Trixie's P.O.V.
This must have been the most boring week of my life. Everything went downhill since the very first day. I should have kept my mouth shut. Learning the secret identity of 'DaLunAtic' was nice and all, but the price was too high. For two days, I could only see Rarity from the distance after class. I made sure to get to detention fast to take a seat by the window to not miss her. Like she promised, she glanced at me when her friends weren't looking and waved at me. I was careful enough to not get caught by the teacher when I waved back at her.
But home was another story. My brother didn't change his attitude. He still greeted me with a smile when I arrived to our apartment. But all I was allowed to do was to listen to music and do my homework. But at least I could text Rarity and we occasionally called each other. Her sister recovered almost completely on Tuesday. Apparently, some kind of medicine Shimmer brought did the trick. But I couldn't rely on Rarity all the time. She has her own life; she has many friends of her own. I also had Sunset Shimmer, but I wasn't sure how to feel about her yet. My only other option was Rosemary. I was starting to feel bad for neglecting her for all these years. I pressed her name in my contacts list and waited until she picked up her phone.
"Well, well, if it's none other than my sister in-law. How are you, Trixie?"
"I've been better; I’m just hanging in there."
"Yeah, Clementine told me what happened. But it's Thursday. Just one day to go!"
I smiled weakly and sat on my bed. "Thanks. Days go by slow when you have nothing to do. I have already finished my homework. The next activity in my agenda consists on lying on the bed and staring at the ceiling."
"Are you going to tell me that you spend all these days locked in your room? What about your brother? Don't you have board games or cards?"
"I... I completely forgot." She was right. We did have board games. I was so busy doing nothing that I didn't think on it.
"Trixie, Trixie, Trixie. Maybe these five days with no computer will be good to you. You're spending way too much time on it. Did you at least go to jog? Breathe some fresh air?"
"Uhh..."
"Oh, dear. Trixie, you really can't function without technology."
"Me no compute. This unit needs electronic entertainment."
I could hear Rosemary laugh. Maybe more than she should have. I was really enjoying talking to her. "That was a good one, Trixie. But seriously, there are a lot of things to do. You have today and tomorrow. Try to do something. Clementine will let you go out as long as you don't try to see Rarity."
"I would never disobey him."
"I'm glad to hear that. Listen, speaking of your crush..."
There were those feelings again. Here comes a racing heart and my entire body heating up. "Wh-What about her?"
"She's a nice person, Trixie. When are you going to tell her how you feel?"
"It's not that simple. She's my only friend. I don't want to lose her if she doesn't like me back."
"The more you wait, the more likely she will get her eyes on someone else. Girls like her are rare to be found single. Listen, I can help you. How long have you been friends with her?"
"Three months. I think more."
"I have seen how much she enjoys spending time with you. I could see it in her eyes. I might have only seen her once, but the look she was giving you said everything I needed to know."
"Really? You really think so?" it was sure boiling in here! I haven't paid much attention on how Rarity looks at me. If I did, I would surely have melted.
"Absolutely, she will still want to be your friend if she doesn't feel the same as you. I'm sure of it." Now that I think about it, Rosemary was right. That night, Rarity did seem like she wanted to be closer to me. She held my hand and laid her head on my shoulder. And when I said goodbye after reaching her home, she hugged me for more time than usual. She really cherished the time we spent together. She would definitely want to keep being my friend if she doesn't feels the same as I do. I had to try.
"How can you help me?"
"Invite her to do something when you're no longer grounded. Let me know of your plans and I'll be there to give you moral support."
"Wait, seriously?! So soon?!" Uh, oh. Panic attack.
"You have had a crush on her for, how long, five months, right? Since then, they became stronger. If you don't tell her soon, it will be impossible to keep eye contact with her. She will notice that something's going on. Trixie, I have been in your position. When I met your brother, I instantly fell in love with him. But I wanted to get to know him better before doing anything."
"I remember that." I said as I sat on my bed.
