Trixie’s P.O.V.
I still don’t know how it happened, I still don’t know how she did it, but somehow, I couldn’t stop doing it. I couldn’t stop watching her. Every time I saw her, even from the corner of my eye, I would automatically gaze at her, even if I was talking to my friends, Lavender Lace and Fuchsia Blush. I just couldn’t help it. I liked the way she wore her purple hair, I liked the way she walked, her voice, and... my heart just skipped another beat. It always happened whenever I saw or thought about her blue eyes. I found myself watching that girl from the corner. She was alone, taking her books out of her locker.
Her name was Rarity, and how proper her name was. I rarely found myself in situations like this. The last time I had fallen in love... no, I don’t want to remember again. I have suffered enough. She closed her locker... oh, no, she’s coming this way! I quickly turned and ran to my own locker before she saw me. I didn’t dare to look as I heard her walk behind me, completely ignoring me. I knew she was gone once I couldn’t smell her perfume anymore. I couldn’t believe this. I couldn’t believe that girl made me, Trixie Lulamoon, unable to think straight! What’s so special about her? I had to figure this out. It wouldn’t be long before my friends started to question the way I was acting. I heard the bell ring. It was time for class. Good. I needed to keep my mind busy.
I headed to the bus station, alone, like every day when classes were over. I never interacted with my friends outside school. I always prefered it this way. It was a fifteen minutes ride from school to my home. I would usually listen to music to pass time. After the short ride, I stood up when I reached my stop.
“STOP THIS BUS RIGHT NOW!” I yelled, slinging my backpack across my shoulder and bolting forwards with a lurch. I slammed into the bus driver, who in turn slammed on the brakes, bringing the bus to a screeching halt. Twenty pairs of eyes bored into my back. “Thanks. Have a nice day!”
I quietly walked off the bus while everyone kept staring at me in silence. The bus driver closed the door behind me and quickly drove off. I watched it go until it turned around the corner before heading towards the building nearby. I searched for my keys to my apartment. Using the elevator, I went to the third and last floor. I walked down the corridor until I reached my home. I found the door opened. “Hello?” I hoped my brother was home. I hadn’t forgotten to close the front door again, did I?
“Don’t worry, Trix. I’m here!”
I sighed and smiled as I closed the door. I heard footsteps from the room next door approaching. The doors opened and a young adult walked in. “I’m glad I didn’t forget to close the door again. Last time, you didn’t stop talking about it for weeks.”
“That’s what brothers are for, Trix. I was just doing my job.”
I giggled, which made my brother smile wider. Clementine was always smiling. I rarely saw him upset or angry, and when I did, I knew something was terribly wrong. I loved him. He was the only person I could be myself with. Since he was my older brother, he and I looked alike. The differences were that his hair was a little bit more darker than mine, and his eyes were not lavender. His were brown, like hazelnuts. He wasn’t always here to greet me when I came home from school. Sometimes, he had to work extra hours at the local market.
“So...” He said, as he rested his body against the door framework, crossing his arms. “Have you spoken to her yet?”
“Clementine!” I blushed hard and looked away. “N-No.” sometimes, I regret telling him about my crush, but I needed his support. He’s the only one I could rely on.
“Sis, you know you have to talk to her one day. You can’t let a bad experience to haunt you for life. Love is unpredictable.”
“I-I know that, but... I can’t bring myself to talk to her. All I can do is...”
“Stalk her?”
“Don’t say it like that!” I shot him a sharp glare as I yelled. No surprise, he was still smiling. His smile calmed me down. I sighed and focused on the floor. “I promise, I’ll talk to her when I feel ready. It has been awhile since I fell in love.”
“Do you think you’ll be able to do it by the end of the month?”
“Don’t give me deadlines, it will only make things worse!”
My brother chuckled. Seeing me desperate like now always amused him. So evil. “Calm down, I was just kidding.” His face changed from amusement to seriousness. I stood still, looking at him. His sudden expression made me worry. “I just want... I want you to be happy. You hang out with bad influences. This Rarity girl sounds like a nice person, from what you’ve told me. If you approached her...”
“Brother...” I sighed. I know he meant well, but I hadn’t spoken to Rarity for several reasons. “I can’t just greet her one day and talk like if I never did anything to her. I hadn’t exactly treated her well before getting a crush on her. If I approach to her now, she won’t trust me, she won’t listen to me. She will surely ask me to leave her alone. Plus, I don’t think she likes girls like I do. She could reject my feelings.”
