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Hey there Amico. I am completely humiliated. I don't think I've ever felt so stupid in my life. I ran into Rainbow Dash again yesterday... But it wasn't all that pleasant.
Here's how it went...
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The entire town was cheering on Applejack and wishing her good luck for the rodeo in Canterlot. Rainbow Dash was setting up a banner at City Hall and asked me to help. I was so excited that I started to get bouncy (I bounce when I get excited). Little did I know, I was on an active thundercloud. So, when I started bouncing, I…kind of destroyed the roof to City Hall.
I started getting worried. Every now and then Rainbow Dash would look up at me, then the roof, and sigh. I kept thinking that she was getting annoyed by me trying to ‘help’ her. That quickly went away when she saw the worried look on my face. She sensed my worry and smiled at me, trying to make me feel better, I guess. She has a pretty smile.
I tried to stand still and not get in the way anymore. I even tried to get rid of the thundercloud I had. Boy, was that a bad idea. I accidently sent a lightning bolt straight at Rainbow Dash! She was able to dodge it, but it still singed her tail.
She flew up to me and told me to ‘be careful’, but not in a rude tone or anything. That’s another thing I really like about her; she can tolerate my clumsiness more than other ponies can. Like the time I told you about Filthy Rich. I remember the last Winter Wrap Up day, when I accidently flew north to get the southern birds. All the other ponies got annoyed at me, but Rainbow Dash stood up for me and told them it was an honest mistake, even though I do it almost every year.
I don’t know why, but recently I’ve been getting more and more nervous when I’m around her. When she came up to me and told me to ‘be careful’ I started to get nervous.
I didn’t know what to do so I started bouncing on the cloud again (I also get bouncy when I get nervous). "I just don’t know what went wrong," I said in my most innocent voice. I ended up electrocuting myself.
So after I finally did get rid of the cloud, I took a look at the banner and decorations she put up around City Hall. They looked good, so I thought maybe I could say something nice. I said, "Nice work, Rainbow Dash!"
Yet again, I did something clumsy: flying backwards and not looking where I was going. I ended up hitting one of the pillars on the building with my rump and breaking it. It fell over and Rainbow tried to catch it. She did, but it ended up being too heavy for her, and she ended up falling through the floorboards.
I immediately flew down to check on her. Luckily she didn’t look hurt, but I still wanted to make sure. I looked down and asked, "You okay, Rainbow Dash? Anything I can do to help?"
By then, I’m pretty sure Rainbow had gotten annoyed with me. It was understandable, since I did almost kill her... twice.
She flew up to me and said, "No! Nothing! In the name of Celestia, just sit there and do nothing!" I obeyed and sat down on the wooden floor. Apparently the floorboards were pretty unstable, because I ended up breaking them and falling through. As a reflex, I grabbed Rainbow and pulled her under with me. I don't know why I didn't just open my wings and fly out.
This next part was so embarrassing. She ended up landing on top of me at the bottom of the hole. I blushed and tried to apologize. Lucky for me she got off quickly and I was able to look away while saying, "Oops, my bad." Then I apologized like a hundred times to her. She said it was okay and that she was sorry for yelling at me.
After that, we flew out of the hole and inspected the damage. It wasn't pretty, and all of it was my fault. Rainbow, being the sweet pony she is, didn't blame me. I wanted to do my best to help, but I knew it would take a lot of money to fix the broken roof and floor. And both me and Rainbow Dash know that I don't have much money to spare.
I'm not entirely sure why, but Rainbow actually got mad at herself instead of me. She said that the whole thing was her fault, and that she was going to take responsibility for it. I didn't want her to do that, and I argued with her the whole way to the Mayor's office.
When we got there, Rainbow told me to go home and leave it to her to fix the mess I had made. I've never seen her so angry before. Before I left, she explained to me why she didn't want me taking the blame.
Her exact words were: "Listen, Ditzy... You and me both know that you're not in the best position financially. To put it bluntly, you're poor. And you have a child to take care of. You need all the money you can get. And there's going to be a pretty big fine for destroying half of city hall."
I tried to protest, but she wouldn't let me. She told me to go home, then walked into the mayor's office. Not wanting to be any more trouble, I obeyed and walked home. I decided not to fly. I didn't want to cause any more damage.
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When I got home, Dinky was still in school. I was glad too, because I didn't do anything but sulk for the next hour or so. I just hated the fact that Rainbow Dash took the fall for me. I felt like a foal. I knew I didn't have money to fix the city hall, and if I had taken the blame like I should have, me and my muffin would be living on the streets. I know I should be grateful, but... I don't know.
Anyways, when Dinky got home, I immediately felt better. She really knows how to make a pony feel better. To be completely honest, I think that may just be her special talent. I guess we'll just have to wait and see, huh Amico?
Later on, me and Dinky made muffins. It cheered me up for a little while. We ate some, then I read her a story. I don't know what it is about foals and stories, but she was out like a light. I took her to her room and tucked her in. She seemed so peaceful. Then again, most ponies do look at peace when asleep.
I went into my bedroom after that and lied in bed. I don't know what triggered it, but suddenly I realized how lonely I am. I live in a small house away from Ponyville. I only have a few real friends. I mean, even most of the ponies at work don't ever talk to me. And to top it all off, I'm a single mother. Not like that was my choice, either...
