, I just... it wasn't what I imagined. Things just didn't work out. I was blinded by dreams that could never be. I loved you, Brush, I did with all my heart, but we were never meant to be together.
MasterOfThisAstra
Oh, Mota... do you think I don't? Love is not something you can forget even when it's over. I still remember every moment of us together. The first time we spoke, the first time we met... You were actually trembling back then. I though it was cute and used it as an excuse to get my wing around you.
Things aren't the same without you. I try to work so I can forget everything, but I can't. Is there... can you give me another chance? I know I have messed up more than one, but I think this time I'll... at least I want to try.
Brush
Brush... You're making it so difficult :( Of course I remember how we met. It was my first time. You were my first, my very first. And I still find you fascinating in so many ways, yet... things are different now. I'm not sure what you're asking is possible.
MasterOfThisAstra
Please?
Brush
I met somepony.
MasterOfThisAstra
Oh.
Brush
Yes.
I took the breakup quite bad. Went to a pub. For hours I sat at a table trying to decide if I should start drinking to try to forget or not. She was there when I needed it, so we started talking. It was closing time before I knew it. I think I even cried.
MasterOfThisAstra
Who is she?
Brush
Just a crystal pony. Please don't try to find her. I know you're sweet and kind, but I don't want you to go and try to convince her how we should hook up back again. She doesn't deserve that drama, and right now I don't think I do either. Or you.
We'll always remain friends, though.
MasterOfThisAstra
Friends...
Brush
Please don't be like that. I don't want to fight. I don't even want to argue. I want to keep remembering you as something magnificent. The wounds are still fresh, Brush. I tried to hide it, but I've been crying every time you went to save Equestria.
Surprise—I'm not as upbeat and strong as I make out to be. You're the first pony I'm telling about this. Not even PaintDrop or my parents know. Ever since I was born I had everything except happiness. For a moment I found it with you. I thought that moment would last forever.
MasterOfThisAstra
So it's really over between us.
Brush
I'd still like us to be friends. I know it's not what you want to hear.
MasterOfThisAstra
Brush message has been deleted.
Friends it is then.
What does she do? I promise I won't try to find her. I just want to know a bit more.
Brush
She's a college student. Same as me but in a different school. She's quirky, different than either of us.
MasterOfThisAstra
I see.
Brush
Your book will hit the shelves in a few weeks. The test group think it's good. It's almost certain it will be a success. They might ask you to appear there for a signing. I was going to tell you next week.
I think you should go. Your book is magnificent and you could use the distraction.
MasterOfThisAstra
Oh. I see...
Brush
Brush, I know I'm just a stallion, but I think you should be more decisive. The shy mare that flies off to save Equestria is cute, but stallions might expect something more. To tell you a secret we stallions don't know what we want. It's up to you to tell us. We're supposed to rely on you, but also feel you give us our space.
Possibly it's just me. Before I met you I was clueless about love, relationships, sex. You showed me all that, but when you did I felt that I wanted something different... as much it hurt losing you. I think you need something different as well. Whatever it is, I don't think it's me.
MasterOfThisAstra
Why is everypony so certain what I do or don't want? Why can't things just be the way they were?
Brush
Because I got tired of crying every time. Just because I hid it from you doesn't mean it didn't hurt.
MasterOfThisAstra
Maybe I should never fall in love. Who needs it if the only thing it does is cause pain? And it's not like I anypony appreciates my efforts anyway!
Brush
Brush, please don't do this. We tried, it didn't happen. Can we leave it at that?
You'll find somepony better. I'm know you will.
MasterOfThisAstra
I don't know anything anymore. I don't know why I even wrote to you right now. You say I'll find somepony, but it won't be you.
Brush
No, it won't. Sorry, Brush. I don't want to go through that again.
MasterOfThisAstra
Can't we at least see each other? Maybe talk?
Brush
I don't know. Now is not the best time. I'll be going away from the Crystal Empire for a while. I still don't know where.
You take care of yourself, okay? I meant all the things I said about you: you are magnificent and one day will make some lucky stallion happy.
Goodbye, Brush.
MasterOfThisAstra
Goodbye.
Brush