"We became friends, we saw each other often. We became close. I was afraid to tell him how I felt. I didn't want to lose him. It took me and year to gain enough courage to ask him out on a date. I'll never forget that that. I was so scared, that my legs were shaking. Seconds felt like hours. Confessing your feelings is not usually easy, but when you find out your crush feels the same way, I just can't describe it with words. Look at us now. Almost three years of dating and I still feel that joy. All I'm thinking is everything you're missing. We don't know how will Rarity react, but that's part of the fun, right?"
My eyes. They were getting wet again. I quickly used a hand to rub my eyes. I have never heard her version of the story. I remember when Clementine first met her four years ago. My brother always thought she was pretty, but he didn't fall in love with her until much later.
Clementine wasn't always cheerful. He wasn't anti-social like me, but he didn't start to be truly happy until he met Rosemary. He's always saying that we're his most treasured people. He needs us just as much I need him, Rarity, and now, Rosemary. "You were always kind with us. Even though I wasn't always friendly with you, you stayed. You kept smiling; you never gave up on me."
"I always knew there was a nice girl inside you. You just needed someone to bring your real self to the surface. After all this time, you finally met the only person who managed to do that. I don't want you to lose her."
Everything Rosemary said was the truth. I lost myself when my parents died. I started to push people away, even my own brother. I was lucky that he never gave up. Making fun of people was all I did. I used to enjoy it. If it weren't for that dream I had, predicting what would happen if I kept bullying, I would never have tried to change.
Rarity... so gorgeous, so graceful. My heart was beating for her, I can't keep ignoring it. I had to confess my feelings to her, and I had to do it soon. "Rosemary, I have never felt so sure of myself before. You just gave me the courage I need to tell Rarity what I really think of her. I'll tell you what I am going to do. I'm going to call her right now. I have one card to play. I'll text you later, okay?"
"That's the spirit! Alright, I'll hang up. Good luck, Trixie."
"Thank you, Rosemary."
"Trixie, you know you can call me Rose."
"Sure! Thank you... Rose."
"Go get her, tiger." As soon as Rosemary hang up, I searched and pressed Rarity's name in my contact's list to call her. I paced around my room while I waited for her to pick up. She was surely with her friends. She generally was when she took more time to answer. Finally, after several seconds of feeling anxiety, she picked up.
"Trixie? What's up?"
"Rarity! Good, listen. Remember the lunch you owe me? After we jogged together for the first time." I was almost yelling. I felt like I had to force myself to speak before I lost my courage.
"Uhh, yes. I remember." Rarity noticed that I wasn't acting normal. She sounded confused. "Why?"
"Saturday! You and me. Lunch! I know a good place. I think it will be of your... liking."
"O-Okay? Sure! I don't have any plans..."
"Well, now you have plans with me. Great! Trixie will pick you up. Bye, bye!"
"Trixie, wait! Why are you...?!" I hang up, threw my phone to my bed just before my legs stopped working.
I fell to the floor, exhausted and nervous. My entire body kept boiling, and my chest was hurting by how hard my heart was pounding. I couldn't believe it that I was actually doing it. The anxiety was preventing me from moving. I remained on the floor for a while, I'm not sure for how long. I had two days to think on what to say and where to take her. Maybe Clementine can help me with that. And just when I thought on him, he knocked on my door.
"Trix?
"Come in!" My brother shifter his eyes across my room until he found me on the floor.
"Is this a new thing teenagers do nowadays? I don't get it."
"Not really."
"I could hear you from my room. Since when are you so loud to speak?"
I regained full control of my muscles to sit on the floor and looked at my brother, frowning. "Your sister needs of your assistance."
"Whoa, it sounds serious." Clementine walked towards me and reached out a hand to help me to stand up. I cleaned the dust from my butt and back before Clementine and I sat on the bed. "I'm all ears, baby girl."
"Here's the thing... I just asked Rarity to have lunch together next Saturday..."
My brother smiled from corner to corner. I puffed my cheeks as they became red as tomatoes. "You finally asked her out?!"
