Don't Feel Guilty My Little Pony

by midnight-chaser


Coffee

Coffee

Where are you Unicorn? it's 12:35. I was sitting inside a coffee shop known as, 'Coffee, Cream and Cakes.' it was a pretty cool place, though I wasn't here for relaxing. I had a deal with a unicorn who was running late. We had agreed to meet here at the coffee shop, where he'd answer some questions about all the humans in Denmark that are now ponies. Except for me.

There was a sound of a bell ringing as the door to the shop opened. Lord behold there he was, the unicorn. He took a quick gander, probably looking for me. I whistled at him and he turned around and noticed me. He started walking over to me with a... smile on his face?

"You seem happy," I said as he got into the seat in front of me. "You won some sort of lottery or something?" I joked at him.

"Very funny mister Hansen, but no." He didn't seem to have a great sense for humor. "I do assume you want some answers right?" He asked as he raised an eyebrow. Something was off but I didn't know what. A stallion came over and put a glass with a brown liquid in front of me. I tipped him a few bits before he left the table.

"So tell me... Who are you exactly?" I asked. He knew my name might as well know his name.

"Ah, pardon for not stating my name," He said as and cleared his throat. "My name is Winter Ace. Born and raised in Canterlot as the first of four foals. My family was wealt-" I raised a hand to stop him.

"Easy Ace, no need to go through your family story," I stated flatly. "I don't like talking about family anymore." He chuckled a bit at that. What's funny about a guy who doesn't like talking about family while drinking some coffee? I don't get these ponies.

"I noticed. Murder was it?" He asked in a creepy yet curiously tone. "Murdered while on their way home from the Copenhagen market about three years ago?" How did..?

"How do you know that?" I asked, trying my best to keep my head cool and not sound intimidated. "Only two ponies know that story." I took another sip from my drink. He must've guessed. There's been a lot of murder attempts near the market. He chuckled again at me.

"Magic and will is a great thing isn't it?" He said. "Now you had some questions right?" Ace eyed me curiously. I wish he would stop that. I sat there for a few seconds like I didn't understand a thing he just said. I shook my head and calmed down.

"Yes... Why did your princess, agree to the project of yours?" I asked. I wanted to know the story from a pony working at it, not just some newspaper saying this and that.

"Now that's a good question," Ace said with a smirk. "The reason Celestia agreed to this 'little' project of ours, is because she wants the wars to end." The wars?

"Wait wars? Like the world wars and the wars in Syria and such?" I asked to which he nodded. "But not all humans will agree, you know that. Now if you wanted the humans to stop wars you'd have to make sure that there's..." Then it hit me. If there were no humans there'd be no wars. That was the idea for the project? To end wars?

"You seem to have catched on mister Hansen. If your race doesn't exist, how do you wage wars?" Ace said as smirked at that. I did not like that question. "We ponies have been at peace with each other, aside from... a few 'disageements' at our upper ranks of society." Really? 'disagreements'?

"So you're saying you ponies don't go to war?" I asked. Ace nodded. "Ponies don't kill anyone with something sharp, blunt or magical?" He nodded yet again. Liar.

"We've never been at war and never will be," he said. I couldn't believe it. I rolled my eyes and drank some more of my coffee. I needed to go tell Cloudy about this.

"Alright I have one more question," I told Ace. He looked interested. "Are you going to ponify me?" He looked at me as if I was joking. He sat there, silent just staring at me for a few seconds before he started laughing. Prick.

"Good one! That's a good one," he said between laughs. I kept looking at him not even the faintest hint of a joke. He stopped laughing as he saw my facial expression. "You're serious?" He asked. Why would I not be.

"Well are you?" I wanted an answer dammit. I finished my coffee and looked at him, waiting for an answer.

"How should I say this? I don't like lying to anyone, even if they aren't ponies," he started. He'd better not. "I'm sorry mister Hansen. It's my job to make sure Denmark is to be free from humans. What Celestia doesn't know, doesn't hurt her." He looked at me. My heart was racing, it was the only thing I could hear in my ears.

He jumped off of his chair and walked over to my side. I could tell he wasn't pleased about doing this. His horn lit up. He's not strong enough to turn me into a pony with his magic. Right? I muttered a small 'thanks' for his honesty before striking him in the side with my fist. He fell over. I probably had hit him in the lung and knocked the air outta him. I didn't know what to think so I ran to my bike outside the shop. I normally don't hit anyone but unless it's against my will you better fucking believe I'll hit someone.