I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. Dinky is the best thing that's ever happened to me. Even if I never meant to have a foal...
You know what that means, don't you Amico? When I think of something, I can't help but talk about it. Or, in this case, write about it.
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Only one other pony knows that I never meant to have Dinky. And, of course, that pony is Rainbow Dash. Not even Fluttershy knows. She, along with everypony else, believes that Dinky's father left me after her birth. But that's not the case...
It all happened about nine years ago, when I was nineteen years old. Rainbow Dash invited me to come to a club with her and her friend Candy Mane. Wanting to get out of the house, I agreed to tag along. Little did I know the trouble I was getting myself into.
I met up with Rainbow and Candy at Sugarcube Corner, where we were picking up another of Rainbow's friends, who at the last second decided to come. Her name was Pinkie Pie, and I never liked her much. I mean, there was nothing wrong with her, but she was just so excitable. She reminded me of a foal who's had too much sugar.
Anyways, after we picked her up, we went straight to the club, the name of which I don't remember. It was a long walk, so we all had to deal with Pinkie along the way. Me most of all. She continued to ask me about my eyes, and I never got a chance to talk back because she apparently couldn't keep her mouth shut.
The walk was only thirty minutes, but it felt like hours. What with Pinkie talking the whole way and Candy bitching about it. And man can that pony whine.
The first time I realized I made a mistake was when I saw the club. Or rather, when I heard the club. The music could be heard from almost a block away. The club was amazingly packed for such a small place.
When we arrived, we immediately lost Pinkie Pie. Rainbow found her later talking with the disk jockey, a white unicorn with an electric blue mane. We decided to leave her be and find ourselves a table. I was too young to drink, and so was Rainbow Dash. But Candy wasn't, and she was friends with the manager. So she somehow hooked Rainbow Dash up, and even offered to hook me up with a drink. I, of course, said no. I didn't drink, and I still don't.
Long story short, both Candy and Rainbow ended up getting drunk. They left me alone at the table and decided to go dance on the crowded dance floor. That's when I decided to leave. That was also the second time I realized I shouldn't have come.
On my way out, I noticed Rainbow and Candy sitting at the bar of the club. It took me a while before I realized that they were making out. I was furious. Not at them, but at myself for allowing myself to become angry. I mean, it wasn't like me and Rainbow Dash were dating or anything. And it's not like she made me go to that stupid club.
I ran out of the club, not caring who saw me, or who I ran into. And I ended up running into quite a lot of ponies, not because of my eyes, but because I wasn't watching where I was going. I ran until I couldn't hear the club anymore. I ran until I couldn't feel my legs anymore. I ran until I was out of breath.
After I couldn't run anymore, I sat down in what I thought to be an empty alley and cried. I cried because I let my best friend get drunk when she wasn't even old enough to be legally drinking. I cried because I was stupid enough to go to a club. I cried because the love of my life, the mare I had had a crush on since we were little, was making out with a mare I didn't even know. (Sorry about the repetitiveness. I couldn't think of a better way to write it.)
It took me a while to notice I wasn't alone. I looked up to see three stallions, one of which looked familiar for some reason. The smallest, a tan stallion with rain blue eyes and mane, walked up to me and asked, "Hey there, miss. You seem a little down. Is everything all right?"
His voice was so sweet, and he looked so nice. Without thinking about it, I told him why I had been crying. It was a stupid thing to do, I admit: talking to a complete stranger that I had just met in an alley.
After I had told my story, the same stallion said in a sweet tone, "How about I take you over to my place? Maybe I could make you feel better."
Maybe it was because I was emotionally unstable, or maybe it was his charm that made me go with him. Either way, I was stupid to do so. He whispered something to the two bigger stallions, and they walked off, leaving me and him in the empty alley. He then helped me up and told me to go on ahead, another stupid thing I shouldn't have done.
The minute I had my back turned, he knocked me out cold. When I woke up, I couldn't see nor speak. There was a gag in my mouth and a blindfold over my eyes, and my hooves were tied up as well, but I was too scared to notice. I had no idea where I was or why I was there.
I could sense many other ponies in the room. More like smell them. I didn't know it then, but there were ten other stallions in the room, including the three I saw in the alley before. I'm pretty sure you can guess what happened next. If not, then I'm leaving you in the dark, because I'd rather not think about it.
After they were done with me, they simply left me there. After about three hours, somepony finally found me and took me to the hospital.
Four months later I found out I was pregnant. You can imagine how I felt. I was angry that some total stranger got me pregnant. And it could have been any of them. I didn't want to keep Dinky at first... I mean, I never meant to have a foal.
But then I thought about it... And I wondered what would happen to the foal if I didn't keep it. I didn't exactly know what, but either way, I decided to keep Dinky and raise her. It was hard at first. I had little money, and I was always off at work, so I barely ever saw her in her early years.
I'm just glad she's never asked about her father. She seems happy with it just being me and her. Then again, that's probably because she was raised that way.
But yea, that's the story of Dinky's dad... Not a very nice story, but oh well. Not everypony has a perfect life. I'm just glad to have a perfect daughter.
Your dear friend,
Ditzy 'Derpy' Doo
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