"No! I-I mean, yes... I-I mean... I don't know? Can it be considered a date if only one of us sees it as one?"
"Good point." He cleared his throat. "Proceed. How may I assist?"
"I have just talked to Rosemary. She convinced me that I should confess my feelings to Rarity before they keep growing to the point I kiss her out of the blue. I want to do it this Saturday, but I don't know where to take her nor what to say. What do you recommend?"
"Well, first of all, try to control your tone. You sounded way too loud when you spoke to Rarity."
"I got nervous because I know what will happen this Saturday!"
"You'll get even more nervous when you have lunch with her. You need to keep your voice under control, or the... 'Date' will be a disaster as soon as it starts."
"Alright, alright. Noted. Anything else?"
"You have been doing well talking to her so far. Try not to think on the part where you confess your feelings to her too much. Act natural."
"I'll try to do that."
"Have you asked her about her friends? How they are, what are they doing?"
I groaned. "Do I have to?"
"Yes. Her friends are an important part of her life. If you show your interest in them, at least a little, she will like you more."
"Okay, fine! I'll ask her... about her friends..." I said the last between my teeth. I was not looking forward to that part.
"Good. What else? What else? Oh, the food!"
"What about it?"
"Don't eat like you do here. Don't make too much noise when you eat nor when you drink. And, please, don't order anything with sauce on it. You always end up with stains on your clothes."
"You're tearing me apart, Clementine!"
"Do you want to date her?" I nodded. "Then do as I say. Also, try to avoid desserts. You always take long trips to the bathroom when you eat something heavy."
"Clementine!" I slapped him on his face.
"What? It's true! Hey, you're the one who asked for my help." My brother said as he rubbed the cheek I slapped. He was exaggerating, I barely touched him.
"Nothing heavy... okay. Where do I take her?"
"Remember the restaurant near the karaoke place I play in?"
"You mean the place with the 50's ambience?"
"That's the one. You liked that place. Take her there, it's perfect."
"How come I didn't think of that place before. You're right, it's perfect! Thank you, Clem!" I hugged him and he hugged me back.
"You're welcome, sis. If that's all, I'll be going then."
"No, wait!" I looked under my bed, which is where we kept the board games, and showed Clementine one I wanted to play. "Let's have fun!"
"Monopo... Trix, are you sure? You threw the dices at my head the last time we played. You're a terrible loser!"
"I promise I won't do it again. I'm bored, come on! Don't be mean."
My brother sighed. "Fine. But if you insult me even once, it's over."
"Can I say...?"
"No, you can't say 'fridge' either."
"Aww!" I pouted but I still agreed to play. Let's see how long I last before going bankrupt.
I didn't last long. I had to declare bankruptcy in half an hour. I almost threw a tantrum, but I repressed it. At least my brother rewarded me for being a good loser, and invited me to the arcade. Thursday turned out to be a fun day. On Friday, I went for a jog. Rosemary was right. Going outside did me good. It actually helped me to keep my anxiety low.
Until Saturday arrived.
I woke up in the morning, five minutes before the alarm. My anxiety returned. I could barely sleep, but I wasn't feeling tired at all. I opened my door and rushed to my bathroom. But my brother walked out from his room and saw me.
"What are you going to do?"
"I'm going to take a shower. I can't meet Rarity like this."
"Nope. You're going to have breakfast first; otherwise, you'll get jelly on your clean clothes."
"Do you really think I'm that clumsy, Clem?"
"Look how much you're shaking now! Come. Have your toasts first."
I groaned and followed Clementine. "As you say, my lord."
"Don't get mad at me, now. I'm just helping you."
I had my toasts with tea. I was never much of a fan of tea, but my brother doesn't allow me to have coffee and I wasn't feeling like having hot chocolate. Just like my brother predicted, I accidentally stained my pajamas with jelly.
"See? I told you!"
I stuck a tongue out at him before proceeding with my meal.