I got on my bike and started it. I could hear Winter Ace throwing curse words at me like he was trained at it. I can't believe I thought it was just gonna be a meeting. I don't know what he was about to do but I do not want any of it. Didn't matter I drove away as fast as I could.

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I've been driving for about an hour making sure I wasn't followed by anyone, especially Winter Ace. I parked my bike over by Cloud Wing's house and turned it off. She fucking better be home, I'm not risking going home. I went to the front door and knocked on it in hopes of Cloudy being home. It took a minute or two but she opened the door.

"Rasmus? What're you doing here I just got home from work ya know," she said in surprise. "What can I do for you?" Alright easy don't sound like a creep.

"Well could you let me in? I need to talk to you about something," I said in a manner that made her blush a bit. "It's not that. I'll explain everything." Oh this was gonna be an interesting reaction from her. She let me in and locked the door behind me. Just from entering her home I could tell it was kinda big for a single pegasus like her. We walked into her living room where she offered me a glass of water which I politely refused.

"So what's this about?" Cloudy asked as we sat down on her couch. "If it's not about you and me having a roll in the hay a few days ago, why's it so important?" She looked at me. Her bright green eyes looked into mine, trying to figure out what had happened.

"Remember that one unicorn stallion?" I asked, as I reffered to Winter Ace. She nodded. "That kid from yesterday was his son. We had a talk and agreed to meet today." I took a deep breath. "We had our meeting where I was allowed to ask all the questions I wanted, granted I only had a few but I got answers" I tried to keep calm but it was hard. "He almost used some magic on me, after telling me he was gonna ponify me even after taking care of his son." I knew that I couldn't move outdoors as freely as I did yesterday.

"Hey, hey it's alright you're away from him and you're here." Cloudy said and puts her front hooves on my shoulder. "Just take it easy ok? Stay for as long as you need to. I'll help you out like I did back when you felt like doing suicide." She hugged me. I hugged back and tried to hold back some tears.

"I'm sorry," I said as guilt was going over me. "Everything seems to be my fault as of late." I probably should've shut up, because at that moment Cloudy looked into my eyes with anger.

"It is not!" She snapped at me. Where did this come from? "It's not your fault! Your parents' death? Not your fault. The kid from yesterday? Not your fault. It's also not your bucking fault, you have a racist bucking excuse for a unicorn wanting to ponify you!" Cloudy had snapped at me. I looked at her, surprised to see her do such a thing.

"Cloudy I...." I tried to speak but she cut me off snapping at me again. And was that tears forming in her eyes?

"Shut up! Just shut up!" She snapped again shaking as she spoke. "You wanna know one thing Rasmus? I want you. I've wanted you for a long bucking time." This... I couldn't believe what she was saying. She looked down and had closed her eyes, tears starting to fall. I wrapped my arms around her and held her close.

"Hey, I'm here just let it all out," I said as I stroked her back. She sniffled, she was on the verge of crying. "Let it all out." She leaned her head over my shoulder and rested her chin on it. As I tried to calm her down I looked back down memory lane. Then I saw it. She had given me a lot of hints that I didn't know at the time. their culture wasn't printed into my mind. Sure she's beautiful and all but I didn't want to tempt our friendship and ruin it. Idiot! Fucking hell she's probably feeling heartbroken because of you! Fix it!

I leaned my mouth next to her ear and whispered "Such a beautiful mare shouldn't be crying over a heartbreak that is unlikely to happen." She looked at me with her green eyes. They were watery but beautiful. "It's not over before it begins." I smiled a bit. She sniffled again, then planting a firm kiss on my lips. It's been a while since I've had anyone kiss me like that. It felt... great.

It lasted for a while, but she let go of my lips and smiled at me. "T-Thank you," was all she could say while blushing. I ruffled her mane a bit trying to cheer her up.

"No, it's me who's saying 'thank you' Cloudy," I said and scratched her behind her ear a bit. "Sorry for not... noticing your hints back then. I wasn't very well with your pony culture." I chuckled nervously. I was actually relaxed for once like really relaxed. I regret not picking up on her hints earlier but what could I do? When you don't understand ponies it's hard to know what they want.

