Knock, knock, knock...
There was a pause for a couple seconds. No answer.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!
The mare knocked harder the second time. So hard, in fact, that she had opened the door herself, unintentionally. Pushing the door open further, the pale yellow earthpony wandered inside her friends seemingly vacant home. She knew better than to enter a home uninvited, but she figured she would get a pass, as this was her once close friend Scootaloo's place.
"Scoots? Ya there?" The red rosed maned mare asked loudly, her expression turning to one of both worry and curiosity as she was given no response.
The quiet atmosphere was unfamiliar to her, and for a moment she had to do a double take on whether or not this was Scootaloo- the enthusiastic and wild mares- home. She rubbed her head in confusion, guessing that she had to be upstairs sleeping or something. She slowly made her way to Scootaloo's room, opening the door and taking a moment to remember all of the old details she had long forgotten. As much as she hated to admit it, her and Scootaloo stopped talking after they got into high school- after she got her cutiemark. It had been quite a while since she visited her home, and when they got separated into different schools, Scootaloo became more distant.
"Scootaloo? Anypony in here?" She asked again, her efforts becoming more and more dull. "Guess she's not home.. again."
Before high school, Scootaloo would always go out and "hang out" with other ponies. Ponies Apple Bloom didn't know, ponies Apple Jack warned her to stay away from. "They're a bad influence, and they'll lead ya'll down the wrong path!" Thats what her big sister always told her, and she WAS the Element Of Honesty, she couldn't be wrong. Apple Bloom had tried to confront Scoots about those ponies, realizing what negative effects they had on her behavior. The pegasus began to cut classes and skip school, cuss more and get violent faster, she even caught Scootaloo in the bathroom about inject herself with what she had guessed where drugs. Luckily, she stopped her from doing that.
Sadly, Scootaloo didn't listen to her friend, which was also part of what separated their friendship. Even Sweetiebelle became cold with Scootaloo, judging her and repeating what her older sister, Rarity, would say. She tried to stop them from arguing, she really did...
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Scootaloo, you skipped school. Again.
Yeah, I did. Your point?
When are you going to get serious about your education? Your grades are getting lower.
And?
And you're going to get put into a bad high school if you don't stop!
Mind your own business, Belle. Nopony asked you.
Nopony asked you to start hanging out with disgusting lowlife drug addicts, and yet you still did.
Girls, thats enough, We're supposed to be friends, ya'll gotta stop arguing so-
EXCUSE ME?! You wanna say that again, you prissy bitch?
Alright. Low life drug addicts, are you happy? Sweet Celestia, you're becoming such a delinquent.
Sweetiebelle-
Oh, its ALWAYS you white coated rich fucks that start shit like this-
SCOOTALOO!
STAY OUT OF IT, YOU USELESS MUD PONY!
Mud... pony..?
Look at what those troublemakers did to you, you've become an ignorant racist!
THOSE "TROUBLEMAKERS" UNDERSTAND ME! THEY KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE A BLANK FLANK, TO BE LEFT BEHIND BY YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS AND FAMILY! DON'T YOU DARE TALK ABOUT THEM LIKE THAT!
THOSE TROUBLEMAKERS CONVINCED YOU TO TRY AND USE DRUGS!
Ah.. ah'm not a mud pony.. Scootaloo, ya don't mean that.. right?
ATLEAST THEY SUPPORT ME WHEN I'M FEELING LIKE SHIT! YOU'VE BEEN TOO BUSY HELPING RARITY MAKE DRESSES AND GOING TO CANTERLOT TO MEET WITH FAMOUS CUNTS WHILE IM STILL STRUGGLING TO GET MY CUTIEMARK!
Girls..? Please stop fightin'...
AND YOU TOO! YOU'RE ALWAYS ON THAT OLD ASS FARM TRYING TO BUCK TREES INSTEAD OF HELPING ME OUT WHEN I NEED YOU!
A-ah can't help it, ah've gotta help Big Mac on the farm since AJ's goin on trips to help the Elements of Harmony, and Granny Smith is.. is...
Stop picking on her, Scootaloo.