I took a shower when I was done with my breakfast, and wore my favorite outfit. Glancing at the time, I realized that there were still a few hours before the dreading lunch, so I logged on into my computer. "Hello, computer. Did you miss me? Because I sure did! Let's see... oh, new messages!" My nemesis wrote to me. I couldn't play with her since I was forbidden from using my computer until today, and I felt like we agreed not to talk about videogames at school.
'You have been gone for a few days now. Did something happen?' The message was from yesterday.
'Yes, everything's fine. Don't worry :) I was forbidden from using my computer until today.'
I stood up after sending the message but sat back again when I heard I got her reply. I didn't realize she was online.
'Oh, thank goodness! I thought you were avoiding me since you know who I am :)'
'Are you kidding?! I still have to defeat you. I won't let you win that easily!'
'Bring it on, then! Just name when and I'll be there >:)'
'I'll contact you. I have plans today ;)'
'Alright, then. I'll be waiting ^_^'
Luna was actually very friendly. I didn't care much about her until I learnt her secret. I didn't think it was weird to have her as a gaming friend, at all. I wonder if she told her sister about me.
"Sis! I'm going to the convenience store. Do you want anything?"
I walked out my room to reply to my brother. "Everyone says that ice-creams help when your heart is broken. Is that right?"
"Can't you at least be a little positive? What if she says yes? Don't you think you could have a girlfriend by the end of the day?"
"You have seen her, Clem. I highly doubt someone as gorgeous as her wants to be with a nobody like me."
"You two are friends, right? That means she already likes you."
"Not in that way. Bring ice-cream. I tell you what, if she says yes, I'll go with you to that boring museum of art next month."
"I don't understand why you don't want to go. You know music is an art, right?"
"They only have one section related to music."
"Could you at least try to sound interested, Trixie? Rosemary invited us. If you're going to go, change that face."
"I don't have to fake interest with you, right?"
Clementine groaned. "The museum is not a bad place. Look, I'll get the ice-cream you want. Just don't make up excuses if Rarity accepts your feelings."
"I won't."
My brother smiled before leaving and closing the front door. Now what could I do to ease my anxiety until it was time for lunch? Watch cartoons in my room, of course!
Oh, fridge! I'm late! I fell asleep. How could I fall asleep today?! I was lucky that Clementine woke me up. I barely had time to comb my hair before having to run to Rarity's house! Faster, Trixie, faster!
When I finally made it to Rarity's place, I rang the doorbell. Maybe I pressed the button too hard, but I was too tired to notice the strength I used. I had to catch my breath. I heard footsteps from the other side of the door, but I didn't look through the windows. I could breathe normally and I stood properly just when the door opened. My eyes didn't find anyone at first, until I lowered my gaze. Sweetie Belle was staring at me with a big grin. Is this girl always smiling?
"Hi, Trixie! My sister is in the bathroom. Come on in, wait inside."
"Thank you, Sweetie Belle. I'll... sit right here." There were sofas, chairs and even a coffee table at the entrance, so I thought it was a good time to try one of them. I sat on one of the sofas and sighed with relief. It was very comfortable, just what I needed after running all the way here. However, I felt someone stood next to me. I opened one of my eyes to find Sweetie Belle, still grinning at me and with her arms behind her.
"Yes? Is there something you want to tell me?"
"No, nothing. It's good to see you after you were missing all week."
"I got myself grounded. I'm sorry for not being able to visit you."
"It's okay. My sister took good care of me. My friends visited me and I recovered fast thanks to a medicine Sunset bought. Rarity did tell me that you asked about me."
"What can I say? You have been nice to me, and you respected my wishes of keeping my friendship with Rarity a secret, so of course I care about your well being." I gasped when Sweetie Belle hugged me. I wasn't expecting it.
"Thank you, sis."
"Excuse me? I didn't quite get your last word."
"Oh, nothing!" She giggled like if it was nothing and kept hugging me. I'm sure that she said something. Did she say 'miss'? It sounded like it.