"So," I started. "Can I stay or do you want me to-?" I asked, but before I could finish she gave me a kiss on the cheek. I think that's a way of saying 'stay.' I chuckled and started to run my fingers through her mane. She laid down her head in my lap clearly melting at the touch. Guess I found her sweet spot. I started to remember our first meeting a few months after my parents' passing.

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I was sitting on my knees in front of my parents' grave, quietly shedding tears onto the ground. I was wearing my fine suit when I visited their grave, I'd always do that. I knew the murderer was behind bars, but he only got about 30 years. I wanted him dead. He took my family from me. I laid a bouquet of flowers on the grave and got up. I walked over to a nearby, tree which I had thrown a rope over a branch and tied it to the trunk. I had tested the branch, it was able to carry my weight. The rope that was hanging had been tied into a noose which was gonna have very much use in a second. I climbed onto the branch, put the noose around my neck and was about ready to drop and end it all.

"Stop!" I heard someone call out. "Do not do it!" The same voice called out, clearly female. I looked and saw a lightblue pegasus. Ponies were slowly but steadily arriving in our world. I wasn't surprise but I kept looking at her without saying a single word. I could tell she was paniced from the wide eyes she had going on.

"Don't do it, I'll come over!" She said. I didn't think at all as I looked at the ground beneath me. Time must've slowed down, or it felt like it at least. I jumped off the branch, only to be stopped a second later by the rope tightening around my neck and was now choking me. It was painful. I felt myself gasping for air but I knew it was only natural for my body to do so. It needed air to survive. I closed my eyes waiting for it to end. But it never came.

I fell onto the cold ground, coughing and gasping for air. I opened my eyes but everything was blurry and everything sounded so faint. Did the branch break? No, impossible I tried hanging from it with my arms earlier. I weakly looked over at the trunk to see the same pegasus and the rope laying around the trunk and not tied. She saved my life. She noticed I was looking at her and galloped over to me.

"Hey! Are you ok?" She asked in fear as if something might've happened. I was just laying there looking at her while breathing a bit unsteadily. "Please be alright,"
she said and tied the noose free and threw the rope away. Someone cared about me? I tried to get onto my hands and knees but damn was it hard. I saw the pegasus sigh in relief of me being alive.

"[W-Who are you?]" I asked in my native tongue. She got confused at that, probably didn't understand Danish. "Who are you?" I asked again, this time in English. She pecked her ears up seeming to understand that.

"Hey don't worry about me, why were you trying to hang yourself? You would've died!" She practically screamed. I never thought of that. Not being able to breath didn't kill you.... Of course I knew I would've die.

"To end it all," I simply stated. She blinked at that. She understood English, probably not what I meant by it. "I wanted to die." I said telling about my attempt at suicide. "I wanted to die cause I'm the only one left in my family okay? My parents were murdered in cold blood while I was talking to them on a phone!" I screamed before breaking down and crying. I hated my life.

"Hey, don't be so hard on yourself, you weren't there nor did you know what was gonna happen," she said and put a hoof on my shoulder. "Don't blame yourself over things out of your control." I couldn't help it. Maybe if I didn't hear the phone ring and just left it ringing, my mom wouldn't be able to talk with me and they'd probably still be alive.

"Are you listening to me?" I heard the pegasus ask. I looked at her, I must've zoned out. "We're gonna take you to the hospital, make sure you're fine then I'd like to know about it all." She would listen to the story? Why? Sympathy? I didn't know what to do, but my body answered for me with a weak nod.

After that she helped me stand up and provided me with some support in case I should fall. For a stranger, especially pony stranger, she seemed nice. "What's your name?" I asked her.

"Cloud Wing, yours?" She asked back. I took a bit before answering her.

"Rasmus. Rasmus Erik Hansen." I told her as we headed to the nearest hospital.

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"Rasmus?" I heard Cloudy call. "What you thinking about?" I chuckled a bit and kept running my fingers through her mane.

"Nothing special," I replied. "Just thinking about the times you and I first started becoming friends." I smiled at her. I feel sorry for trying to end it back then but... I might not have met Cloudy if I didn't.

"Oh I think there's a lot of other things you should start thinking about from now on." I saw her lick her lips a bit. Oh boy am I in for a surprise.