“I’m not telling you to confess your feelings to her now. I’m asking you to try to become friends with her. Think of something nice you can do for her. Try something that will make her consider giving you a chance to trust you. You have been stal...” — I glared at him before he finished that word. He cleared his throat and continued — “... admiring her from afar for almost two months now... It won’t be long before she sees you.”
I thought on what my brother just said. He was right. Of course. He always makes good arguments. I had to talk to Rarity before either she or one of her friends discovered me. But what can I do to start with the right foot? Wait... last week... of course! I grinned all of the sudden, but my brother didn’t seem surprised. Was he expecting me to think of something so fast? Whatever, I rushed to my room, closing the door behind me. I threw my bag to my bed and sat on the chair to use my computer. I searched for a store that had what I needed, or better said, what Rarity needed.
It took me three days, but I finally had it. I had Rarity’s gift. I’m thinking on giving it to her after class today, when most people were gone. I didn’t want anyone to see me being kind. Nobody must know. I gazed at the clock. Class was almost over. It was the last class before school was over for the day and the week. Today was Friday. If I didn’t give Rarity her gift today I would have to wait until Monday, and I’m sure that anxiety wouldn’t be nice to me this weekend.
“And this is how we reach to the final result.” Half of the class was either asleep, or about too. No one liked math, and this teacher didn’t make it any easier to stay awake. She always sounded like if she prefered to be anywhere but teaching a class. A regretful teacher, like I love calling her. The students woke up when the bell rang. “Well, that’s it for today. Don’t forget to do your homework! Have a nice weekend!”
I took my belongings from my desk and headed to my locker. Upon opening it, my heart skipped a beat. Seeing the gift in there reminded me what was I about to do. I was going to talk to Rarity for the first time since I got my crush. I was lucky to be able to get it here without anyone noticing. I actually woke up earlier to arrive at school before everyone else, and I hate waking up early. I looked around. People were walking out while having a conversation and many students were talking in groups outside. The corridors were empty. I headed to Rarity’s locker. Hopefully, she would be alone. I looked around the corner and, jackpot!
She was all by herself, checking something on her phone. I took my chance and slowly got closer to her. I didn’t want her to see her until I was right next to her. I stood still once I was behind her, then, I took my fist to my mouth and cleared my throat to catch her attention. She turned, confused, and saw me. Being this close to her... my heart was racing like crazy, and my cheeks were burning! I hoped that she didn’t notice them. My legs were close to start shaking. I tried to speak, but my tongue betrayed me. Her beautiful blue eyes were staring right into mine and her perfume was sending me to the clouds.
“Yes?” she sounded cold. Honestly, I couldn’t blame her. But even knowing she wouldn’t exactly greet me with a smile, I still felt my heart sink. At least she didn’t walk away. Nothing was preventing her from doing so.
“Trixie... umm... I have something for you...”
“I'm sorry, but I couldn’t quite hear what you just said.” I couldn’t believe how calm she was. She actually wanted to hear what I had to say. Her voice, oh, what a sweet voice! My heart skipped another beat. Finally I gained the confidence I needed.
“C-come, please.” I noticed that she was even more confused. Please? It has been a while since I last used in someone who wasn’t my brother.
Rarity looked around. She didn’t trust me. She was scanning the perimeter in case my friends were around. “A-Alright... Just let me close my locker and I’ll go with you...”
“Thank you.” I forgot how to smile at that moment. I was so nervous! After Rarity closed her locker, I turned around and started to walk to where my locker was. I could hear her footsteps behind me. I smiled to myself, finally remembering how to do so. I was happy that she didn’t reject my request to follow me. When I reached my locker, I waited for Rarity to arrive. She crossed her arms.
“Alright, I’m here.”
I took a deep breath and opened my locker. My body was burning. I felt like if I would pass out any moment now. I reached the box that contained my gift and took it out. I showed it to Rarity. “Here... it’s... for you...” Her eyes shifted from the box to me. It was obvious that she didn’t know how to react.
“What is this?”
“I... bought you something...” She took the box and put a hand on the top. She was about to open it when she glared at me. I froze in my place.
“What’s in here? Cockroaches? Because I will tell Principal Celestia if-”
“No, no, it’s nothing like that! Please, open it. It wasn’t easy to find.” Of course she would be suspicious. I have been a terrible person to many people, but Rarity was the only one I regret bullying. Please, Rarity. Let me start over...
She was hesitating to open the box. It took her several seconds to finally do so. She looked inside and her eyes glowed. Seeing her reaction made everything worth it. I couldn’t hold my smile!