But the mystery of the word wouldn't be solved now. Rarity arrived and cleared her throat when she saw her sister hugging me. "Are you trying to spook our guest, Sweetie Belle?"
"N-No! I was just showing Trixie my appreciation for worrying about me when I got sick." Sweetie Belle said as she broke the hug. Rarity frowned at her, making the little girl nervous. "I-I'm going to leave... you two alone... it was good to see you, Trixie!" Sweetie Belle ran away while Rarity followed her with her eyes.
"So... hey, Rarity!" I stood up and opened my arms, expecting a hug, but Rarity glared at me with the same frown she used on her sister. "Did I come in a bad moment?"
"You have some explaining to do, Trixie." My crush said as she put both of her hands on each side of her waist.
"E-Explaining, me? Wh-Why, why? What did I do?" My body was heating up again. What did I do? Why was Rarity being so serious?
"When you called me two days ago, you sounded weird and then you hang up on me when I was still talking."
"Oh, yeah... umm..." I scratched the back of my head, but Rarity stopped me by raising her hand at me.
"I'm not done. Yesterday, I tried calling you but you didn't reply, and today, I thought that you would want to have lunch after your volleyball practice, so I went to the stadium, but you weren't there. What's going on? It's rude to ignore a lady, you know that?"
Oh, boy. This was not looking good. "I-I can explain..."
"I'm waiting." Rarity crossed her arms and didn't remove her eyes from me. Normally, I love when she looks at me, but not with those eyes of doom.
"I'll tell you on the way."
"I'm not moving from here until you explain yourself."
I'm cornered. What was I supposed to do now?! I can't tell her the truth, now. I'm not ready! Then... something hit me! It was not my best idea, but, it had to do. "Please, Rarity. Let me explain you on the way. It's... embarrassing. I don't want your sister to hear."
Rarity raised an eyebrow, now more curious than angry. She looked around before sighing. "My sister tends to listen what she shouldn't... alright, I'll get my purse so we can go."
"I'll wait right here." I smiled at Rarity, but she didn't return it. As soon as she left, I sat on the sofa again. I just dodged a bullet. Hopefully, my lie would work. I'll tell her the truth later. When my crush returned, I stood up again and tried to smile at her. "Ready?"
She nodded, but she still refused to give me a smile. "Let's go." Rarity opened the door for me and closed it after she got through.
"We're taking the bus. There's a nice place near the Karaoke we went last week."
"Okay." There was silence for a while. Rarity was staring at me, but I avoided her. She eventually lost her patience. "So, what happened that was so embarrassing?"
"Do I have to tell you...?"
"You promised..."
"I never promised anything." I tried to smirk at Rarity, but I saw that she was starting to get angry again. "Okay, okay! I'm warning you, though. It's not pretty."
"Try me."
I sighed and gained enough courage to say the lie I made up. Even when I made this up, it was not pleasant saying it out loud to my crush. "I got sick."
"Really? But I saw you on Friday. What kind of sickness?"
"I... I ate something that was probably expired... I made multiple trips to the bathroom..."
"Oh... vomits...?"
"Uh, yes! The only food that didn't cause me nausea were apples and soup. I felt safe to go to school yesterday, but my brother advised me not to go to the volleyball practice today. Just to be sure."
"I see. That explains why you sounded weird on the phone on Thursday. But why didn't you tell me yesterday?"
"As I said, it was embarrassing. I didn't want you to know."
"Trixie..." Rarity hugged me as we kept walking. "I would have understood. You didn't have to worry. I'm sorry for getting mad at you."
"You don't have to apologize. You're right; I could have told you yesterday. I'm the one who should be sorry."
"Let's call it a draw." Rarity said with a smile and I nodded. One of her arms was close to my chest. She could feel my heartbeat. "Your heart is still racing, darling. There's nothing to be worried about."
"I-I know. But my heart won't return to its normal pace fast." Rarity giggled and broke the hug. My goodness! Rosemary was right. At this rate, I won't be able to look at her without feeling the urge to embrace her. I had to find the way to confess after lunch. This girl will be my doom!
