//------------------------------// // Truly Shattered // Story: Equestrian Fanfiction // by Lise //------------------------------// Lyra, are you here? RRBB I did something dumb today... really dumb... RRBB I'm just pathetic. Alone and on the aethernet while everypony else is out nuzzling and smooching each other. You're probably out with somepony as well... RRBB I hate Hearts and Hooves! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Not as stupid a me, though. Banged the door on my leg just so I get to miss school. Not that mom noticed. Only reason she let it pass was because it's a "semi holiday" and I “wouldn't miss anything” if I stayed home. The servants were worried more about me that my own parents! How twisted is that? RRBB This hurts like Tartarus. I don't think I'll be going to the meetup. Sorry. I was all excited about it, but after yesterday, I don't think I can take it. I hardly survived Paint's outing yesterday. She tried to get me to feel better. They all did, but I can't stand sitting there, watching Brush and Paint's brother ogle each other all the time! They can't be more obvious if they started nuzzling each other! Everypony at Paint's place knows, they're just not saying anything because they want her brother to be happy. I wish somepony would want me to be happy... RRBB RRBB, I'm here! Sorry, had a really long orientation and couldn't get to a computer sooner. Tell me what happened. LyraHands Nothing happened. Nothing ever happens... RRBB Tell that lie to somepony else. :/ Was it about the fight with you know who? LyraHands Yeah... maybe... RRBB RR... LyraHands There never was a fight, okay? She left, then I busted the bathroom sink and lied we had a fight. Since I was the only one with scrapes, nopony cared! They just phoned my mom and told her how much the damages would cost. RRBB It happened, didn't it? :( Oh, RR... I warned you not to build your hopes up. Some things are just not meant to be. Sucks, I know. Happened a few times to me as well. Try to cry it out. LyraHands I'm so disgusting! Of course she'd react like that. Because I'm disgusting! Repulsive! :( I did my best to pretend I wasn't, but I always knew. In my nightmares, I could see it! Jr Prom Princess, top tier of my class, multi-pageant winner, and I'm just disgusting!!! RRBB RR, you're not disgusting! Never think that! It's just a lot to take in, especially at that age. Do you think I was any different? I couldn't tell hoof from tail! I know there's nothing I or anypony could say to make you feel better, but you have to let it all out. If you keep it inside it will only hurt you more. Trust me on this. LyraHands I finally started to accept what I might be and she! She did nothing! Just looked at me sort of confused and left. Do you know how that feels?! I could see it in her eyes! Pity and disgust. Disgust I could live with! Heck, nopony likes me. Most can't stand me. Pity, though... that just burns me from the inside. I keep imagining things could have been different and that hurts... it hurts so much. RRBB I spent the entire afternoon yesterday hoping she'd trot up to me. Not that I'd think she'd change her mind, but maybe at least talk to me, you know? Just a few words. Don't I get to get a few words? I miss all those times she yell that she hates me. How sick is that? RRBB That's called heartbreak, RR. There are a thousands things ponies will tell you to do, but none of it matters. And it's not true that nopony likes you. Just look at the site. The Nightlings adore you. Your friends adore you! Do you think I'd drop everything for a random stranger? You matter, RR. I, Brush, Max, we're always here for you. So is PaintDrop. And I'm sure there are others. I know it's the last thing on your mind, but please come to the meetup. Even if you stay in your room all day, at least it will be a change. And there'll always be someone there if you change your mind. LyraHands I guess... Heh, well known fanfiction author, literary prodigy, and I still couldn't see this coming. Half my fucking stories deal with heartbreak and I was still too stupid to see my own. RRBB And please don't hurt yourself again. One pain won't mask another. I'll borrow some money from Bob and pass by to see you. Better get a doctor to see you. Does anypony else know what happened? LyraHands No. I don't think so. I made sure it was only the two of us when I confessed. A few ran in the bathroom after I broke the sink... RRBB Okay, now listen to me. Go take a shower then go to bed. Don't do anything in between. Just shower and go to sleep. No writing on the site, no browsing through the net. Don't even read. Then, when you wake up go through your stories. The old ones. LyraHands Why? They are shit! I should have burned them years ago! RRBB They have her in there. It won't help, but it'll take off the edge a bit. And get a spare pillow. When it happened to me I cried all night. You're an earth pony, so you're stronger, but you'll still cry. LyraHands What about coming to see me? I thought you said you would. RRBB Do you want anypony to visit? Or do you prefer to be alone? LyraHands I don't know! RRBB :) cry a bit, RR. I'll be with you later tonight. And please don't hurt yourself anymore. LyraHands I'll try. Thank you. RRBB