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Tia won’t let me go out anymore. She says she is worried about me.
There is nothing wrong with me! I am fine, she just doesn’t understand how I feel. She could never understand losing her place in life. She hasn’t struggled like I have.
There is no way that perfect model of righteousness could ever understand the struggles of somepony who has lost everything. Everything hurts, but at the same time everything is numb. I can’t feel anything anymore and yet I constantly feel like there are a multitude of knives stabbing at me every moment of the day.
I can’t explain properly. Words just haven’t been created to explain how deeply wrong I feel inside. My sister says she will be bringing a doctor to the castle to talk to me but there is no way I will let them in. I don’t care what they say. There is nothing wrong with me.
I’m going to go out tomorrow. I don’t care if Tia tries to stop me. I have powerful magic that she can’t begin to comprehend. I’m going to see Princess Twilight. She spent a long time alone so surely she will understand how I feel, and maybe she will have some ideas how to fix my dream walking problems. We can have breakfast together and talk about our lives. Maybe she will tell me about some of the adventures she has had with her friends. I’m sure that will brighten up my day.
Anyway, the sun will need to come up soon so I’m going to go prepare the teleport spell to get me out of here.
Princess Luna.