"Here's your order. Enjoy your meal!" The waiter said as he left our orders on the table.
"Thank you." Rarity picked up the fork to dig in. I followed my brother's advice and ordered something light... a salad. Someone, please kill me.
"Mmm, the food here is delectable. I like this restaurant. Good choice, Trixie."
"Thank you. I would love to take all the credit, but my bother would kill me if I don't tell you that he was the one who found this place."
Rarity giggled and had another bite of her food. "The music is good, the ambience isn't bad, and the employees are very friendly. I don't see dust either. I like it."
"Trixie knew you would." I moved my fork around my... food, if I could call it that, before taking a deep breath to ask a question I really didn't want to ask. "So... could you tell me more about... your friends...?"
Rarity's eyes widened. "A-Are you sure, Trixie? You don't need to do this."
"I think I do. We talked about everything, except your friends. I'm... curious."
"Curious?" Rarity raised an eyebrow. "What do you want to know?"
"I don't know. I suppose a little of everything?"
"I can try. Where should I begin...?" When I asked the question, I didn't want to know anything about Rarity's friends. My plan was to pretend to listen and nod occasionally. But I did listen. Rarity spoke highly of her friends. It's obvious they were a big part of her life. I couldn't even imagine how it felt to be surrounded by friends. Besides Rarity, I only had Clementine and Rosemary. Rarity was still talking. Asking her about her friends was a good idea after all. I could hear her voice without interruptions. I could just hear her all day.
Unfortunately, the waiter returned when we finished our food and we had to leave. I walked as slow as possible to be able to enjoy Rarity's company. It was almost time to confess. "It might not have been gourmet food, but it was still good, right, Rarity?"
"Oh, absolutely! I can still taste the food. I'm glad you invited me here, darling. I never came to this side of the town before since I had no reason to. What else can you show me?"
"We're going to a nice park. Oh, wait; are you allergic to pollen or bees? I'm just asking because this park is full of flowers."
"No, I'm not. Let's hurry; I want to see those flowers!"
I chuckled and walked faster to catch up with Rarity. The idea was to reveal my feelings at the park. My anxiety grew as we approached to the entrance. We're entering as friends. Hopefully, we would leave as a couple.
Rarity started to scan the area as soon as we stepped in the park. Her excitement disappeared when she saw no flowers. "Trixie, darling, this park isn't bad, but, I barely see any flower."
"The flowers are the main attraction, Rarity. They're deep into the park. There's a garden with many species. Some of them aren't even from this continent. I'll lead you there, but you must follow my commands."
My crush looked at me with a smirk. "My, my. This is how we're going to do it? Alright. I'll do what it takes to see this garden of yours."
I grinned and started to walk towards our destination. "Stay with me. This park is big and I don't want you to get lost. Luckily for you, Trixie knows her way around." Even I was surprised by how casual I sounded. If Rarity touched me, I'm sure she would get burn by how hot my body is right now. In just a couple of minutes, we would reach the spot where I would finally open my heart to the girl for my dreams. Rarity looked around as she followed me. Judging by her expression, she loved the surroundings. If she's fascinated now, I can't want to see how she will react when we reach the flower garden.
When we were close to our destination, Rarity read a sign that pointed towards the garden. "Oh, look! This way to the flower garden. We're here!"
"Just a second, Rarity!" She stopped upon hearing me, so I didn't need to take her arm. "There's a kiosk where we'll have a great view. But as we go there, I want you to close your eyes."
"Close my eyes? Why?"
"Trust me, it's worth it. Eyes, please."
"Alright, alright." Rarity closed her eyes and blocked them with a hand.
"No peeking. Don't worry; I'll guide you through the path." Rarity blindly moved her free hand until she found mine and took it. I blushed deeply, but I was safe from Rarity noticing. "R-Right. I can see the kiosk already, it’s empty."