She's what? Dead? Atleast you HAVE family, all mine are dead or don't want anything to do with me. I thought you'd understand that, but you don't. You're both just selfish, those ponies are my REAL friends, not you punks.
Scootaloo, no.. ah didn't mean it, please.. come back...
Don't listen to her, Apple Bloom. She's gonna go down a bad road, just like Rarity said. Lets go, i'll walk you home.
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Remembering this tragic moment, Apple Bloom looked around the room even more, trying to relive the old happy moments of the past with her now rebellious friend by staring at her old Wonderbolts flyers, even the Rainbow Dash poster she had. Gee, how Rainbow Dash would react now if she knew Scootaloo's actions. She wondered if checking up on her would do any good, if it would change her, if she'd ever see her old friend again. Thinking about it made her eyes water-
"OUCH! WHAT IN TARNATION-?!" Applebloom snapped out of her thought, looking down to see that she had knocked herself into a desk. She noticed a large book that was open to a page somewhere in the middle of the entire journal.
It was dated with todays date.
Do ah wanna look at this? Its an invasion of privacy..
But it could tell me where she is!
But its not an honest or morally okay thing to do.
A little peak wouldn't hurt though, right?
With a quick look around to make sure nopony was in the room, the pastel sun colored mare sat down and began to read the contents of the page.. yea, just a peak won't hurt.
Dear Diary (Or anypony unfortunate enough to read this),
Today is the day. The day where I decide that enough is enough. I don't need to be here anymore, nopony will miss me. But.. thats not a bad thing, now theres nothing holding me back anymore from doing this. I'm useless. It seems Celestia doesn't have a purpose for me, my worth went away when my parents died and I was adopted. I thought I could get away from this all, my new parents abuse and neglect, all the bullying about my flight, being a blank flank.. But I can't. I can't because I'm not strong enough, i'm alone. My two greatest friends in the world, the ones I've known since I was a filly, they're gone. I chased them away for some ponies who didn't care about me. All they wanted was my money, and of course I was dumb enough to buy drugs from them and get in trouble for them.
I used to think I would learn how to fly like the other pegasi, that I would train hard and join the Wonderbolts one day and be with her. Her... my idol, my everything, my other mother figure, my hero. I thought i'd be able to be as great as her, Rainbow Dash. That fillies and colts everywhere would look up to me, just as I look up to her. To hear her say the words, "I'm so proud of you, Scoots," as we shot across the sky in glory and fame. But no.. that'll never happen, I was fated to fail the second I came out wrong. I can't even look at myself in the mirror without looking at my wings, one of the things that has caused me so much heartache. Sometimes, I wanted to cut them off, what would be the difference? I can't use them anyways, they're just dead weight that disappoints everypony, that aid in my bullying and self loathing.
I can't do this anymore, I don't WANT to do this anymore, i'm better off dead. Applebloom and Sweetiebelle won't have to worry about helping me get my cutiemark, they'll get to live their lives to their full potential without me weighing them down. Rainbow Dash won't have to feel bad about me being so helpless, she deserves a better #1 fan. My new parents won't have to put up with me anymore, they already told me they would kick me out when I become an adult, anyway..
But.. i'll get to be with my real mom and dad again, I know they're waiting for me. Some nights I can hear their whispers, or maybe i'm dreaming. I miss them so much.. I remember when I was a filly, my dad would always call me a rascal and chase me around the house for hours, he could never catch me. Then, mom would fly out of the kitchen with cookies and ask who was hungry, and everytime dad would try and steal a cookie from my plate, I always caught him. I can't wait to see them again after so much time.
If you want to find my body, i'll be in the Everfree Forest at the bottom of a cliff near the Castle of the Two Sisters.
Your Screwup, Scootaloo
"Oh, no.." Applebloom muttered.
"Oh... no.." She said again.
"OH NO! AH GOTTA FIND HER!" She yelled, tossing the diary into her sattle bag and rushing out of the house, straight into the Everfree Forest. She ran so fast, faster than she ever thought she could. This new adrenaline pumping through her completely blew away all fear of the forest and its dangers, only one thought was circling her mind at this point...
Please, don't let it be too late!