"All for ourselves." My crush commented with a smile. I didn't say anything else. My heart has racing at this point. How I managed to keep walking, I had no idea. I carefully guided Rarity through the stairs and I took her to the side the flowers could be seen.
"Okay... three... two... one... open your eyes."
"Whoa..." Rarity's jaw dropped by the sight. Before us, rows and rows of the most beautiful flowers could be seen. Her reaction was worth it. "You were right... these are so beautiful! I can't believe I never heard of this garden."
"I'm not surprised. It's relatively new. Word hasn't spread yet."
"It must spread faster! Everyone must learn about this place! My best friend, Fluttershy will adore it!"
I chuckled and looked down. We were still holding our hands. I just can't release it. Her hand... is so soft... so delicate... so perfect... Rarity really changed my life the past months.
She has done so much for me and I have done so little for her. Despite all odds, she didn't break our friendship. She was patient. She respected my wishes. I wanted to be part of her life forever. "The flowers are amazing, but I still prefer one that is more... simple."
"Huh? What flower is your favorite?"
"Daisies. They're more common and I can see them frequently."
"I see your point. My favorites are the lilies. There's something about them that I just... love."
"Lilies? There are some over there."
"Yes, I saw them. Thank you for bringing me here today, Trixie."
"You're welcome. Uhh..."
"Something in your mind, darling?"
"No... Actually, yes. I have to tell you something..."
"You sound serious. What is it?"
This is it. There's no turning back now. It's time to confess my feelings. "I am serious. What I'm about to tell you will... change everything between us..."
"Trixie... I don't like where this is going..."
"No, no, no! It's not a bad thing... I think."
"But your tone. You sound like if you're about to give me terrible news. What is it? You don't want to be my friend anymore? Is that why you brought me here, to give me bad news?" Rarity's joy turned into sorrow. I think I could see her eyes becoming wet. Oh, no!
"You're getting this the wrong idea, Rarity! I have this tone because I'm nervous. I don't know how you're going to react to what I'm about to say."
"What is it? Please, don't leave me in suspense..."
I gulped and remained silent for a while. Rarity was worried. I could see it in her eyes. I looked down at our hands and removed mine, but my crush quickly took hold of it again. Am I really that important to her, or is she attached to all of her friends?
My brother was right. Even if she says no, I would still have her as my friend. I had to take a deep breath before saying what I have kept for all these months. "Rarity... you're a good friend. I know I haven't been the nicest person to you, or your friends, so it meant a lot to me that you gave me a second chance. I thank you for allowing me into your life and me thank you for keeping this side of me a secret, despite your doubts. You helped me to get into a volleyball team; you helped me to understand what a friend really means. I'm sure you have been wondering why I wanted to be your friend all of the sudden."
"I... I am..." She was confused. I would be too. It was the moment of truth. Time to reveal my deepest secret.
"I wanted to be your friend because... because... umm... I-I..." Rarity kept gazing at me. She noticed my nervousness but she remained silent, allowing me to continue. "I have... d-deep feelings for you..."
Rarity took her free hand to her mouth as she gasped. Her eyes widened and her cheeks turned red. It was done. The truth was out. Time to face the consequences. "Y-You mean... you... oh my gosh... I didn't see this coming..."
"I couldn't keep concealing my feelings anymore. I had to tell you. I'm sorry..."
"No, don't apologize, Trixie. You can't choose who you fall in love with. It just... happens. Besides, it's not a bad thing..."
Well, everything was going fine so far. "You're taking this well, Rarity. Honestly, I'm surprised."
"Why?"
"Because I'm a girl. Don't you feel weird being around a girl who has feelings for you?"
"It's unexpected, I'll give you that. But, I don't mind. Trixie, I'm glad you told me. This explains so much! But..."
Here it goes... "But...?"
"You're a good friend, Trixie. I care about you. But... I... don't... feel the same way about you..."
My heart shattered. It hurt... it hurt even more than I thought it would... I was expecting a rejection but I wasn't prepared for so much pain.